Monday, May 28, 2007

When will it be when i prove that i truly love you.

I am just like the sun and you the flower.
I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom.
Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you.
But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you.
Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight.
*this is the story line.

To be happy,
You can change the world,
Or change your thinking.
But to be realistic,
You have to change ur thinking to be happy.
As for me,
I will change the world for you.

As day goes by,
My love for you grew so much that a day apart was intolerable.
Dear, I love you so much.


Looking forward to the day we will see each other again.
2 more days uh.
Since i already waited for 3 days,
No harm waiting for 2 more days.

People say,
Longest wait is not created by the amount of time passed,
But by your mind.
Its true, isn't it?

Sunday, May 27, 2007

It's feel good to be in love,
But not to fall out of love.
Love makes you happy,
But will also make you sad.
It's worst than being in hell.
It causes you to smile,
But it will also cause you to frown.
It cause you to feel hurt,
And also cause you to happy.
So, is love a pain or a gain?


Darl, I miss you so much.
Come back soon will ya?
I'm gonna bear the loneliness without you for 2 more days,
And thats it.


You never fail to make my day, dear.
I love you many many. (:
Be it life or death,
I will stay and stand by you.

I'm suffering in silence.

i love you darl.






If i were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ear that's ok
Would you stand by me, let me told you tight,
And say you love me one more time..

If i feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me, would you run with me
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be the one,
To take my breathe away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be the one,
To take my breathe away?

Would you be there..

If i'm away, would you still think of me,
And wish that you could hold me now,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
To take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that you love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be there,
To kiss my pain away...

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
To take my breath away.

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be there,
To kiss my pain away...

Would you be there? for me...


..............


Today actually wanna wake up to message her.
I set the alarm clock at 5.
I woke up at 5.
She hasn't woke up yet.
Feeling so tired, I went back to sleep.
Woke up around 7 plus, Saw her msg.
My god, She's really damn sweet.


I miss you very much.
I love you whole-heartedly.
One day without you by my side,
I am feeling like hell.
How i am gonna tahan till tuesday?


Darling, you are my everything.
Without you will be like life without colours.
I really really love you.
Nothing could express my love for you,


My love i had for you is more than anything.
Trust me won't ya?
i know you do.
I trust you like how much you trust me.


I'll treasure you.
I will give you as much as i could.
Spend more time with you. (if i can)
Will not let you be worried for me.


I love you always dear. (:

Saturday, May 26, 2007

My eyes is swollen.
Okay, Whatever.

.......

Everytime i look through the messages you send me,
I teared.
Even now i'm typing this,
I am tearing.
I know you don't want me to be unhappy,
But i can't help it.


Wonder what am i gonna do without you.
How am i gonna live without you?
Wonder what if one day you will to leave me,
How am i gonna live on with life?


I love you as it is.
You don't have to do anything.
I love the way you are now.


I love you.
I've no idea how to express it out,
But all i can say is,
I truly truly love you.
You are the one and only one in my life.
There will be no other person except you.
You are my life,
I love you wholeheartedly.


As much as i don't want you to go,
I still had to let you go.
I can't be selfish.
Enjoy yourself there dear.


From the day i was born,
I never teared for anyone more than you.
You make me tear when i am happy, touched and even sad.


You are the most important person in my life.
No one can replace you in my heart.
I love you darling (:

Friday, May 25, 2007

Training was super super tired.
Ran 1.2km. Coach expect us to run for 5 mins.
Crazy.
Do skipping, use the tube.
Skip using 1 leg, cause the other leg the knee pain.
So many people doing the same.
Then do weights.
Think tomorrow gonna have muscle aches. :/


Darl come to find us.
How sweet!
Early in the morning, she send me a lovely message.
That really make my day, dear.

She wanted to send me home,
I don't let. Hehe!
I send her to khatib.
Then she msged me,
Said that she taking cab to yew tee.
But when the time i saw the msg,
I already reached home.
Cause my hp no battery.

Sorry darl.
I'm really very touched.
Touched to tears.
I love you many many many! (:



If loving you is right, I can't go wrong.
I'll never let you down girl, will never let you go.
You are the earth,
I am the sea.
The world together.
I'll be all that you need.
If you should leave,
And go your own way.
I'll still love,
I will survive just for you.

Baby, run to me.
And I'll take you into my arms.
I'll never let you go.
If you give one chance to tell you how i was feeling,
I would hold your hands,
And tell you i won't,
Live my life without you.


Would you be there to love,
To be with me.
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that,
You'll always be the one to take my love away.


If i ask you not to go,
Would you not go?
I know you won't.
But its alright.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Someone is very proud of you.
Someone is thinking of you.
Someone cares about you.
Someone misses you.
Someone wants to talk to you.
Someone wants to be with you.
Someone hopes you aren't in trouble.
Someone is thankful for the support you have provided.
Someone wants to hold your hand.
Someone hopes everything turns out all right.
Someone wants you to be happy.
Someone wants you to find them.
Someone is celebrating your successes.
Someone wants to give you a gift.
Someone think you ARE a gift.
Someone hopes you are not too cold, or too hot.
Someone wants to hug you.
Someone loves you.
Someone wants to lavish you with small gifts.
Someone admires your strength.
Someone is thinking of you and smiling.
Someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on.
Someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun.
Someone thinks the world of you.
Someone wants to protect you.
Someone would do anything for you.
Someone remembers you and wishes you were there.
Someone needs to know that your love is unconditional.
Somebody values your advice.
Someone wants to tell you how much they care.
Someone wants to stay up watching movies with you.
Someone wants to share their dreams with you.
Someone wants to hold you in their arms.
Someone wants YOU to hold them in your arms.
Someone treasures your spirit.
Someone wishes they could STOP time because of you.
Someone can't wait to see you.
Someone wishes that things didn't have to change.
Someone loves you for who you are.
Someone loves the way you make them feel.
Someone wants to be with you.
Someone hears a song that reminds them of you.
Someone wants you to know they are there for you.
Someone is glad that you're their someone.
Someone stayed up all night thinking about you.
Someone is alive because of you.
Someone is wishing that you would notice them.
Someone wants to get to know you better.
Someone wants to be near you.
Someone misses your guidance and advice.
Someone has faith in you.
Someone trusts you.
Someone needs your support.
Someone needs you to have faith in them.
Someone needs you to love them.
Went to the New Water thingy.
Kinda cool.
At around simei there i suppose?


Msging darl all the way.
She's so sweet can.
She make my day man.
Aww, I love her so. (:


I'm super tired now.
But i gonna wait for my darl to online.
She's having training now.


IMISSYOU <3
21/05/2007

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Sigh. Got back my results.
I am such a failure can.

English : 47/100
Maths Overall : 49.1/100
Chinese CA1 : 56/100
Chinese SA1 : 57/100
Paper 1 : 26/70
Paper 2 : 66/110
Science : 47/100
Geography : 38/100
Literature : 12.5/30
Art: 62/100


Dude, so far only pass Chinese & Art.
Pro right. -.-

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Hahas. I won't lose too!

I LOVE VALERIE!
I LOVE VALERIE!
I LOVE VALERIE!
I LOVE VALERIE!
I LOVE VALERIE!


Hohoho! i got 5.
You only got 4.
I won again. (:
I am so fated to 3 can. -.-

English = 47/100
Maths = 47/100
Science = 47/100


Sigh. My results so lan can.
Each paper also need 3 more marks to pass.

I don't think i can get 60% for overall anymore.
Anyway, it doesn't matter anymore.
You say if i didn't get 60% or above for overall,
You won't talk to me.
Now you don't even talk to me,
So whats the different whether did i get it or not.


3 more days to the 8th month. (:

Monday, May 21, 2007

Got back my english results.
Paper 1 = 28/60 fail by 2 marks.
Paper 2= 24/50 fail by 1 mark lor.

52/110 X 100 = 47.

English got 47 over 100.


Guess i got to really get over you.
Well, I don't think i could,
But ...........
Anyway, must fight for your own happiness kay.
I'll support you till the end.
Be happy!
I wanna see you smile. (:


For the past 7 months,
I hope the best for you.
I hope that you would be mine,
But its seems that it'll never happen again.
Once, I almost got over you.
But the feelings came back again.
I couldn't help it.
It was not of my control.


Since 25th Nov 2006 till now.
I'm still waiting for you.
Sigh.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Went Phs to watch match.
And yeah, saw them there.
Sigh,
I guess i have to forget you once again.
Which i don't want to.


They went off early.
Msged her, but didn't reply.
I tell Shasha confirm 100% chop won't reply one.
And she really didn't.


Was shocked when they came back.
Then Shasha ask Zouyi call me from the court.
Then she point to me.
They went off at the second set.
It was quite late already.


Ended around 6.40pm.
Then went home.
Reached home about 7.40.
Gosh, i took 1 hour to reach home. Lol -.-

Just now when crossing the road, almost kena bang by motorcycle.
Was reading the messages that * send me.
Then got 1 person behind shout. i chua tio.

I'm not your type & you are dumb last time right.
Its alright for me.
I don't mind (:


Lastly, I love no one.
Including myself. (:

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Didn't went for training today.
Was kinda lazy.
Muscle aches on my arm.
I find it hard to move my right hand.
It gets hurt whenever i move it.


Give me a chance.
And i'll prove it to you,
I truly love you.
Nothing could express my love for you.


Its better to remain silent.
&& if you know,
You would try to avoid me.
So yeah, what for?
I feel that friends are better,
At least we could talk to each other,
Without feeling awkward.

But, i just don't want to be just friends.
Perhaps, I'm waiting for you.

Friday, May 18, 2007

I love Carolyn more than anyone do.
I can't live without her.
I live for her.
I'll be there for you anywhere, anytime.
It hurts me when i see you sad.
LOL!


My stomach is in pain now. =/
I bet no one cares.


No one understands how i feel.
I only hope that she would be happy,
&& i'll also be (:

I once tried so hard to forget you.
But, it seems that i couldn't.
As time goes by, i'll eventually fall back in love with you.
Sigh.
Maths Paper 2 was difficult can.
I think i'll flunk it.
So happy can. No more exams - for the time being.
Can play le. No need keep studying anymore. (:

Must find 1 day, go out together okay.
Cannot pangseh one leh.
I miss you so.

If time could just be at 1 point of life, it will be good.


ILOVEYOU<3

♥LOVEYOUALWAYS ♥

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Science paper was rather easy. Maybe because i did study.
My brother revise it with me (:
I expect it to be more difficult.

Tomorrow, Last & Final Paper && Freedom!! Woots! (:
Maths Paper 2
Hope it would be easy.
I m lazy to do maths.
Must practice practice and practice.
So bored can.

.......

I was under the shade waiting for you,
I came because I missed you.
It had been some times I last seen you.
I can still remember you heartening smile,
Your looks and the warmth you gave me.
You took so long..
Minutes seems like hours,
But it's alright,
Just when i about to give up waiting and walk away,
I turned and saw you standing infront of me with ur sweetest smile,
The look in your eyes just melts my heart.
I really want to accompany you home everyday.
I want to hold your hand,
I want to walk with you,
I want to sing with you till the end.
But, Are you willing to hold my hand?
Walk with me?
From The Day i saw you,
I knew my feelings for you wasn't simple.
I didn't have courage to say it out.
Just on that day, you told me you are leaving,
I turn away and i speak to myself.
I really love you and my feeling for you wasn't simple.
I love you.
Don't leave me alone here..


Honestly,i'm not a romantic person.
I dun know how to talk to people.
I open my mouth,
I would talk the wrong things and they will be angry.
What can i give,
I will give you.
What i can't,
I'll try my best to give you.

Why am i writing this?

Just Because,
8 letters 3 words, 1 meaning.
I wish i could hold your hand and tell you the 3 words,
But i just don't have the courage to do so.
So, I have to tell you here.
I LOVE YOU...

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Literature test was kinda easy.
Did for like 20 mins && went to sleep.
People all write more than a piece of paper.
I only write 1 piece of paper, 1 page.
How pro am i. hahas (:
Carolyn will kill me if she know.


Ended at 8.45am. Super early can.
Then went to IMM walk walk.
Play at the playground.
Around 12 plus went to Tm.
When we getting off the mrt, saw the gerlyn they all.
Then to NgeeAnn Sec.
Sat at the void deck opp. NgeeAnn.
Then got a guy ask us whether want buy cigarette 5 dollars.
Woah, amazing sia.
He directly ask seh.
We went to buy *.
When we go back,
Then Lixuan call.
I was like where are they seh.
I look outside then saw them.
Then quickly hide. LOL!
They take 291 to Tm.
We take the next bus.
From the void deck, we run to the bus stop. haha.
Went Tm, never see them. Went around look for them, also never see.
Even went to Century Square. But don't have.
Guess no fate bah.
Then when we about to go home, saw them.

Carolyn very fierce can.
Then Shasha go say, you merabel's mother ah.
Then she go say something like that.
Funny seh.

Took train home. Super tired can.


&& Today i almost kena bang by car two times seh.
And almost bang into the wall 2 times. Gundoo right.
Argh. Elaine don't hai me la.


Name 12 people randomly.

1.Carolyn
2.Suzanne
3.Aikpeng
4.Lyvia
5.Joan
6.Elaine
7.Samantha
8.Shasha
9.Irene
10.Zhi hui
11.Raehanna
12.Dexter

1.What if #7 [Samantha] fallen in love with you??

- Lol. It wouldn't happen.

2.What if #1 [Carolyn] say out your crush??

- She don't know anyway. So many people know le.

3. What if #3 [Aikpeng] kissed you on your cheek??

- Not as if he didn't before. He's my ex what.

4.What will u do if #9 [Irene] asked you to be his/her stead??

- It wun happen. (:

5.What would you do if #12 [Dexter] backstab you??

- He's also not close to me. What for want backstab?

6.What will you do if #2 [Suzanne] love you??

- Good then. Jio her lo. Haha. No la, She's not les.

7.What will you do if #11 [Raehanna] is your secret admirer??

- No way, kill me will you? Hahas. No la, she is my meimei (:

8.What will you if #10 [Zhi hui] killed your parents??

- She my meimei where will kill my parents. If she would, i'll kill her first.

9.What will u do if #6 [Elaine] ask you out on a date??

- Depends on my mood. No la, see who got go.

10.What will u do if #8 [Shasha] stole your boyfriend/girlfriend??

- She won't. She got hers i got mine (:

11.What will you do if #4 [Lyvia] wanna to cha cha with you??

- Lol. Its impossible. She's not les.

12.What will you do if #5 [Joan] destory your day??

- No idea. Cause she didn't before.

13. Tag 5 people to do this quiz.

1. Carolyn
2. Joan
3. Lyvia
4. Shasha
5. Irene

Monday, May 14, 2007

Girl you know, I'd give you everything.
I wanna hold your hand,
And say the words he never said.
I'll make you promises you can believe.

When you're down and you feel so lonely.
Turn around, you can come to me.

You can just be yourself,
Cause I don't want nobody else.
All of your secrets are safe with me.
For the kind of love you can trust,
For more than just a crush,
Baby, won't you just come to me?

Let me be the one,
Telling you it's alright.
Sharing the smiles and tears you cry.
Let me be the one,
Loving you when you're weak.
For all of the strength you need,
You can come to me.




Maths paper 1 was kinda easy, but i afraid i would fail.
I anyhow scribble on it, then went to sleep. (:
After the paper went to JE.
Lyvia and co. went there for ice-skating.
We went there to see.
Lyvia claimed to be good at it.
Watched like from 12++ till 5 plus.
My stomach pain like bloody hell don't know what.


Okay, I am bored.
I love *. (:

Saturday, May 12, 2007

我爱你, 所以选者让你走.
(I love you, so i choose to let you go.)

我可以为了你上刀山下油锅.
(I can climb knife mountain & go in oil pot because of you.) LOL -.-

我可以为了你牺牲一切.
(I can sacrifice everything because of you.)



Thought of the past......

Why did i say wanna break with him.
I am so foolish at the time.
We have so much fun, but thats already the past.
Whats over is over.
What is done cannot be undone.

Friday, May 11, 2007

Yesterday have no time to post. Was busy studying geo.
Lots to study. I was too tired. Didn't bothered.
Went to sleep. hahah.
English & Chinese Paper 1 was like easy?
Although most people say it was difficult.




Today, English paper 2 was kind of easy.
Geo. Not that difficult. think will fail.
I randomly write also can get correct.
Pro uh. lol -.-

Omg, someone is so childish.
throw paper at people. WOW! -.-
Grow up la. So big liao still so childish.



















Cute uh. super cute de lo (:











Era & me (:
Hardworking uh. Studying for the damn geo!

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Today is the last day Zeng Lao Shi is teaching us.
Tomorrow will be the last day in school.
She is posted to NJC. Sigh.
During Chinese lesson, She cried.
I got Full marks for Listening Compre. haha (:

Took lots of pics. It doesn't turn out nice.
I wore specs today. (:
Look so nerd. hahas.
Im a guaikia okay.
Don't play play.

After school, talked with Zeng lao shi till 6 plus.
Know alot of her secrets. Saw her Bf's photo too. HAHAH.
Unbelieveable, She actually knew TAP is my ex.
OMG!!!!!


ELAINE!!!!
Stop messing my hair & press my shoulder.
Super pain can. -.-

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

LALALA!!


Why must things end up like that.
I started vulgar first, cause i was very annoyed and pissed off.
Everyone would get pissed off for waiting for more than 1 hour without being informed.
Tell me who doesn't.
But you both don't have the need to lie. (or maybe not)
You told me to go ask mdm katijah, and i did.
She say you didn't informed her.
So, what exactly is it?
All i want to know is the truth.
You say i hum ji, nevermind.
I promised * i cannot scold vulgar anymore.
I straightened out my thoughts.
What is done cannot be undone.
SIGH!



Slept during English today.
After English was Dnt.
Cant even walk straight.
Giddy then see things blur blur.
Dnt, finish the menu holder in 2 periods= 1 hour.
Pro uh. Hahas. Teacher also got help me de. (:
Went back to class for Maths.
Surprisingly i got 14/20 for the Maths test.
Thought that i would fail the paper, but i didn't.
I didn't even study for it can.
li hai right. haha. BHB~

Monday, May 07, 2007

Nothing you do could change my mind.


How will you feel if your friends pang seh you for more than 1 hour.
Obviously it isn't a good feeling.
N they don't even bother to send you a msg or even call you to tell you.
A message doesn't cost that much right.
I waitied for them to come back till i read finish the whole story book.
How hurt will you feel.
Say what your friend sad or whatever then cannot pang seh her.
I am also your friend right.
Then you both pang seh me.
Spare a thought of others la.
Even if its true, don't need take more than 1 hour right.
Somemore theres two person.
You tell me, how big is the school.
It doesn't up much time to just inform me right.
Don't think i don't know you both go find vera they all.
Did you both ever spare a thought of me?
Put yourself in my shoes la.
What will you feel if your friends treat you like that.
To think i waited for you all for more than an hour.
How foolish i am.
As time passes, I thought that you both would come back.
But, you both didn't.
I told myself.
When i finish reading the story book,
and both of you are not back yet.
It shows that you both don't even treat me as a friend.



Tears just kept rolling down. When you all called me, I didn't want to answer.
I scared i would just break out.
Then everyone will be looking at me.

Cool uh. I love this post. No one can see what i wrote. HAHAHA!


Can someone just spare me a listening ear?
I really don't know what should i do.
Confused...
Can anyone tell me what should i do?
Sigh. SAD!!!!
















Volleyballers cum Skaters! (:

Saturday, May 05, 2007

I promise you my life
I promise we'll never be apart
I promise not to hurt you
I promise to never make you cry
I promise to always trust you
I promise not to lieI promise you forever
I promise to do things right
I promise to always be there
I promise until the end
I promise to be your best friend
I promise this forever
Your the PEANUT to my BUTTER
Your the STAR to my BURST
Your the POP to my TART
Your the MILKY to my WAY
Your the FRUIT to my LOOP
Your the LUCKY to my CHARMS
Your the ICE to my CREAM


I'll promise you all these if you'll give me the chance to.
4 days since i last posted.
Getting kinda lazy to post.


School was boring, i feel so sleepy in school. sigh.
5 days to the start of mid-year exams.
Have plenty of homeworks. Stress!
I bet i am gonna flunk all my subjects.
If that happens, i am so gonna die.
Mummy will scold me like hell & she will confiscate my phone ):


I'll wait till that day you tell me that i have the chance.
Nobody wanna see us together, but it matter (cause i haven't got you babe)
So far yet so far. hahas -.-



















Chinese workshop. style uh. the mask got heart and star.















Hand painted by ME! haha. Nice right. i knew it. lol.


















Taken @ IMM adidas shop.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

HAHA! This is my 100th post.
Nothing much to say.

This is for *

You're the one i wanna chase,
You're the one i wanna hold.

My love for you is more important than life,
My love for you is more precious than my own life.

I'll ease your mind if you give me the chance,
I'll never make you cry,
C'mon let's try.

Nothing you do could change my mind.

The more I learn the more I love,
The more my heart can't get enough.

I love you no matter what.

I've been waiting for you,
Never found anything else but you ,
But waiting for you.

I keep hearing your name,
Nothing else sounds the same,
As hearing your name.

Wherever you go, whatever you do,
I will be right here, waiting for you,
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks,
I will be right here waiting for you.

I can't exlpain this feeling,
I think about it everyday,
And even though we've moved on,
It gets so hard to walk away.

Guess I gotta live my life from day to day?

Hoping maybe you'll be by my side,
And though I tell myself not to be afriad,
To move on but it seems I can't.

So hard to express this feeling,
Cause nobody compares to you,
And you know i love you more than anyone do.

And I don't know,
How to be fine when I'm not.
Cause I don't know,
How to make the feeling stop.

This feeling's taking control of me,
and I can't help it.

It's getting hard to,
Be around you.
There's so much I can't say.

Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
But I don't want too.
Just gotta say it all before I go.

This emptiness is killing me,
I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long.

I should'not love you, But i want to<3