sigh. why must * tell me about those thing. as if like i don't know. i just don't wanna to think about it. since * told me, i have been thinking and thinking. haiishh. it make me sad. my heart is bleeding, holding back my tears, its just hurt me too much.

For joan,
To me, living in illuions is better then knowing the facts. maybe to you its not, but to me its better. facts can be really hurtful at times.


The efforts, care and love that we have given, you don't appreciate it at all. We are the stupid ones, to get fooled around by you all. sigh. sad.


Sacrifice our blood,they don't even care or appreciate.