心有余而力不足

I shall conclude that i won't be a setter,
Unless out of a sudden i like to run? Hahaha :D
Training today was super tiring..
Set set set, serve serve serve, dive dive dive.

I think i kind of injured my left wrist,
And i got a big baluku on my knee. Cause of diving -.-
Walk also pain ok, stupid shit.
I would rather choose to be reserve than setter (:

我决定放弃, 再等下去也不会有结果.
我要开心!

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[Edit]

Friendster horoscope :
Someone you know has made a radical change
-- They are not the same anymore.

I've been a fool all along.

[/Edited]

Be happy.

Tagged by denise.

1] At what age do you want to be a mother/father?
- Why do i have to think so far?

2] What i want the most now?
- Hmm, maybe to forget love.

3] Who is the person you trust the most?
- Sorry to say, there's no one.

4] Do you think you have enough confidence?
- No, no at all.

5] If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- Say already won't come true, so shhhh..

6] Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Uh huh, so what?

7] What are you afraid to lose the most now?
- I've lost the one.

8] Do you believe in eternity love?
- No, definitely not.

9] If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- Maybe.

10] List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- Denise ah? Hmm, _________ Fill in the blank yourself :D

11] What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- Love each other, sweet and of course sincere la! Still need to say? (Of course still got many more la :D)

12] What type of person do you hate the most?
- Liars and of course hypocrites.

13] Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- Like duh.

14] Do you believe in God?
- Yeah.

15] What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- I've lost the most important thing in my life..

16] Can you rewind time?
- I can't, i would if i can.

17] At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
- The latter :)

18] What kind of friend you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
- Someone that can be trusted.

19] Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
- Hmm, _____________ Fill in yourself :D

20] The place u want to go the most with your love ones?
- Anywhere will do. Cause with my love one, nothing else matters.

Instructions:Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question,
make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all .

People who've been tagged:

1. Merabel
2. Merabel
3. Merabel
4. Merabel
5. Merabel
6. Merabel
7. Merabel
8. Merabel

Cheer up, thats the most that i can do.

My heart to you is given.
Do give yours to me; We'll lock them up together,
And throw away the key.

I've to smile, idw ppl to worry about me.
Though i'm sad but life still goes on.
So cheer up too yeh?
(To whoever who's sad :D)

Lovescope:
March 30, 2008
You're not happy when you feel restricted.
You need to feel you have the freedom to do what you want,
When you want to.
If you meet somehow someone who makes you feel confined,
Give 'em a pass.
The right person lets you be you.


Just a joke :

If all of my friends were to jump of the bridge,
I won't jump with them.
I'll be at the bottom to catch them.
So many ppl to catch, later my hand break ah.
HAHAHA! :D


I'll be there for you whenever you need someone to talk to.

Take care, cause i can't be there to take care of you anymore.

Hahah, Suzanne is crazy over this 2 pictures of mine! :D







































Hahah, she's jealous that i'm cuter than her :D
LOL!!!!
Ok, i seriously got nothing better to do.

Tears just keep rolling down.

Hai, i'm feeling oh-so-sad.

Ok, there's training tomorrow, 10-1.
I don't have the mood to train.
Hopefully i'll be fine tomorrow.

I knew the answer, but i'm gonna act like nothing has happen.
At least to her, idw to spoil the relation between her and me.
I won't, i won't because of you spoil it.

Look here,
I love my darling!
(You know who you are)

--

You will find as you look back upon your life,
That the moments when you've really lived,
Are the moments when you've done things in the spirit of love.

Idk how you feel, i want to know.

Won bp 2-1 today, very close.
I guess they must be very upset/angry?
I don't know :D

More and more couples around,
So envy of them can.
Sweet couples! Hahah, jealous!!

Go find (you know who) for all you want,
Cause i know i'll never be better than (you know who).
Should i perserve on or let go?
Should i let my feelings be known?
Tell me what should i do?
My heart hurts like @!#$#@$%!
But still, i have to face it with a smile.
You know how difficult it is? Hai.

Don't scold me cause i really have no mood to blog.

你要我怎么挽回这爱情?

Oh ya, i'm here to talk bout yesterday.
Went for that baptism, and was like falling asleep la..
Damn freaking boring, imagine you have to sit down for 4hours without doing anything.
Can't even use phone la, wth. Then i was like secretly using, HAHAHA :D

I'm too lazy to explain the details, so it ended around 12? Somewhere there.
After that went to gabriel's house (i bet no one knows about him),
They are having a party there, i bet there more than 30ppl there.
As time goes by, ppl keep leaving till like left 20 over ppl.
Almost everyone's playing games, those chim chim games.
Like taboo and 1more dk what. I don't even understand some of the words there -.-
And they don't play games like monopoly or psp.
They play WII, kinda new to me..

After that my bro asked everyone to go for a swim outside at around 3am.
And he himself didn't swim, like wth.
The water was damn cold, and played uno in the water.
Of course, the uno cards are water-proof.
Played water polo, monkey and many many other things.
And the neighbour kinda shout through the fences,
Called us not to make noise. She complained la!
And the time was like 5am or something.
Then i said morning excerise what, you dk ah :D
So, we sat at the pool steps and talked..
Till like 6plus or what, went to bathe..
Eat, play and then fall asleep. Heh (:
Slept for like 2and a half hour only?
From 8am to 10.30am.
Ok, damn power right. Shasha says its a miracle for me to sleep late and wake up early.
Of course i will wake up early, its not even my house what. Hah.
If its my house, damn cool la. Got swimming pool somemore got slide.
Plus the house so big. But it takes a long time to walk to the house from the bus stop.
Damn eerie can. Reach home around 3plus 4.
Slept till like 7pm or something then online!
I've not bathe yet, hahah :D

I'm gonna take a shower and watch the television!
And Suzanne Lee, look at how long my post is.
Stop saying my post is so short -.-

Go away you freaking fever.
Why you keep coming back? I don't like you la.

I use laughter to cover sadness, how amazing.

爱情这么伤

Heh, i'm back from training, early uh :D
Cause...
I have to go for my brother baptiseeedddddddd.
From like 8.30pm till midnight? A waste of my time.
Supposed to go out at 6, but look at the time now.
I've not shower, not smelly ok anyhow!
I need my sleep, if not my darkrings gonna be darker and darker.
I guess i'll be bored there, so ppl message me!

K, i've to get ready to go out otherwise my mummy will nag at me :D
Ciaoz

I don't know how you feel, ily so much

I'm feeling terrible.
Idk how you feel, you never say.
I don't think i'm important to you, maybe.

A random pic :D






I got nothing to blog about! :D
Actually i have, but i didn't blog it out.
Or can i say i didn't post it, cause its in drafts ((:
But too bad, you can't see it! Sad? Cry then.

Ni hai ai wo ma?

Hai, i'm feeling so stress now.
Studies.. I want to get good grades, but i'm lazy?
I don't find an interest in studying, why must we study?
Waste of time, energy and money :D
But also, if we don't go to school its so boring.
Life is just so boring. Following the same cycle almost everyday.
Sleep-wake up-school-volleyball-home.

I really don't know how you're feeling,
But i feel that the love isn't there anymore.
Maybe friends are better off, i think it is.
I try not to quarrel with you, and what you did? Nothing..
Did you even appreciate it? I doubt so.

I have so much things to worry about, so don't add on to it.
My life is so stressful, but who knows?
Not even my mother knows bout it.
No one, not even a person..
And yet, i have to act like i'm so happy.
Forcing myself to smile, afterall its just a fake smile.

I'm feeling terrible (inserts sad face)
I admire strong ppl! :D

Have you make the wrong decision?

Heh, my 300th post! :D
Shouldn't i get an reward or something?
Lol!

I'm so tired, i done 6 slides out of the 15 slides that i'm suppose to do.
But i guess i'll stop there, cause i'm too lazy.
Anyway, its a miracle cause i did A homework :D
Right right? Raise up your hand if you agree!
Don't really do that cause ppl will think your screw is loose (((:

Maybe you've made the wrong decision,
Its not too late to say now anyway.
Speak your mind (:
I just have the feeling that it isn't right, i've no idea.

&& My phone bill is like 78bucks?
My mummy is so gonna kill me if she knows bout it.
She will cancel my line, saddedd..

爱要怎么说

I love you, my darling :D
Bleh, whatever! :X

I'm feeling damn bored now, and there's school later.
I didn't even do one of the homeworks that i've been given,
I'm gonna be so dead.
A week passes so quickly, i've not enjoy it yet :D

Today is suppose to be our 8th week and 4more days to 21st, but..
It doesn't matters anymore ya?
Cause some things can't be said here, our lil secret alright? :D
Keep it between the two of us ((:

Imy (inserts sad face)

Mwahaha. I am JERMAINE TAN here! Aren't you jealous? Loool! [:

I asked mermer to update, but then she's so lazy, as yknow that's her normal self. Yeah, so don't get pissed when she tells you that she's too lazy to do anyth, except to just close her eyes and sleep, heh. She stayed at home all day to slack. She claims that it's her off day, but I guess that's just an excuse for her to just laze around aye? Haha, just kidding. Mer don't give me any birdface after reading this ok! :D

So this is moixzs update for Mermerbel tday! :D

Friendly today with ACJC, won 6-0.
Played setter for the last 2 sets.
Idk how to set la, wth. Easiest is set to Zhugong!
My setting sucks! :D
I don't like to be a setter! Cause i'm lazy :X

Idk how i feel now, the only reason why i dowan to p cause i scared will quarrel.
Friends are better off, no?
You won't even sacrifice a small thing like that for me, and thats what you call love?
Like woah, love... It isn't as simple as you think.
Cause you won't know how i feel, and maybe thats good?
Hai, i really don't know how la (inserts sad face)

I think i've grown stronger after so many things that has happened, maybe..

Cause now that i've know the truth,
The wish of mine seems harder to come true.
The person you really love wasn't me all along.
I guess they were right, i've been a fool all along.
I know, she's much better than me.
And in fact, in every way.

Those little words/actions of yours could make me happy,
But i just wouldn't want to show it out.
To the world you may be one person but to someone you may be the world.
And to me, you are the one.
Don't cry cause its over, smile because it happened.

The moment you went away, i miss you so much.
I choose not to say, not to show it.
Cause love is precious.
You'll tend to treasure it when its not yours.

Everything does end, but life still goes on.
Take the experience back home from where it began.
C'mon ppl, lets move on.

I'm happy, happy to make you hate me.
I don't care who believe who, i know that i didn't edit the post.
And i think that the post is real.
Wo dui de qi tian di liang xin (Idk how to explain it in english)
Make all my team mates believe you, I don't care.
Cause this won't affects the relation between my team mates and I.
At least to me?

Hate me for all i care, it doesn't matter.
Maybe i make the right choice, to choose not to patch with you. Maybe.
I'm glad, glad to found out the truth.
You said it isn't real, how do you want me to believe?
It looks real, so real. How am i suppose to assume its fake?
Its not i don't want to believe, is i can't.
I can't, don't you understand?

I never thought things will turn out this way,
I never thought your feelings will come back for her.
Well, if thats so thats good.

Leave me alone,
I want to be happy.
A wish that would never come true.
Never! N-E-V-E-R!!

I hate you for lying to me.
Though i know hate is a very strong word.

I can let the world know, by just copying and paste it here.
I never thought you would lie.
I guess i've make the right choice last time to make you promise me,
That you won't contact her.
Well, i guess you just can't bear to not contact her, and thats why you broke your promise.
Like woah, perfect love. How amazing uh.
To think that i actually believe what you said.
Now i know that its all bullshit.
BULLSHIT! You understand? BULLSHIT!
I'm so disappointed, disappointed..
To think that i actually feel that way.

You don't mind, and you don't expect anything in return?
You love her?
Well, by all means.

Maybe this will be the motivation for me to forget bout you.
I won't forget that post on 29th feb 2008.
I'll bear in mind that.

Don't say if i really like you, I'll believe what you say.
Put yourself in my shoes la,
I wrote a post something like that,
What will you feel? You think you will believe what i'll say after that?
I doubt so.

Though i know no one will understands how i feel,
But i'll still live life as per normal.

Suzanne say update, so update lor.

Today meet yuliah&weibin at je, then go library study!
So guai right! First time hear merabel study sia!
Reach there no space so go basement and study,
Hahah, weibin insisted!

Study study study till 4plus isit,
Then went Jec eat walk play arcade, watch ppl play icehokey (sp?)
Went back library around 6plus then saw brenda?
Study for awhile then go home liao lo.

SEEEEEE, I got update hor!!

I'm here to clarify one thing.
I DON'T HAVE SPLIT PERSONALITY!
If you still think i am, then you're an idiot cause you don't understand simple english!

I REALLY DON'T HAVE LA!
AND I DIDN'T TAG AS CHARMAINE!
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SHE HAS THE SAME IP ADDRESS WITH ME?
HACKER RIGHT! WTH!

I REALLY REALLY REALLY DON'T HAVE SPLIT PERSONALITY OK!
REALLY DON'T HAVE LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

See how many underlines do i have :D

This was make blur cause idw let you see my results! HAHAHAH!

My receipt @ popular!

A total of $91.07 :)

Look at how long it is!!

I'm sick, so i didn't go to school.
Now you see this, don't ask me why.

You know i really don't want to care,
I forced myself.
To be ignorant, i think its good.
Hate me will you?
I'll feel better.

All of this while, i've been lying to myself.
Saying i don't love you anymore.
But y'know what, it isn't true at all.

Forget me and move on (:


Top8 groupings!

Shuqun Secondary
Bukit Panjang Govt High
Chung Cheng High Yishun
Sembawang Secondary

Jurong Secondary
Presbyterian High
Xin Min Secondary
Yuying Secondary

I'm hiding my feelings, no one really knows.
Stop forcing me, cause i really don't want to say it out.

Cause love is just so complicating.
Its harder to maintain an relationship than a friendship.
Maybe don't know its just the best way to avoid?

I'm feeling terrible now, but who knows?
Hah, everyone goes like cheer up cheer up.
Its easier said than done.

I'm really confused, different ppl telling me different stories?
I really don't know.

I have so much fun during the camp.
If i can, i'll choose to stay there?
I don't want to face the reality?
I don't want to face the world?

I'm not a toy, so don't push me around.
Did you all even care bout my feelings?
Don't i even have the rights to say no?

I need time.
I seriously need the time, i'm confused.

I'll think it through?
You'll know the answer by tomorrow.
I don't want to make ppl sad,
Though i already did.
I'm not feeling good either.

Wearing a mask infront of ppl, acting like nothing happen.
It isn't fun, i feel so uncomfortable.
Going everywhere with a mask, no one really knows who i am.
Not even my family, friends.
No one.