Promise.

I'm not supposed to online during weekdays, but i'm online.
But i did studied, and its good k.
I don't know how long it will last.
Its only the 2nd day, and i'm feeling so tired..
I feel as though i'm gonna die :(

My temperature is always either 37.3/37.4/37.5 :(

Horoscope today :
You're ready to stop thinking about work, work and work. At the moment, since work has gone along so swimmingly, you're ready to focus on the other most important category in your life: the person you love. Instead of saying something directly to let them know how devoted you're about to become -- again -- do something subtle to let them see. That's more your style, and more what they expect.

Tiring day.. And its only the first.

Everyone's going about the first day first day, so i have to too :)
I didn't sleep in class today, despite being so tired :(
School ended at 12.30, i know its early :):)
Cause cme, chinese is taken away. Except for i think 2hours per week?
So school end very early from now on :)
Latest is 1.30, except for the fact that we have remedial like almost everyday :(
I made a promise to stay back in school and study everyday till 4 or 4.30.
I've to spend around 3hours each day for travelling, a waste of time.
Sigh.

I gave you my heart.

School tomorrow, i'm not excited at all.
I've to wake up like 5am? :(
Life's so miserable for me..
3months of waking up so damn early.
How to concentrate in class, ha ha.

Tell me why do i miss you so much.

I'm trying, real hard :(

Ok, got forced by this person above to take photo! Still must smile one -.-

She ah, super rough one eh, anyhow pull ppl and keep messing my hair! -.-

Went somerset then to bukit merah sec to watch the vb invitational matches.

Then to plaza sing, and pizza hut. Like 12ppl tgt, i bet its damn noisy.

Though we don't realise. Seriously laugh till stomach pain.

Wo cha ni ah?! HAHAHAHA.

And the look stupid or smart then 'ting tong ting tong!'

Idk when the last time i laughed till stomach pain. Hmm..

Anyway, saw peony at plaza sing. Hahaha :D:D:D

Saw her then quickly walk away :P

Went arcade, played the spot the difference game too.

Like 8ppl surround that machine and trying to see where's the difference. Haha.

It brings the memories back, sigh..

Trained to yishun and went to northpoint.

Homed around 9.30. Yeah thats right :)

School's gonna reopen tomorrow, and i've to go school on my own on monday :(:(:(

I've to leave home so early = have to wake up early too :(

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Joys- i'm strong enough to live w/o you says:
*quick.
*close your eyes.
*then see got what number
　　　　　　　　　　　♥　　　　　　　　　　Merabel　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　LYS　　　　 says:
*Don't have number
*Only got black black
Joys- i'm strong enough to live w/o you says:
*hahahaha
*wa piang.
*retard.
　　　　　　　　　　　♥　　　　　　　　　　Merabel　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　LYS　　　　 says:
*HAHAHAHA!

I swear its super funny!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Micheal Jackson died.

Woke up not long ago, am still tired :(
I got nothing to do, and nowhere to go.
Sigh. I didn't study at all, and i'm feeling guilty :/
Laziness is the cause of this.

Why do i feel jealous. I'm not supposed to feel this way.
:(

Don't patronise me.

Photos :

I don't know, sorry.

Slept around 5 in the morning and woke up at 10am.
Am feeling very tired now.
Watching bof now.

Dilemma.

I don't know what i should do now, like seriously. Sigh.
Should i give myself a chance, and others as while?
I don't know if i'm able to do it. :(
Sorry, i need some time..

I'm not gonna specify who am i referring to above.
I guess the person knows its for her. Yeah (:
Don't ask who is it for, cause i won't tell.
Except for some (idk who too).

To me, love is only between the two people involved. :)

If only tears were laughter.

Sorry for going mia for so long.
I've moved and i kinda miss my house now :(
Things hasn't been going smoothly for me, i've been trying hard to not think of some things.
And its killing me.
I've to stop thinking and hold my promise. Idw to break it again.
Smile Merabel, you can do it.

Boohoo.

Dumbass.

Anyway dont be too sensitive, it isn't for anyone.

Its for myself.

I'm gonna go take mc later, sian.

Sick sick sick.

Sick :(

I'm sooooooooo tired, its 2am alrdy.

And i'm still doing research on my dnt.

Don't know how am i gonna wake up later.

I feel like dying, seriously.

Give me some power man, sigh :(

In a way, i'm glad i am so tired so i don't have the energy to think about other things.

Though its very tough, but yeah.. :)

For those who know me long enough, first time hear me so stress eh.

Ha ha.

The promise that have to be kept.

As i've said, i didn't went for chem this morning.

I reached school at 11am, then maths till 12pm.

Did the work given by the teacher, halfway some things happened.

So tada tada.. (don't know why i suddenly use this term, haha)

Lunch was provided then went out of school for awhile (don't ask what).

Came back and play ball for awhile then went for the adam khoo workshop thingy.

Till 430 then went to play ball and then dinner with humairah and kavis.

Might be going sentosa on sunday, teehee (:

Who wanna go sentosa! Text me k! Anyone is welcome :)

I'm kinda weird today cause i say things that i don't usually say.

Might not be going online anymore.

My broadband is cancelled :(

To contact, Call/Text.

I burned my thumb and now there's blister?

I went to poke it then the 'water' came out. Then i keep poking it :(

I didn't knew i have to put plaster so the water won't 'come back'

I envy people who are genuine happy.

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I'm feeling so stress and tired now :(

Its 12 alrdy but i'm still not asleep, sigh :(

Someone be my human alarm clock later?

Wake me up..

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Btw i'm so touched :D:D:D:D

Tagged me from austraila eh :)

Love you for this :D

And, remember to come back k!

Don't abandon singapore hor !!

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Sigh.

I didnt went for chem eariler today but i'm going for maths.

Like now or something.

Feel guilty.

The truth that hurts.

Found out so many things. I lost faith.

Whatever it is, i'm not gonna care anymore.

Cause someone i've known less than a year,

Cant be compared to friends i've known for 4years.

Maybe somehow oneday i would.

No one will understand this :)

Full moon.

Im moving before 20th June.

So those who wanna come to my house, come before that.

We can party all week. I'm just kidding.

The moon ystd is so nice. Round round moon.

And its so bright.

I'm not worth your love at all.

I ain't good.

Make your decision.

I feel kinda good that at least someone understands how i feel.

And the person is AMANDA LEE JIA WEN! (honoured not honoured not!)

Amanda was shocked when i told her something and she said something (:

Not bad uh, you this 3years classmate :)

For this, YOU ROCK MAN!

Only if she understands how i feel. Hahaha, BKL.

Impossible.

Iloveyou.

xoxo.

Don't understand why i take those words of yours so seriously.

When i know in the end, you're gonna break it.

Why do i feel hurt over such small matter.

Why do i get so worked up.

Someone tell me.. :(

Lying on my bed for hours, thinking about stuff, letting it out & ......

I'm sort of feeling better now.

If you need someone to text when you're bored or whatsoever,

I'm here. But on a condition, ask me if you wanna know.

To be strong, i can't.

Brief summary on this week.

Not brief at all -.-

Monday the 1st :

Chinese Os, screwed up.

Night at the museum 2 at westmall with F H K G G WJ S.

Tuesday the 2nd :

School till 1.30.

"Party" at my house with sha humairah fernanda kavis grace.

Played truth or dare. Long long time since i laugh happily.

Must call ppl and say some things for dare. Still got kiss part siol :O

Shasha fernanda and me, we use the ball to aim ........

Too private alrdy, not suitable for the young :)

Played poker too and they left around 9.30? Around there.

Wednesday the 3rd :

School was supposed to end at 1.30 but was released at 1.

Went imm then to bukit batok to meet gabrielle then slacked.

Oh, we went up joyceFSS's house to use her toilet. Hahah, damn funny.

And she doesn't let me to see her dog :(

Her dog's name is called shut-up-la. Haha.

Thursday the 4th :

Dnt from 8am all th way till 530pm.

9 longggggggggg hours.

And i earned myself 6cuts on my hand and 1cut on my knee, how power -.-

Went dinner with humairah and kavis and homed.

Friday the 5th; which is today :

Dnt from 8 till 530 too, like seriously exhausted.

Plus today isnt a good day for me.

I sat on the floor supposingly to cut the lamination(?) thing,

But yet i did nothing and stare into space for very long.

Seriously don't feel like doing anyth.

Went up to the hall to play vb, and i glad that i could hide how i feel with smile and laughter.

Thats the only probably thing i'm good at. Hah.

Yknow what, i don't feel hurt reading your post, its nothing compared to what you've "given" me. Never failing to break your promises, lying t me over and over again. How could i bring myself to trust you, to trust your words. It wasn't once or twice and yknow that. Tell me, tell me how can i trust you. You know this; It takes a long period of time to build up the trust, but it only requires afew minutes to lose it. It wasn't (all), if you get what i mean. Lastly, i said i won't hate you and i never will.