Have you been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit,
And you just pull the scar off of it over and over again.

One must never be satisfied with his ability to love.
No matter where he/she is, it is always just a beginning <3

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I'm so busy :x
21st to 27th feb having common test!!!!
29th feb to 3rd march have sec3 camp!!!

Happy 1st week anniversary! :D

Wo jue de wo hen xinfu! :)
I love you more than words can say.
Though at times, we quarrel but i still love you so.

♥ My BBAA! :D

♥宝贝愛愛

Its has been 6days1hour&04mins :D
First week coming eh!
I'm glad that we've come so far.
Hold on to it, i don't wanna lose you.

14th and 21st feb! :)
&It falls on thursday! :(
&& Training on thursday :((
&&& Inter class is on 14th feb :(((

Okay, i'm damn lame.
Training today = waste of time.
Bball with Shiwei, that guailan girl.
Till 8plus 9.

I'm tired.
Super tired...

My bro got a freaking 8points for O levels!
He thinks it's not good enough -.-
If i were to get this point, my mother will buy me anything i want la!

Jermaine ask me to blog about her, so here it goes.

JERMAINE TAN LI CHAN! :D

Jealousy kills!

She is just way better than me, i knew it all along.
Call me petty, over-sensitive or whatever.
If she did like you, you both will be together so "long" ago.
When she break, it's like in dec.
Till now, not even 2months.

I'm just a subsitute.
In relationship as well as volleyball.
Just that i love you so much that i can't afford to lose you.
If one day you'll to leave me for her, i don't know what i'll do.
I just can't be compard with her.

FRIENDS only mah.
Yeah right, "friend".

I'm sad, feel like crying.
But i must be strong :(
I don't want ppl to worry.

Won Nanyang 25-9, 25-20.


&& Nanyang won unity 27-25, 25-20.
Unexpected eh?
Unity improved damn alot, i swear.


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Make our love last.
I love you<3
21 Jan 08.

Should i/Should i not?
I'm in a dilemma.
And i'm unable to think.
The fever is killing me.

You'll never know how much you mean to me.
How much i care for you.
How much i want you to be mine.
How much i love you.

I'm not strong, i never was.
Strong? Its easier said than done.
Who doesn't want to be strong, including me.

I don't wanna go for training,
Neither do i wanna go for competition.
Can someone just understand me?


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And you don't mean your words.
I hate liars!
Confused isn't an excuse.
If the answer is no, then do say.

I'm not gonna rush you for an answer.
If you've decided, let me know.
Whether its a yes or a no, i'll respect your decision.

But i know you won't give an answer.

The world is damn fucking unfair!
For those who know, knows.
Those who doesn't know, don't bother asking.

I'm numb, i just can't accept it.
Ain't i good enough?

You guys out there just don't understand how i feel.
Tell me what can i be happy about?
Nothing.

I don't wish to cry, it's just can't be controlled.
I don't want to think bout it, can i?

I'm not happy! :(
I want to be strong!

I make it clear.
There's a limit to my patience.

Shouldn't lie to the one you love.
That's the basic trust.
I don't say it out, doesn't mean i don't mind.

I've my own problems, i have my own worries.
Don't worry about me, i'll be fine (?)

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If one day, i'll to gather up my courage and ask you,
Don't ever say no.
I don't know what i'll do.

And lastly,
I LOVE MY DARLING! <3


[Edited]

J says must blog bout at ccab.
Went to clementi with Shasha to meet J R and A.
Off to ccab and the bus journey is long....
Went there only to watch a match -.-
J drinks water and she spits it out,
And she use her wet tie which contains her saliva to clean on me.
AND AND AND SHE'S DAMN PERVERT!
Played ball and went home.
Ask us to go, then pangseh us!

[/Edited]

I took out the thing in my mouth after much effort :)
I swear i won't pierce my tongue ever again.
Its like damn hard to take it out.

Jermaine says she is my lover -.-
And jermaine promised to grow up.
Make sure you do it.

I'm tired and bored.
I've not done my homework.
And i have to sleep early cause there is morning training tomorrow.

I'm like so damn tired.
And today is only the first day of the week.

One piece of good news is :
I GOT BACK MY PHONE! :D
Bad news is :
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS IT!

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Some ppl are so childish, never grow up.
I hate talking to those kind of people,
Simply childish and unreasonable.
Just a waste of time and energy.

Despite what others say,
I love you the way you are cause you are special and unique.
Never ever forget that.

-MLYS ❤

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Maybe its isn't right at the first place.
It's my fault.
From today on, i'll try to......
I'll give it my best.
I'll never want to see you sad/unhappy.

I smile cause i'm afraid you'll leave.
Cause you'll be worried. -I'm crapping :D

No one knows me inside out, head to toe..
A simple wish seems so hard.
No mood, sad.
But must act happy.
Act like nothing happened?
And i make fernanda laugh just now! :D

Its just too much of a conicidence.
But still,
Who you like, is your choice.

Keep a distance.
I don't want to get hurt, i can't take it.
I'm not strong.

I'm afraid, afraid to lose you.
Ha, bullshit.

飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤
学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤
没那种事
怎么做才能够停止
后悔竟伤你如此
不再放肆

为何总到失去才懂的难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

Hai, i was like damn moody for the whole day.
But still have to smile, laugh.
During physics, no mood to listen so went to dreamland.
Social studies, pauline fun. Was suppose to do the worksheet of 20questions.
But i only did 2 questions.
She took my paper and she was like WOAH!

After the lesson, walking out then she ask Xin Qing Bu Hao Ah?
Ignored her then walk away.
Dnt went to sleep, then do practial.
Was damn frustrated with the markings and measuring on the wood.
Said give up la, don't want to do already.
Then amanda was like,
Your nick say when you wanna give up, you're one step closer to success.
Is damn lame okay..

Everything i say happens! :D

Hah, i very sad..
Nope, i'm happy.
Very very happy.

If love can be simpler, i'll be happier.
If don't have love, i guess everyone will be happier.

I'm scared of nationals.
Not cause of compeition, but something else.
Those who know, don't say.

Just that i love you,
It hurts me to see you like this.
My heart is tearing, but i still have to smile and live on.
No cry easily, only if you know how i feel.

I said in cme lesson,
What's past is past, don't talk about it.

I guess i won't be feeling like this,
If i didn't know you.

Move on merabel, thats the only way.
Let go and you'll be fine.

Ha, today's morning training is fun!
Yongkwang take us + indoor.
Only B girls indoor, the rest outdoor.
Kimberly is so jealous! :D
HAHAHA! Too bad...

I don't like the history teacher! Sleep....
I've tons of homeworks to do!
And there's training tomorrow morning again!
But we're training indoor! :)

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I got something to look forward to everyday,
And you are the reason why its possible.
What will it turn out to be?
Will my wish come true?
Will i be happy?

Morning training is like super tired.
Use basketball to serve,
Then still must run 20 rounds around 2 basketball courts.

Lesson was okay, but i want Mrs Tan to be my chemistry teacher!
So much homework and i'm lazy to do it.
Afternoon training was okay, quite fun infact.

All the west side school's teacher came to our school to draw lots.
And we got our grouping.

ShuQun Sec
Jurong Sec
Nanyang Girls
River Valley High
Unity Sec
Bukit View Sec

Got jurong and nanyang..
Both quite strong.
Doesn't matter, we'll be stronger.
Work hard, fight fight fight! :@
And boys competition venue is our school.
So unfair can...

And there's morning training again tomorrow -.-
I got tons of homework to complete..

There's morning training tomorrow!
Must reach school at 6.30am?
Like wth lor, so early..
After that still have to study.
Then got afternoon training.
3pm to 6pm.

Might as well kill us.
If tired how to study?
How to revise?
How to do homework?

Then tuesday morning have training again?
Wednesday morning also? Crazy..

Morning training must wake up at 5am.
5.30 must leave house already.
Damn sian can...

P/s: Anyone got black dye?

Cookie has been given away again.
Cause i got no maid now! :(
How can i live without a maid?

I've done my maths hw! FINISHED! :D
And 1 out 2 of my chinese hw!

I'm a good girl. Lol!
Fernanda's mum say i am! :)

I'm happy?
Am i? I got no idea..

Ha, i'm happy today!
Yeah, very "happy".
Everyone is like calling me to cheer up.
If want equals can good liao lo.
Cheer up? So must smile.
No emo, smile smile smile.

Nobody understands how i feel.
Smiling doesn't mean i'm happy.
Saying i'm happy doesn't mean i'm happy too..

Should i transfer?
History to Geography?
Yuliah will kill me if i do!
Today pinch me like hell, keep messing my hair and pulling me -.-

Hai, if only you care.
Okay, stop talking bout this.
I'm happy! I must be!
No crying! :)

Thanks to those who cares.
I appreciate it! :)

Hopefully i will be happy.
Smiling on the outside but not in the inside.
Hurts like @!##$#$%#@!@.

Don't have to be sorry, you done nothing wrong.
Its my fault, wo yi xiang qing yuan er yi.
It wasn't me at all.
Won't be me be it in the future or the present.

Thanks for everything, i'll still feel the same.
xoxo.

I decided to not let any people read my blog.
I seriously need a place to say out how i feel.
I'll change it when i'm free... Soon!

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I don't know what to say.
All i can say is that i love you.
Very very much.
Just that i didn't say, doesn't mean i don't.

You hate me, you dislike me.
I can't do anything..
I must be strong! I'm not strong!
I want to be! I must not cry easily.

I think of you, every minute of the day.
It may sounds drama but its true..
Just wanna say, i love you tons and tons and tons!

Do take care of yourself.
You are there when i'm not feeling well.
But when you are, i can't do anything.
As you said you don't need my care or concern.

Sorry for all the things that i've done.
And thanks for everything that you've given me.

First day of school.
Hai, i don't like my class.
Not as in don't like, but just very noisy.
Like not a place to study la.

Upper sec so shiok.
Lol!
And guys wearing long pants look weird!

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Seriously, i don't know what to do.
I'm too sensitive okay..
But that's what i am.
I got no rights to be jealous about anything.
I'm nothing.

As i say, let nature takes it course.

Hai, school reopening tomorrow.
Have to see so many new faces..
Don't know what will happen.

I'm like still long from completing my assessment.
Say bye to my phone! :(
Cookie too! (Again)

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If thats your answer, i can't do anything.
Let nature takes it course.
If things are meant to go that way, i can't help.
I tried. Very very hard.
But what did i get?
Nothing..

Happy New Year! 2008!

New year wish..

1: A brand new year, a brand new start.
2: Team to be bonded! No quarrel! (Still the same)
3: Mark a end to that.
4: Happy happy! :)
5: Estella to ____________! (Fill the blank)

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If i could have the chance, i will.......
Nevermind, its impossible :)
Your answer cause a great great great impact on me.
No matter who's your choice is, it won't be me (:

You asked, if its me what would i do?
If one day, it will to happen.
I will answer your question..