Nearing.. :S

Is this taken on purpose?? :O

Christmas eve! (:

Life is quite sad for me haha. One moment i feel this and another moment i feel another way.

Well, life still has to go on. Bow down to reality hahah.

Ok i think i've gone crazy, its 2am and i feel high. Suddenly :O

I feel scared for the release of the Os results:(

If i cry on that day, must hug me ok! (applies to all who's reading this)

I can literally feel how anxious/afraid i will be feeling when i walk up to the teacher and take the slip from her,

And see the paper! Scared scared scared :S

Merry merry christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!


Went west coast early in the morning ystd. Then to town and watched Alvin and the Chipmunks2.
Bought tickets for Peony and we watched the same movie in the same theatre but quite far away.
She said she's happy to see me! HAHAHA! :D
Walked and walked and home-d at 7plus.


I swear this is super gay! TTM.

Am going mia.

Best wishes for you.

Went for camp from 18-21dec. Had a fun time there :)
Sometimes i hope that the camp would never end so i'll not have to face the same problems anymore.

Everything just collapses in a day, hope happiness and so on.
Whatever it is, i will get over it. I shall not dwell on it anymore.
Life's like this isn't it/

L4d2!!!!!

L4d2 for two days~
Went to cut hair just now, i look like some cuckooooooooo now.
Ok its going 4am now, so tired!
I'm not gonna online till monday. Miss me please HAHAHA.

妈妈骑马，马慢，妈妈骂马！

C.R.Q

Meeting fernanda and amanda at illuma at 3pm tomorrow~
Gonna l4d2, yay! :)
I feel so sad now, will be so lonely this weekend :(
Anyone wanna accompany me? :'(

Someone that will fight for me and not with me.

I'll still wait.

Went to marina sqaure on sat, surprised fernanda!! Hahah.
Esplanade to slack, missed the last train. Waited for celestine's father to fetch them home.
Then cabbed home with fernanda.
Finals ystd, lost 3-1. Good match though.
Went to eat then slack. Cabbed to jurong east and train-ed home.
Been reaching home late these few days..

Gonna L4d2 on wednesday with fernanda amanda and anwar at Cineleisure. :D
Now that there's no more U19 matches, its getting s boring.
Fernanda and amanda have trainings and is going for U17 at malaysia on friday :( :( :(
Gonna be so lonely, awwww~
Sigh, will miss you both know! HAHAHA.

Looking forward.

Won 2-0. Went to eat steamboat with amanda anwar fernanda and her family.
Been so long since i've eaten.
Training later at 12pm, then home to change and to esplanade.

Hope and prays that we can get into finals :(

Put a distance between.

Match later, against yuying.
I don't feel like a normal human being. I sleep at the time when ppl wakes up.
I feel like im a walking zombie.
Slept for less than 2hours. Don't feel hungry.
I feel like crying :(

Right, im staying away from everyone. I feel so dejected..
I wished i don't have to think about it. Thinking of it makes me worse.
I want to be happy, who doesn't?

I want you by my side.
I don't only want a friend's concern from you.

Greatly affected..

Won the match today 2-0.
Its just how amazing i survived two days with just eating 3/4 hotdog without the bread and not feel hungry at all.
I had a hard time eating the hotdog ok, just cause i have to take medicine.
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me!!!!
Have not been getting enough sleep these few days, i feel so tiredddd. Both mentally and physically.

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(23:32) chubby_shin@hotm:
haha! dont bluff! you jieqiu, saqiu, kaiqiu all very cute. den wanchew oso say! haha if gracy in singapore she will say you look lyk winnie the pooh again!
(23:33) MerabelLYS :
Hahah where will cute!!
(23:34) chubby_shin@hotm:
cute what! you see yourself lorh. next time when u play you put a mirror there
(23:34) MerabelLYS :
My expression?
(23:36) chubby_shin@hotm:
haha ya! and your actions. hehe.

YASMIN, I DON'T AGREE OK! WHATS WITH MY EXPRESSION AND MY ACTIONS?!!!!!! TSK.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY FERNANDA! LOVE YOU!! :)


I still have to smile and laugh to pretend that i'm ok when i'm not.
Its tough. And if i don't, ppl will ask if i'm ok. And i only can say, yes i am ok.
Cheer up, thats what everyone says. If only doing is as easy as saying.
Not that i want to make anyone be worried about me.
Where were you when i needed you th most.

Its not easy.

Life's like this isn't it?
Everyone only cares about their own feelings.
Like who fucking cares about how i feel.
I've lots of problems, who knows? Who can understand how i feel.

Amanda said, "Go for the one that'll fight for you, not the one that'll fight with you."

But i guess no one will fight for me? I wouldn't know it too.
How i wish i can go MIA.

I SUCK.

I'm sorry.

I'm so lazy to update, but im here still.
Jocelyn woke me up at 5.25am cause she has nightmare!
Because of the movie 2012!! Hahaha.
Met ruiqi at serangooooooooooooon. And went to her house.
Ps i love you + ponyo :)
HAHA YOU'RE SCARED OF TICKLE! *EVIL SMILE
And you've to stop shooting me! :(

Match tomorrow at 745pm againist huayi.


To, You.
You told me when you heard i like someone else, the feeling suck so.
Sorry but i really really don't think we will work out. I'm sorry for hurting you.
No matter what it is, im still here if you need someone to share your problems with.
I give you my word that i'll still reply.

Its getting complicated.

Lost the match today, 2-1.
But we are in the finals! If we managed to to win all other teams.
And i realised picking ball is damn fun. We keep trying to roll it on the straight line.
Super fail, but i still managed to roll afew balls! :)

Someone wake me up at 530am pleaseeeeeee. :(
I'm afraid i can't wake up. I'm damn tired.

Too torn to do anything.

I feel the pain in my heart. How i wish i was her.
If i was her, i'd never left you.
I would hold your hand and tell your mum i wanna marry you.
I'm serious.

Jealous, was that what i felt when i know about it?
I wished i know you earlier.

Close shaveee~

Training today, 3 to 5pm.
Went jurongpoint to eatttt then went for match.
Against Unity, we won 2-1. But the score is damn close.
They was leading at 13-9, it went to 14-11. And we won with the score of 17-15.
Its damn scary to play at the crucial pointsssssssss. One mistake and you will lose the match.
We was veryyyy happy when we win k, as though we're playing finals.
Jump for joy, hug everyonee~

Next monday will be playing against phs alumni. Hope for the best :)