Last post before going for thailand.
Will not be posting for 5 days.

I promised i'll leave something nice plus loving for you,


JERMAINE!
Don't cry alright, 5 days very fast over de.
I may not be back, if the plane crashes.
Okay no, won't (:
Take care of yourself during this period alright!
I'll be back soon :D
I love you! :)))))))

Tuesday going bangkok le.
Excited? Maybe? Yes? No?

Hahah, Jermaine say she will miss me.
8.5 out of 10 :D
Happy happy! :)

There's training tomorrow :(
11-2.
Actually was 2-6.
But changed to 11-2.
If it's 2-6, before that can go hsh watch match.
But too bad, cannot.

I damn miss you la :(
Faster go home and online!
HAHAHA! :D

3 more days to BANGKOK!
Frankly speaking, i'm not excited.
I'll miss my com,
And of course JJ! :)

I don't wanna care anymore.
I don't want to fall any deeper.
I want to get out of this.
What the use of being brave?
Nothing helps.

Who am i to you? No one!
How important am i to you? Not important at all.
Do i mean anything to you? No, not at all.
Do you even care about me? Who the fuck give a damn about you.

You said all i cared about was how i feel,
Did you even think?
You didn't even bother to tell me,
Tell me how should i care?

You'll never know how much i love you.
NEVER!
Perhaps, you don't even care.

Sometimes i wonder,
Do i even mean something to you?
I guess i'll never know the answer.
I take it as a no.

Millions of questions running through my mind,
But what's the use of asking when i know you won't answer.

I'm tired, i'm always tired..

Didn't go hougang.
Jermaine msged me, then i chua tio.
Wake up reply her, went back to sleep.
Everytime she reply i chua tio lor.

Then she msg me ask me call her,
So wake up and call lor.
After that sleep for awhile,
Mum ask me if wanna go cut hair.
I said tomorrow after training then go.
Hahah, cause i'm lazy to go out now.

Okay, there's training tomorrow.
12-3.
Why is there always training,
I'm tired...

SCORPIO -The Gorgeous One (10/23-11/21)
; Loves being in long relationships.
; Li kes to give a good fight for what they want.
; Extremely outgoing.
; Loves to help people in times of need.
; Bestkisser.
; Good personality.
; Stubborn.
; A caring person.
; One of a kind.
; Gorgeous Smile.
; Not one to mess with.
; Are the most attractive people on earth!

I love freedom and i don't like being controlled.
So, don't control me.
I don't like people with attitude.
Though, i'm also but it depends.

My hand hurts and my leg too.
Who call me so dumb, go dive and save the ball.
Yesterday's training, then leg pain.
Today's training, hand pain.
Where will i injured in the next training?

Don't force me to say/do something i don't want to.
I'm stubborn! :D

After training, waited for coach to come.
Took the windbreaker and trackpants.
Super big can.

Early morning went to Temasek poly.
Tired can, but for the sake of ...........................

After that went to Tm walk walk.
About 2.45, trained to jurong.
Then bused to school for training! :(
Late lor, then shasha and i run -.-

Training was okay, dive for ball = pain.
All on the same leg, same place.
Super pain can, then no one got plaster.

After training went commonwealth,
Talk about MANY things.
Take note of the word many.

Thanks shahirah for the...
How you call it?.. Nevermind.
Just thanks! :D
I guess i'll just have to sort this all out.

Went bt batok inter,
Shahirah, shasha and me like idiot like that.
Shahirah no money take bus if she take mrt to choa chu kang.
Short of 10cents!
Then we wait for so long, at there who got 10cents can give.
HAHAHA!
Like after around 1hr ,
Shasha say go till cck can refund the ticket.
Refund 1 buck ma.
Then we like idiot at there so long.


When walking home,
I do something i thought i wouldn't.
Very paiseh can,
I didn't expect myself to do that la.
But yeah, be brave.

You know, i know it too.
Why not put aside your pride and fight for your love,
Before you don't have the chance to do so.

Training was so so,
There's training again tomorrow!
4-7!
Before that think going to temasek poly.
Meeting shasha at 7.45.
Means i've to wake up at 6.45am.
That's super early.

Okay, i'm very tired now.
Super.

Will not blog here often. Why?
Cause i've a private blog! :D

Woo, just woke up from dreamland! :D

I have many things to say,
But i found out many people has been reading my blog.
So i shall not post.


I should create a private blog,
And blog those things there.
I feel uncomfortable without saying alright -.-


Okay, there's training later.
12-3.
I'm bored, and also tired.
Don't have to mood to train.

I suddenly miss wearing the school uniform.
Like so long didn't wear already.
Saw the uniform in the wardrobe.
Feel like wearing, but for?
Lol.


Jermaine say she like me more! :D
Happy happy! (:
HAHAHAHA! :]
She's a horny bastard can!
Don't know who p3 only watch liao -.-

At shahirah's house now.
On msn, shasha they all go disturb.
Say what I love you la, what what what.
Then call and disturb.
Hahahaha....
Then they go prank call..
Hahahas damn siao sia....


Watched porn, not fully.
A movie called pirate sex.
Together with,
Shasha, Fernanda, Denise, Shahirah and Wenyi.

Hahah.
its fun i guess.
WOOHOO.
It was a blast baby.
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :]

Dye hair,
Dark brown, (-.-)
hahahah ,
when shahirah and shasha dye that colour,
their hair turn red in colour like that.
hahahahhaha :] WORST.
Cause they thought
Dark brown + Gold will became somehow BLACK but what the hell?
hahahahha :]
so,
Its wass fun.
hahahaha, :]
WOHOO.

Have to reach school tomorrow at 9.00.
I'm tired.


I don't know if i wanna go hougang after that.
Seriously, i don't know.
Feel like and don't feel like.
In a dilemma.
Tell me what should i do?


I want those answers.
But you just don't wanna say.
I can't help it, it hurts.
Making me pek chek everytime you dowan to answer.
You think is funny, no it isn't.
I should just let go, cause this won't work.


Love is more than a feeling,
Its a state of mind.
Love is not to look at each other,
But to look together in the same direction.

I'm tired.
Both mentally and emotionally.


Slept for like 2 hours.
I'm sick :(
I think i'm gonna lose my voice.


Love do hurts.
It does, and it really hurts.


For now,
I guess i don't have to hold on that promise anymore.
I'm free to speak what i want (:

I've fallen too deep.
It's hard for me to get out now.


I love you, do you feel the same?
No, you don't.


Jealousy kills!


I don't feel good,
I shouldn't have fall into it.
It makes me feel terrible.
I don't know why.


Haha, JJ!
Or JT!
Whatever it is, you're the one.

I'm not feeling good.


I don't want to fall so deep,
I scared it would be the same ending.

I've phobia of falling in love.


You wouldn't know,
U're the one in my mind.

Jermaine's mouth got phlegm,
She say it herself.
Hahahah :D



P/s : Don't mention that person infront of me.
I'm trying to let go.
To end the suffering,
Firstly, don't mention it.
Not to think bout it.

Damn fed up with my grandmother.
I promised someone not to say vulgar,
So i won't..


Nag nag nag, only know how to nag.
Never get the fact right, then anyhow scold.
This kind of unreasonable grandmother,
Can go to hell la.
Move out la, why must stay at here.
Keep saying you rich, buy your own house la.
So stingy, don't want spend your own money.
Die already also cannot bring into your coffin right.

To be loved, its a blessing.
To love, its a torture.


Take me away from those sufferings.
I can't take it, its controlling me.


I'm strong?
I hope to be.
I've to learn how to.
Learn how to not let my feelings control me.

I seriously don't know what should i do.
Life just sucks to me.


I don't want to care anymore.
But everytime i look at you,
My heart turn soft.
An undescribable feeling,
I don't know why.


Friday's the last match for us,
Its at tp.
First match of the day.


Volleyball to me now,
Is so..........
Don't know how to describe.
I worked hard, i study,
Stay in volleyball.
Its just for the sake of see-ing you.



Now, you don't bother.
Should i still hold on?
I have no idea.

My 200th post! xD


I'm tired.
I don't want to care anymore.
I'm not feeling good, so don't bother.


We're out, last match on thurs.
Youth cup this year, ain't fun.
Sucks.



I tried my best,
Seriously.



Memories that are craved in my heart,
Will never be erased.

Lost today...

My service sucks man...
Training can serve so well, but competition?
KANASAI!

Coach must be very disappointed..
Sigh..


Hope next match can win bah,
If not we'll be out..




I'm useless, what can i do?
I'm good for nothing.
Tell me what am i good at?
1 word, NOTHING!

Group X:

SHUQUN
NGEE ANN
PHS RED
SEMBAWANG
CHUNG CHENG
XIN MIN


Group Y:

JURONG
PHS BLK
KOLAM AYER CSC
BUKIT PANJANG
UNITY
PEICAI

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Tomorrow,
PHS red VS Chung Cheng 8.30am
SQS VS XMS 9.15am
NAS VS SMB 10.00am

Didn't go for training.
Tiredd...


Reach Hougang at 8am yesterday.
Do libero control, $40..
Plus that time de, $30..
Total is $70...
More than enough, i think..



Tomorrow, i scared la!!
Sure paiseh like siao..
Die die!!!
Secret secret! :D



25th november 2006
The day which i'll never forget.
Days comes and goes..
Time flies...


I've these special times with you,
And no long have i had with you..
I want them back, never want them to stop.
But that's part of being human.
Stop, renew, stop, renew.
None of us can undo what we'd done,
Go back into the past,
Or relieve a live thats already recorded.


It hurts when you can't be with someone you love.
I have to be at peace with your desires.
There's no formula to relationship.
Love is when you're even more concerned about,
Someone else's situation as you are about your own.