(L).

This blog is dying. So I'm helping you to update baby.

Pig, I think you're getting more like an heavy sleeper already. 好学不学，为什么学我?! Think you really got influenced by me leh~ At least still not as heavy as me! You should stop trying to become a heavy sleeper!

Four more days of lessons to go baby. Must jiayou kay? :D I love you bby!

Gogogo.

Been long since I last blogged.
Anyway, I've been wondering whose blog is soulofmydream. So whoever who came from the blog, kindly tell me whose is it ok? :)
And please help to click on my ad :D

Hey baby, I love you <3.

Lazy bum.

Helping baby to blog cause her blog looks extremely dead. Anyway, bby passed her Humanities, Math, English and Chemistry! Clap clap! Waiting for Physics only. Won't pull down your Combined Science to F one okay! :D

Faster wake up! If not you later cannot sleep already! And sleeping early is not sleeping before 3am okay! WAKE UP. Heh heh. I love you :D

Midnight.

I'm, someone VERY SPECIAL, helping baby to update her blog. Baby just left not long ago. And I'm starting to miss her already :( I think baby's fingers are filled with Jackfruit's and Durian's smell. Smell your own fingers baby. I had durian earlier than you! Hahaha!

I won't think about things that I shouldn't baby. Same goes for you. Cannot anyhow think! I like the way you responded when you see me cry. I like how sensitive you are. You can still see through me even though I'm putting on a strong front. I love you baby. And I'll be in bed until 1300 like what you just said. Heh heh :)

blogging after midnight is getting more and more torturing baby. I've not be doing this for quite a long time already! Okay, shall blog till here!! Love love.~

POKE.

:( . Exams are over for baby, envy! Baby, I don't mind if you wanna come and find me everyday during the Chinese Intensive period! You must not sleep for that one whole week. If not you'll become a pig. Opps, I forgot you are one already.

Hahaha, going to see how long you take to realise that this post is posted up. Shall go study now! Three more papers to go! :( I want sleep. HEH HEH. I love you. And, no more Quater Pounder / Half Pounder for this week and next week!

Midyear.

Everyone's complaining about poly life. It isn't as easy as they thought it is.
They said it was more stressful than Os. But i'm already feeling so stressed by Os.
I can't cope. I feel like a loser.
I must learn to love science and ch. No more F9s.

Done with ss and there's history on monday. Help!! :(
I always procrastinate and rush at the very last minute.

Buck up buck up buck up.

Bbbbbb♥

My both arms are hurting so much, its so red :(
Went to take aloe vera gel, mum saw and laughed at me.
I can't sleep properly cause it hurts.
Virgin tan ok hahahaha. (don't laugh baby!!!)
I have two blueblacks on my hands and i cant even hold the pen properly.
:(

I will cherish you because i don't want to regret not doing so.
Bby i'm yours so don't worry about losing me.
I won't allow anyone to snatch you away and no one will be able to separate us.
We'll walk hand-in-hand till the end, ♥

Scary.

Blackout while bathing in the morning.
Its so scary. Its like now i'm bathing and the next thing i know, i'm already on the floor.
Went to see the doctor and got 5different types of medicine :(
2nd time already, if it happens again i've to go hospital for checkup or smth.

Ok i have to go eat my medicine now and go to sleep early.
Or else someone will naggggggggggggggggggggg~
HEHE :D

BUCK UP.

Its just 1week away from midyear, i'm so not prepared.
I think i won't pass any subjects :(
Buck up buck up buck up.

Saving money to buy itouch.
Idk when will i ever save enough to buyyyyyyyyy.
Baby we must jiayou tgt ok :)
I know you miss me hehe, but you'll see me tomorrow.
Don't shyshy uh hahaha :D

Keep fighting.

Rabbit chocolate from marriott singapore. Its nice! Btw i took a bite to taste if its nice hahaha.
Its all edible, including the carrot! :D

Had a wonderful time tdy with baby :) Be honoured k!!!!!!
Hehe and baby stop making me 傻笑 to myself.
I love you. Remember that no one will be able to replace you :)

♥

Just finished doing english and mailed it.
The deadline was 6pm today hahaha :/
History and ss tomorrow omg.
Ss essay test was supposed to be tomorrow, but changed to fri instead.
Privilege :D
Midyear is nearing and i've alot alot more to study :(


Baby you're really a noob hahahahaha.
And the bus incident, super funny :P
Like seriously hahahaha.
Ok shall stop disturbing you..... for now only! :D
Baby don't be afraid to tell me anything ok, cause i'll still be here no matter what hehe.
I love you :)

My baby,

Watched Ju on @ marina square ystd.
I'll rate it 3/5. Not that nice and not very scary.

Midyear is coming, and i'm not prepared at all :(
I need more time mannnnnnnnnnnnnnn.


Baby, i won't leave you. Leaving you is more than what i can handle.
We still have so much things we've yet to do tgt.
No one would ever treat me as good as you do :)
Even though you don't know how to express your feelings through words, but baby i know you love me.
I'll be here for you whenever you need me :)
Ok shall not say anymore, the rest is only for you to hear hehe :D

You mean the world to me.

Baby i love you, and you know that really well.
No words can ever explain the love i have for you.
Thankyou for making the effort to come to my house early in the morning, so that you'll be the first person i see when i wake up.
Baby, you're the best to me and i love only you, so don't worry about losing me alright? :)
I don't care how others may look or say about us, you're just the one for me.
And love, it's just between the both of us.
I love the way you cared about me, love the way you take care of me. I love you just the way you are.
I love you even though you're a noob at expressing your feelings. (You really suck at that :P)

And our small little secrets, keep it safe within us only ok? :D

:D

Went marina square for team dinner just now, seoul garden.

Saw someone i'm not supposed to see? Its all over already anyway.

Then to singapore flyer. Cabbed home and reached home at 11pm.

We've graduated but we'll still come back to train/play with you all :)

Must train hard ok, top4 for nationals next year!!

You all may not see us during training, but will still see us in school :)

(L)

Ok i didn't go for the last trng, felt gulity :/
Monday is our last match tgt, and we'll be graduated..
Oh man, there will be tears for sure. :(
We all have smth in common, and that's volleyball. Our passion :D
We will go to np tgt and be teammates again :D (hopefully)
And lastly, i love all of you^^

Of course, i love you too. So don't be jealous alright :)
I'm changing my phone lock, i think you'll know what is it hehe.
You're mine <3.

Heh.

Trng today was tiring :( Wasn't feeling well at all.
Anyway we ordered pasta mania delivery, the total sum actually adds up to $75.
Spammed chilli and ended up with hot hot stomach :(
Studied for awhile then changed and warm up for friendly against the malaysia team.
And if i'm not wrong, we won all the sets.
I was so tired but when humairah reminds me of the (yknow yknow)^^, i became energetic hahaha.
And also the *machine gun* HAHAHAHA funny ttm.
Went to cut hair after training, i look like cuckoo now :(
Trng tomorrow, friendly on sat with hongkong police team. Weird but yeah.
Match on tues against dunman~

I'm happy that we're ok now.
I missed you so much, don't let this happen again ok? :(
You mean a whole lot to me baby.
And i love you (:
PS: You have to stop bitting and bullying me!
PS2: WAHAHAHA IDK WHAT TO SAY.
Hahah ok la i so good leh, NEH bully you :)

Broken into pieces.

I'm hurting so much that i choose not to care.
Maybe one day when i can't take it anymore, i'd just walk away.

Maybe we should give this love up.

When will the day come.

Hate the feeling when head is thumping, world is spinning and sight is blurry. :(
Oh man, there's trng tomorrow friday and sat.
My stomach is in pain, or rather i am.
:(

Tired.

So tied down by volleyball and studies.
4days trng during march holidays :(
Tues thurs fri sat.
How to survive, will be so damn tired.

:]

Others may say we aren't compatible, but i don' t care what they will say.
They may look at us with such disdain, but i don't care what they'll think or feel.
What matters most is the love i have for you because love is between only the both of us.
:)

Trust me cause i trust you with my heart.

So there's match tomorrow and trng on saturday.
Am so tired :(


"I’m not perfect; I’ll annoy you, tick you off, say stupid things and then take them back, but, put that all aside, you’ll never find anyone else that cares or loves you more than me."

Broken and tired.

Lost th match against xms. 2-1.
The score was very close.

I feel like a loser cause i failed every sub except for math.
I studied ok, sian.

Training tomorrow and match on friday against yuying.
Oh mannnnnnnnn.

End of common test.

Yay CT is over.
First match of nationals is on monday! Vs xms.
Trng tomorrow, oh mannnn..
I dread trainings :(

:)

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Common test.

My blog is so dead, i don't really care anyway.
Common test starts tomorrow and i'm not studying still.
No mood.
Been so long since i felt this way.

9months.

Going to school tomorrow! Quite excited actually hahah.
Its 10 and i'm going to sleep soon.
I think i'm going to be sick :(
Feeling so uncomfortable.

Shawty's like a melody in my head.

Hahah i'm still blogging even though there's only 2person invited and one uninvited person :@
Training tomorrow, 830-530:(
Can't go watch yvonne dance hahaha.

The previous post is definitely not by me, its as irritating as the person who post it^^
Ok i shall stop saying her or else she wouldn't update my blog for me anymore again:)
SEEEEE, i'm nice too :D

I can remind things well via sms

Hi this is xiao chan here, don't have to know who but this merabitch made me update for her since 2 days ago. Its past 12am now kk. And I don't know what she wants me to update so I'll just be random. Anyway nobody reads this cos they're only 2 invited guests to this blog?! Shout with me now! Oh my goodness.

Kk anyway xiao mermer is going back to shuqun to study wor hehe. I bet it'll be another wasted year hehe kk lah don't so bad. Even if I think so, also must lie! Kk hmm. Cfm pass with flying colors. Wanna bet?! I'll place 1000$ bet on 'I disagree'. Hehe kk is this long enough! Bye xoxo.

Everything.

Town later! :D
Have been feeling really tired these few days, no idea why too.

I feel so noob cause i don't even know how to balance equations.
Thats how bad my chem is :(

Another year.

I've decided to retake Os. Really have to study hard.
I will conquer science! Mark my words, i'm gonna get at least c6 for science.
Ok c6 may be easy for you guys, but those who knows me, my science knowledge is like 2%?

Will update this post again.

Pains me.

I don't know what to do to cheer you up.

Idw to see you cry, not when i'm not there to lend my shoulder for you to cry on.

Be happy, cause i will too if you are.

When i create a group in fb and no one joins, its not because i'm lousy, its just because i'm special and unique. :)

Kaykay.

I've been watching Chick vs. Dick since just now.
Its challenges between Kaykay and Paul Twohill. There's like 53episodes.
Its somehow M18 or rather R21 depending on the episode.
Its kinda SICK too, so if you have a clean mind, pls do not watch it.
(Ps: Its just what they say, they don't show like sexual scenes, so don't worry)

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS NOT FOR FAINT HEARTS! DON'T SCOLD ME AFTER WATCHING THE VIDEOS!
http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=1&p=13&v=169
http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=1&p=13&v=171
Ok this two links above^ its definitely R21.


I (L) Kaykay. Not love love kind of love, just (L)
I think she's pretty/cute/hot. :)

Its 21st jan!

Hi everyone, i've deleted those links that are not in use anymore.
Tag to be link :)

I'm starting to panic cause i haven't received any calls regarding jpsae.
And if i don't get into poly, i would probably go back to school and retake Os.
I don't feel like going to higher nitec :(

Ok, my head is killing me. I think i'm dying soon.
My body clock is wrong, i sleep when ppl wakes up.
I feel like vomitting but there's nothing to vomit cause i have not ate anything.
Everytime i stand up, i have to stop for awhile to 'clear my vision' so i'm able to walk properly.
And no, i didn't consult a doctor because i'm too lazy to.

When will you realise that i'm here for you no matter what.
I choose to not say a word, i wish for your happiness.

Time.

I got no other photos to upload except this.

I swear this is damn gayyyyyyyyyyyyy. Got forced like dk what!!
Yvonne, you better not laugh at me when you see this picture.
Or else, i post your picture up also! HAHAHAHA!


I'm so lazy to update and my blog is dead.
Hello everyone, if you're reading this, please tag!!!
Help me keep alive this dead blog :)

Ok nothing much, hoping for the best now.
Look forward to my next post! :D

4more days.

In 2010, i will be diagnosed with a terminal illness.
-fb quiz.

5more days.

Lets countdown to hell. 5 more days!!
C'mon everybody, lets die together! :)
I wanna wanna pass my Os. Wanna wanna~

Ok i have to quickly get out of my house because my mum's nagging at me!
Why don't you understand i want to take my results first before finding work!
Argh damn it! So irritated right now :(

2010.

New year was fun i supposed?

Went vivo>raffles link>golden mile>suntec>marina sqaure>raffles link.

Didnt slept for more than 36hours. So slept for more than 12hours today! :)

My eyes are getting smaller and smaller due to lack of sleep! :(

High fever, 39.1. Sad case.

School's starting, i wished i can go to school too :(

Though have to wake up early, but its ok with me!
I miss secondary school life. :(

I wanna study now, but its abit too late.

2010? My only wish,

PASS OLEVELS!

Nearing.. :S

Is this taken on purpose?? :O

Christmas eve! (:

Life is quite sad for me haha. One moment i feel this and another moment i feel another way.

Well, life still has to go on. Bow down to reality hahah.

Ok i think i've gone crazy, its 2am and i feel high. Suddenly :O

I feel scared for the release of the Os results:(

If i cry on that day, must hug me ok! (applies to all who's reading this)

I can literally feel how anxious/afraid i will be feeling when i walk up to the teacher and take the slip from her,

And see the paper! Scared scared scared :S

Merry merry christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!


Went west coast early in the morning ystd. Then to town and watched Alvin and the Chipmunks2.
Bought tickets for Peony and we watched the same movie in the same theatre but quite far away.
She said she's happy to see me! HAHAHA! :D
Walked and walked and home-d at 7plus.


I swear this is super gay! TTM.

Am going mia.

Best wishes for you.

Went for camp from 18-21dec. Had a fun time there :)
Sometimes i hope that the camp would never end so i'll not have to face the same problems anymore.

Everything just collapses in a day, hope happiness and so on.
Whatever it is, i will get over it. I shall not dwell on it anymore.
Life's like this isn't it/

L4d2!!!!!

L4d2 for two days~
Went to cut hair just now, i look like some cuckooooooooo now.
Ok its going 4am now, so tired!
I'm not gonna online till monday. Miss me please HAHAHA.

妈妈骑马，马慢，妈妈骂马！

C.R.Q

Meeting fernanda and amanda at illuma at 3pm tomorrow~
Gonna l4d2, yay! :)
I feel so sad now, will be so lonely this weekend :(
Anyone wanna accompany me? :'(

Someone that will fight for me and not with me.

I'll still wait.

Went to marina sqaure on sat, surprised fernanda!! Hahah.
Esplanade to slack, missed the last train. Waited for celestine's father to fetch them home.
Then cabbed home with fernanda.
Finals ystd, lost 3-1. Good match though.
Went to eat then slack. Cabbed to jurong east and train-ed home.
Been reaching home late these few days..

Gonna L4d2 on wednesday with fernanda amanda and anwar at Cineleisure. :D
Now that there's no more U19 matches, its getting s boring.
Fernanda and amanda have trainings and is going for U17 at malaysia on friday :( :( :(
Gonna be so lonely, awwww~
Sigh, will miss you both know! HAHAHA.

Looking forward.

Won 2-0. Went to eat steamboat with amanda anwar fernanda and her family.
Been so long since i've eaten.
Training later at 12pm, then home to change and to esplanade.

Hope and prays that we can get into finals :(

Put a distance between.

Match later, against yuying.
I don't feel like a normal human being. I sleep at the time when ppl wakes up.
I feel like im a walking zombie.
Slept for less than 2hours. Don't feel hungry.
I feel like crying :(

Right, im staying away from everyone. I feel so dejected..
I wished i don't have to think about it. Thinking of it makes me worse.
I want to be happy, who doesn't?

I want you by my side.
I don't only want a friend's concern from you.

Greatly affected..

Won the match today 2-0.
Its just how amazing i survived two days with just eating 3/4 hotdog without the bread and not feel hungry at all.
I had a hard time eating the hotdog ok, just cause i have to take medicine.
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me!!!!
Have not been getting enough sleep these few days, i feel so tiredddd. Both mentally and physically.

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(23:32) chubby_shin@hotm:
haha! dont bluff! you jieqiu, saqiu, kaiqiu all very cute. den wanchew oso say! haha if gracy in singapore she will say you look lyk winnie the pooh again!
(23:33) MerabelLYS :
Hahah where will cute!!
(23:34) chubby_shin@hotm:
cute what! you see yourself lorh. next time when u play you put a mirror there
(23:34) MerabelLYS :
My expression?
(23:36) chubby_shin@hotm:
haha ya! and your actions. hehe.

YASMIN, I DON'T AGREE OK! WHATS WITH MY EXPRESSION AND MY ACTIONS?!!!!!! TSK.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY FERNANDA! LOVE YOU!! :)


I still have to smile and laugh to pretend that i'm ok when i'm not.
Its tough. And if i don't, ppl will ask if i'm ok. And i only can say, yes i am ok.
Cheer up, thats what everyone says. If only doing is as easy as saying.
Not that i want to make anyone be worried about me.
Where were you when i needed you th most.

Its not easy.

Life's like this isn't it?
Everyone only cares about their own feelings.
Like who fucking cares about how i feel.
I've lots of problems, who knows? Who can understand how i feel.

Amanda said, "Go for the one that'll fight for you, not the one that'll fight with you."

But i guess no one will fight for me? I wouldn't know it too.
How i wish i can go MIA.

I SUCK.

I'm sorry.

I'm so lazy to update, but im here still.
Jocelyn woke me up at 5.25am cause she has nightmare!
Because of the movie 2012!! Hahaha.
Met ruiqi at serangooooooooooooon. And went to her house.
Ps i love you + ponyo :)
HAHA YOU'RE SCARED OF TICKLE! *EVIL SMILE
And you've to stop shooting me! :(

Match tomorrow at 745pm againist huayi.


To, You.
You told me when you heard i like someone else, the feeling suck so.
Sorry but i really really don't think we will work out. I'm sorry for hurting you.
No matter what it is, im still here if you need someone to share your problems with.
I give you my word that i'll still reply.

Its getting complicated.

Lost the match today, 2-1.
But we are in the finals! If we managed to to win all other teams.
And i realised picking ball is damn fun. We keep trying to roll it on the straight line.
Super fail, but i still managed to roll afew balls! :)

Someone wake me up at 530am pleaseeeeeee. :(
I'm afraid i can't wake up. I'm damn tired.

Too torn to do anything.

I feel the pain in my heart. How i wish i was her.
If i was her, i'd never left you.
I would hold your hand and tell your mum i wanna marry you.
I'm serious.

Jealous, was that what i felt when i know about it?
I wished i know you earlier.

Close shaveee~

Training today, 3 to 5pm.
Went jurongpoint to eatttt then went for match.
Against Unity, we won 2-1. But the score is damn close.
They was leading at 13-9, it went to 14-11. And we won with the score of 17-15.
Its damn scary to play at the crucial pointsssssssss. One mistake and you will lose the match.
We was veryyyy happy when we win k, as though we're playing finals.
Jump for joy, hug everyonee~

Next monday will be playing against phs alumni. Hope for the best :)

Tell her, if you rlly like her and want her.

*You should always say how you feel, I think. Because, if there is a rejection then that is the worst case scenario and you’ll learn and grow from it. I would say go for it, you can’t always protect yourself from getting hurt and as much as it stinks it’s apart of life… I would rather get hurt going after something I want, than get hurt wishing I had.

I'm sorry i can't read minds or do stuff exactly how you want me to. Don't pout anymore and neither would i allow you to go MIA and not reply me! You're incredibly awesome and you know that right? :)

Lotz of lurf,
Rayray~

Cause its so saddening.

I think i will ignore all texts and calls from my phone. Except for my mum's call.
Cause its the best way out. Till when? I do not know.
When time comes, i will start replying again. Every single thing is stressing me out.
I don't feel happy, i'm sad. No one knows. No one can understand.
I'm blocking out everything, every single thought of you.


And yati has gone to work for someone else. :(

No one will help me to open the door when i go out and come back anymore.
No one will help me to find my things when i could not find them anymore.
No one will nag at me when i messed up my cardboard and asked me to tidy it but will do it herself.
No one will prepare my food for me anymore.
No one will ask me to not eat infront of the com anymore.
No one will talk to her bf and asked me not to tell my mother anymore.
No one will go downstairs and asked me what i want to buy anymore.
No one will help me to find my clothes and fold it nicely and put it into my bag for me anymore.
No one will ask me to wake her up when she take a nap secretly anymore.
And the list goes on and on...

I tidied the bed today for the first time of my 16years. I've to keep and fold the clothes so that my mother wouldn't have to do so much.
Even before i was born, i have a maid. I don't have to worry about anything. I don't have to do anything on my own. And i've become so dependent on maids.

Now i have to rely on my own, cause no one will be there to help me anymore.
I'll be left alone at home, no one for me to talk to. No one for me to disturb.
The emptiness suck, and i feel like crying now :'(

Cause every second with you is a bonus.

Someone is going to skudai tomorrow, i'll miss you :(
Ok i thought that Skudai was in china k! So malu hahah.
You better come back in one piece! :D

U19 training on saturday at 10am!
First match is on 1st dec.
Should i go hiatus?

I suck.

Watched 2012 today. Talked about some GROSS stuff.
Reached home around 8plus.
U19 trng on saturday in the morning :(
I'll be sooooooooo tired :(
Ok, i don't know why but i'm having fever!
I know again, but not that i want to be sick! :(
Fernanda reminded me that (tomorrow, which means today is 26th) is ___________'s birthday.
And i went, "I don't really care." Fernanda agree too! NICE ONE FERNANDA!

Short and sweet.

I'm so lazy to blog so i shall just summarise everyth.

1: We got 3rd for alumni cup. No, no prize.
2: I wasn't allowed to join outside team. Have to join volleysports.
3: Life is boring, i got nothing to do.
4: Who want to recommend job to me! :(
5: U19 is from 1st dec to 15th dec. At jurong west sports hall.

Spaces between fingers, who will be the one to fill them.

If nothing is impossible, what about you and me.

Ystd was tiring. Went to queenstown sec for a little bit of training and friendly.
Then went to haising cat to play, kinda fun but tiring.
Ate breakfast+lunch+dinner at whitesands.
Went home around 6 and reached home at 7plus.

Stayed at home the whole day today to restore my energy :P
There's alumni cup tomorrow, WE CAN DO IT EVEN WITHOUT YOUR SETTING!
We don't have to rely on your setting. Aww so sad.

Its just how amazing i keep checking my contacts list to see if you're online, which i know you wouldn't be. It has became a habit for me.

If i could tell you.

Went fernanda's house to stay over. Jocelyn too.
Cards, drink, and tv. Slept around 4plus. And got woken up at 8+!
Was feeling really tired but no, no sleeping anymore. :(
Jocelyn went to switch on th tv, the curtains, and the light!
Fernanda and i was "lai chuang-ing" for very long. Jocelyn went at 11am.
And then. Breakfast, tv, computer, sleep, tv, dinner, drink, tv.
Left her house around 11pm and reached home after 45mins. :)

Its 4.20am now, and i'm very tired but not sleeping still.
I've been having fever for idk how many days already, and its not recovering :(
I'm gonna stay home later, and face this com the whole day.

The mind controls the head.

I'm back from the chalet! I'm so tired right now :(
We cycled all the way from east coast to changi village and then to downtown east.
Spent a total of 7hours riding, butt super pain!
It was fun and yet tiring, plus i had alumni trng in the morning!
Rode under the rain, and i'm having fever since idk when :(

Left the chalet around 6plus and reached pasir ris 7am.
I felt like a 'lost bird' walking to and fro without knowing whats the unit.
Waited for Carolyn and we cabbed to jurong west sports complex.
Watched match and went to jurong point to eat. Went to slack and play ball.
And went back to jp to meet veronica. Kavis and wanjing came along too.
We talked and talked for idk how long. And talked some things out.
Went home around 8plus.

Graduation day tomorrow :(
And its 10am in the morning, kill me man.
Might be ton-ing at fernanda's house tomorrow! :)


The truth have been revealed.
Why is everyone so affected about it.
Now we all know what kind of person she is.
Its so saddening to have such a friend.

If words mean anything..

Will not be posting till i come back from chalet.
And i'll lock my blog after that, if i remember :)

Over.

Long time since i updated.
Have been suffering for severe tummyache for the past two days.
And am better now! :)

Alumni training on saturday morning and off to CHALET at east coast.
Who wanna volunteer to ton outside with me on monday? :)
Or should i go to the 'M' party? I don't know.
Might be going for some sort of training/match(?) at queenstown next thurs.
(Fyi: Outside team haha.)

Reaching the end.

Chinese tomorrow, wish me luck everyone! Hahaha.
Hopefully can get A2, i'm fine with B3 though :)

There's blood in my phlegm, make my throat damn pain :(
K, i'm going to sleep already. Or else i'll be dozing off during my paper tomorrow.
HAHA.
Goodnight yo! :D

All the memories are filled of perfect tattered pain.

I'm alone at home :(
There's no food to eat, hungry :(

Chinese papers on tuesday, and i've not revised anything at all! I'm so dead.
I'm already in hoilday mood since long long ago :/
I think i'll get a b3 again :(
Science mcq on wednesday and it marks the end of Os!!!!!! :D:D:D:D
Its so dumb, go to school at 2pm just for an hour! Waste of time.


I might forget your actions, your laughter, your smile,
The way you look at me, the days spent together, but i'll never forget, that i loved you.

Alone.

Sick, again. Sigh :(
I played texas poker every single day, and its boring me.
Life is so meaningless. I've so much problems, but who can i tell?
Its killing me. I'm breaking down.
It really suck living in this world.
If the world is going to end, i'll be first to die instead of the last.
Living in this world is causing me too much suffering.

Ps : Blog going on private.
Tag with email to be invited.
By next week.

Training.

Went for training today.
Do fitness with them, can die :(
Super GEK!!!!! Hahah.
Run too, drop dk how many hundred of balls.
I bet i'll wake up tomorrow with muscle ache everywhere.
Dk if i should go play l4d tomorrow night with fernanda and others.

Hi sweetheart.

Going for trng tomorrow 8.30-5.30.
Gonna meet them for breakfast at 7am.
I doubt i'll be able to wake up in time. Its going to 2am now :(

A leopard will never change its spots.

Bitch, don't spout nonsense la. -.-
Only your DEAR girl will listen to you k. Fucking pissed off.
Lying is your forte, fucking hypocrite. If you're such a good actor (oh sorry actress), then go join mediacorp la.
Oh wrong again, go to other country la. S.U.C.K.E.R.
I dare you to not come back to singapore anymore. You're such a loser.
I bet you will give an excuse AGAIN. (Emphasis on the AGAIN).
Fucking disgusted by you. Who's the one tolerating who.
What are you best at. Backstabbing people? Act pitiful? Flirt girls?
Aww, i feel so sorry for you. Go ahead and complain to those who believe you.
I wonder why is there such a person like you in this wold. You shame vb, shame yourself!
Other people don't know you, but we know! Know exactly what kind of person you are.

Dead.

Ss is a killer, chem is (idk what to say).
Anyway i didn't do the section C for chem at all. 20marks gone lol.
I did the paper for less than 10mins. How pro.

History and dnt tomorrow, i'm so dead.
Have not memorise anyth yet and have not study dnt.
Confirm F9 for science and ch.

And i most probably will retain, sigh :(

Burn and die.

I've not successfully memorise anyth yet for social studies tomorrow :(
Have to reach school by 745 :(
And worst is, second paper is at 2pm!! Total waste of time.
I'm so gonna fail ch :(

I think i'll wake up in the morning to study sigh.
Hopefully i'll be able to memorise.

Good luck everyone!
3 days, 5papers to go.

Im free now and it pains my heart.

Photos from 30th oct 2009 :

This and those 8photos below was taken through burst shots, I DIDN'T KNOW CAN!

Thanks to THAT PERSON who tell me, "No, they're seeing pictures."

Alot more photos, but im just too lazy to upload. For more, go to facebook and search for me :)

Fernanda's and my phone! :)

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Fill my heart, remove the scar. Its empty now.

Every msge i get, i hope its from you. How pathetic does that make me?

I'd give anyth for you. It'd been a long time, but no i can't, not that idw to.

What can i do, please tell me..

Birthday wsh.

Ok i just finish replying all the wall post on my facebook.
And im surprise there're 18ppl who wished me on fb, haha :)

Ok, on th 28th.
More than 30 people text and wished me happy birthday, not many i know.
But still, thanks! Those are who i love, close friends, friends and some who rarely talk.
Maths paper 2 was quite difficult but do-able. Haha.
Waited for my mum to come and fetch me and we went to D-farm to eat.
Went home after that.
I know, what a boring birthday. But yeah, life suck.

Ok so today,
My internet connection is finally here.
Fernanda sha clarrissa jocelyn jane came over to my house downstairs to celebrate my birthday.
We went over to orchard, wanting to watch movie but in the end, no.
And they dressed like some kuku HAHA. Not me, cause i went home to change hahaha.
Though its not a great great great birthday celebration due to some minor minor things.
But still, love all of you! :D

So far, Os is not so bad. I'm afraid that i would fail my english.
But for maths, i think i can at least get a C5.

Afraid..:(

As you all can see, the post below is definitely not posted by me. :) I'm at mac since afternoon and i'm still here(duh). Coming over tomorrow again to study overnight. Os is in 3days time, and i'm scared:( There's maths paper2 on my birthday, which is on wed. And i can't enjoy it:(
K, i should go back to study now :)

i find mindy very cute. :) kekekekekekekekekekekkekekeke.

A hole in my heart.

Its nearer and nearer to Os, i'm really really afraid sigh.
Anyway moving in to my new house on sat. Its nice but its small, very very small.
May have a house warming party later on.
I wanted the house warming party on my birthday. But no, cannot :(
It may be on th 24 or 25. :(

12days to Os.
14days to bday.

Manipulated.

16 more days to Os, i'm scared :(
Sigh stress..

If only i'm that fortunate,

Didn't went to school ystd and today.
Someone make me study please :(
Anyway, moving into my new house maybe next week.
Have to switch mrt and lrt :( Troublesome.
I would rather take the train all the way from khatib like now.
I went to ikea the other day to choose my study table :)
And ikea is real cold.

18 days to Os :(
20 days to my birthday :)

One step at a time.

Didn't went to school today.
Prelim2 results suckkkkkked.
I don't know how am i gonna get to poly.

I have to get at least an B4 for both english and maths,
A2 for chinese, if can. And at least a c6 for dnt.
And i can still afford F9 for either science or combine humans to get 26points.
Thats what my course needs :)

I gotten two F9s, science and ch.
Anyway i'm happy that i passed ss sbq, but i only gotten 4 over 25 for ss essay.
Lol.

25 more days to Os. :(
And 27 more days to my birthday! And i can officially watch nc16 movies :D
And its maths paper2 on my brithday :(:(
Stresssssssssssssssssssssssss...

Died.

Passed chinese, maths and english.
Chinese is still B3 :( Wonder why i retake chinese for.
Maths and english both c6.
F9 for science, confirm. Expected tho. Science is so not cool!
Taking back ss and history tomorrow, doubt will get any higher than science.

27 more days to Os.
I'm afraid :(

Everything is out now.

Got back prelim2 results.
Chinese deproved, p2 48/70. Its 68% only :( Paper1 would pull it even lower.
Failed physics, expected. P2 21/65. Mcq 8/20. (Not bad alrdy k, first time so high.)
Passed my maths paper1, totally unexpected. 49/80 :D:D:D

Gonna take back other soon.
See ya.

At the bottom of th pit.

I'm at westmall mac with zahria and fernanda! The connectio here suck big time! Wi Fi is so lag!! Anyway, got back english for prelim2 and i passed! Unexpected k! Got 19 over 30 for both essay and speech for paper1. 20 over 50 for paper. Overall 51.6. Lousy i know. Got back chem mcq, 6 over 20. Got improvement k! The last time was 1 over 20. 4 over 15 for chem practical. Chem suck :(
Hopefully will get back physics chinese and ss tmrw. Think will only pass chinese.

I wonder if i wasn't overprotective and so jealous, will things still happen? Would things be like this now?
Whats up with the ppl with the name starting of *?

Save me from this crazy world.

Tired.
Really very tired.
Someone pull me back up.
I'll be thankful.

What hurts the most.

Hi people, it have been 9hours. But we are still at mac!! We had our breakfast and lunch, inclusive of our dinner. Fattening!!!!! Hahahah.

Tuesday will be mt paper and wed is science practical, and it marks the end of prelim2.
I missed dnt paper ystd cause i'm sick:(
Down with fever, sorethroat and flu.

Going home soon, see ya! :D

Truth revealed

yo people! im with amanda and fernanda at yuhua mac now. and i love them alot! but i love AMANDA more hehe!! ^.^ <(fernanda think she cute) hahahahahah.

i found out the truth about some stuff awhile ago and im like...utterly disappointed.

okay, goodbye!;)

I want to know.

Prelim2 :(
8 papers done, 5more to go :(
I doubt i will pass any, sigh.

One paper in the morning at 8 and another at 2pm is killing me.
Exhausted :(
Maths p2 is killer paper, so say bye.

Dnt paper tomorrow and phy/chem p1 on friday.
Why can't they just put it tgt, only have to go to school for one hour on monday.
Waste of time.

Shower me with love.

Tomorrow's the deadline for dnt. Cheers!
Finally, i was so stressed up that my dream was all about dnt :(
I'm gonna have a good sleep after that!

No time to blog so much now, have to rush my dnt.


-Ciao. Till the next update :)

Mend my heart.

Stressed up doing dnt.
The deadline's in 2days time.
Lots of thing not done yet. :(

Have not studied for ss test tomorrow.
Have not done english paper2 due tomorrow.
:(:(:(

Light up my life.

English oral was rather ok. At least i talked abit.
Took back chinese Os results, gotten a B3.
Its not good at all :(
Should i retake? I don't know.

Didn't went to school today.
Not feeling well :(

A love so deep.

English Os oral tomorrow, scared x1 :(
Taking back of chinese Os results on wed , scared x2 :(

Chiong-ing dnt for these few days. Maybe till this week or next.
Very tiring, but only myself to blame.

Spent i think 2hours or more drawing working drawing?
Very troublesome plus frustrating.

Jieyi says she don't bother reading my blog cause its too boring :(
YOU HURT ME HEART!! :(:(:(
Hahaha.

If its time.

Today marks the end of prelim1, yay :)
Tomorrow will be doom day, cause its taking back of papers.
Friday will be celebrating national's day and will be playing captain's ball with teachers.
And there's no school next monday!!! :D:D:D:D

Away from everything.

Interview tomorrow :(
Science papers tomorrow as well.
Yay, because its the last day of prelim1.
Boo, because will be taking back papers :(

Pain! :(

Nail broke, blood! :(
Anyway tomorrow is the second last day of prelims.
YAY.
Paper till 9.45am. Going home after that i think.

Btw, heard from adeline that we're gonna vs teachers for captain's ball interclass.
Cause we won the other time :)

Without you, life is worthless.

Can't believe i actually got selected for interview for the dpa exercise.
When i didn't write anyth for the reason why i chose that course.
Anyway, i doubt i'll get in cause i wouldn't talk :)

Watched the Public Enemies ystd, its an NC16 movie.
The Hangover is definitely much much nicer.
Everyone should go and watch it man!

Why is that so..

Why am i always at fault.
When i didn't do anything wrong?
Why do i feel this way.
I'm not ok at all.
I'm not happy.

Maths paper1 and ss today is 99.9% fail.
Chem tomorrow and its 100000% fail.
Chem paper end at 9 tomorrow, which means can go home after that.
Like a waste of time going to school just to do a paper and go home.
Can't they set it on another day?

I'm feeling very crapy :(

Can we go back.

Today marks the start of prelim1.
English paper 1 and 2 is killer :(
I'm gonna fail english :(:(
Maths paper1 and ss tomorrow :(
Die die die :(

Tell me why.

Went to counselling and then Central to buy my mummy's birthday present.
And took a very long time to get to boat quay.
Took cab in the end though :/
Ate at sizzling rock and looked at the fireworks.
This year's fireworks is damn nice! :D:D:D:D
There was parachute and helicopter hanging singapore flag somewhere near evening too :)
Ate till 8plus and then went upstairs for karaoke.
Went off around 9plus. Went to plaza sing to catch 11.50pm movie.
The hangover :) Its NC16, and its very nice. 5 stars k!
Ended around 1plus going 2 and then took the nightrider home.
Reached home around 3++am.

The time now is 4.48am, and i have not bathe.
Intended to go www tomorrow (later), but i guess it would be postponed to next week! :)
Too tired :(

Mean the world to me.

Listening compre today, got 2 questions wrong :(
History test today, i didn't study anyth at all. Not even a tiny bit :(
From ystd onwards, i have tuition :(
Dk how long since i had tuition..
Every tuesday friday and sat. Worst thing is, sat is at 930am..

Ss test tomorrow, after school.
Friday gonna go tpy to take pay. And then study??

To presevere.

I conclude that i'm lackadaisical.
Don't know the meaning? Go check the dictionary (:

My stomach is in pain now. Idk why :(
El compre test tomorrow.
I'll go to school k! JIEYI, YOU WAIT AND SEE!
I will surely go to school no matter how sick i am!!

I spent more than one hour to finish checking all the words :(
I'm so tired.

Over the weekend, went t watch harry potter.
And escape. Intended to go www, last minute decision t go escape.
Its ok, going to www this weekend, most likely. :)

Sigh.

Did maths mock exam ystd, and realised Olevels maths is quite easy!
Easier than those papers that we normally do :)

Its 11more days to Prelim1.
26th October, the proper start of Olevels.
And maths paper2 is on my birthday :(:(:(

4tests every week, my brain isn't that big to memorise all those notes :(

Tough.

Didn't go to school today, again.
Currently studying for history test on thursday.
I chiong-ed my english ystd for nothing -.-

Should i private my blog?
Yes/No.
Majority wins. Votes by tagging :)