Away from everything.

Interview tomorrow :(
Science papers tomorrow as well.
Yay, because its the last day of prelim1.
Boo, because will be taking back papers :(

Pain! :(

Nail broke, blood! :(
Anyway tomorrow is the second last day of prelims.
YAY.
Paper till 9.45am. Going home after that i think.

Btw, heard from adeline that we're gonna vs teachers for captain's ball interclass.
Cause we won the other time :)

Without you, life is worthless.

Can't believe i actually got selected for interview for the dpa exercise.
When i didn't write anyth for the reason why i chose that course.
Anyway, i doubt i'll get in cause i wouldn't talk :)

Watched the Public Enemies ystd, its an NC16 movie.
The Hangover is definitely much much nicer.
Everyone should go and watch it man!

Why is that so..

Why am i always at fault.
When i didn't do anything wrong?
Why do i feel this way.
I'm not ok at all.
I'm not happy.

Maths paper1 and ss today is 99.9% fail.
Chem tomorrow and its 100000% fail.
Chem paper end at 9 tomorrow, which means can go home after that.
Like a waste of time going to school just to do a paper and go home.
Can't they set it on another day?

I'm feeling very crapy :(

Can we go back.

Today marks the start of prelim1.
English paper 1 and 2 is killer :(
I'm gonna fail english :(:(
Maths paper1 and ss tomorrow :(
Die die die :(

Tell me why.

Went to counselling and then Central to buy my mummy's birthday present.
And took a very long time to get to boat quay.
Took cab in the end though :/
Ate at sizzling rock and looked at the fireworks.
This year's fireworks is damn nice! :D:D:D:D
There was parachute and helicopter hanging singapore flag somewhere near evening too :)
Ate till 8plus and then went upstairs for karaoke.
Went off around 9plus. Went to plaza sing to catch 11.50pm movie.
The hangover :) Its NC16, and its very nice. 5 stars k!
Ended around 1plus going 2 and then took the nightrider home.
Reached home around 3++am.

The time now is 4.48am, and i have not bathe.
Intended to go www tomorrow (later), but i guess it would be postponed to next week! :)
Too tired :(

Mean the world to me.

Listening compre today, got 2 questions wrong :(
History test today, i didn't study anyth at all. Not even a tiny bit :(
From ystd onwards, i have tuition :(
Dk how long since i had tuition..
Every tuesday friday and sat. Worst thing is, sat is at 930am..

Ss test tomorrow, after school.
Friday gonna go tpy to take pay. And then study??

To presevere.

I conclude that i'm lackadaisical.
Don't know the meaning? Go check the dictionary (:

My stomach is in pain now. Idk why :(
El compre test tomorrow.
I'll go to school k! JIEYI, YOU WAIT AND SEE!
I will surely go to school no matter how sick i am!!

I spent more than one hour to finish checking all the words :(
I'm so tired.

Over the weekend, went t watch harry potter.
And escape. Intended to go www, last minute decision t go escape.
Its ok, going to www this weekend, most likely. :)

Sigh.

Did maths mock exam ystd, and realised Olevels maths is quite easy!
Easier than those papers that we normally do :)

Its 11more days to Prelim1.
26th October, the proper start of Olevels.
And maths paper2 is on my birthday :(:(:(

4tests every week, my brain isn't that big to memorise all those notes :(

Tough.

Didn't go to school today, again.
Currently studying for history test on thursday.
I chiong-ed my english ystd for nothing -.-

Should i private my blog?
Yes/No.
Majority wins. Votes by tagging :)

Private.

Supposed to go night cycling at east coast.
Last minute smth happen, so have to go down to paya lebar.
After that took bus to toa payoh and stone?
Took NR1 back and reached home at 2am?
Played monopoly and slept at 6am.
Woke up at 2.30pm today.

School tomorrow :(

PS : Blog going on private by this coming week. Email to add.
Msn/text/tag :)

Silently in love.

Why is my temperature always so high :(
I spent 30mins in the 'isolation' room because my temperature was 37.6 :(
Have to see a doctor again soon.

Chinese oral today was shit?
Kept err err.. the teacher :(
Asked me a quetion, i answered a sentence.
Sigh :(

I wished i could turn away from all the things.

Didn't go to school today, and is going to consult a doctor later :(
I'm freezing :(

I'm leading a happy life now, i think.
But why do memories keep coming back?
Why do i feel jealous, why do i still miss..
Why am i wondering how you've been, if you're happy or not.
Why do i want to see you so much?
Why is love so torturing :(

Get to know yourself better.

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Why is it so difficult..

This week has been hectic for me :(
I'm so tired, lack of sleep.
Its only a week..
Physcis tomorrow @10am, sigh. Early early.
Then east to study.

I've to spend time to think about some things.
I seriously don't know..

& I may be privating my blog :)

Horoscope :
Romance, extravagance, and nothing but the best -- especially when it comes to seducing a certain someone like they've never been seduced before. That's your mission, and no one needs to ask you if you're willing to accept it. You've been carrying on this behind-the-scenes infatuation for far too long, anyway. It's time to get this show on the road.

Promise.

I'm not supposed to online during weekdays, but i'm online.
But i did studied, and its good k.
I don't know how long it will last.
Its only the 2nd day, and i'm feeling so tired..
I feel as though i'm gonna die :(

My temperature is always either 37.3/37.4/37.5 :(

Horoscope today :
You're ready to stop thinking about work, work and work. At the moment, since work has gone along so swimmingly, you're ready to focus on the other most important category in your life: the person you love. Instead of saying something directly to let them know how devoted you're about to become -- again -- do something subtle to let them see. That's more your style, and more what they expect.

Tiring day.. And its only the first.

Everyone's going about the first day first day, so i have to too :)
I didn't sleep in class today, despite being so tired :(
School ended at 12.30, i know its early :):)
Cause cme, chinese is taken away. Except for i think 2hours per week?
So school end very early from now on :)
Latest is 1.30, except for the fact that we have remedial like almost everyday :(
I made a promise to stay back in school and study everyday till 4 or 4.30.
I've to spend around 3hours each day for travelling, a waste of time.
Sigh.

I gave you my heart.

School tomorrow, i'm not excited at all.
I've to wake up like 5am? :(
Life's so miserable for me..
3months of waking up so damn early.
How to concentrate in class, ha ha.

Tell me why do i miss you so much.

I'm trying, real hard :(

Ok, got forced by this person above to take photo! Still must smile one -.-

She ah, super rough one eh, anyhow pull ppl and keep messing my hair! -.-

Went somerset then to bukit merah sec to watch the vb invitational matches.

Then to plaza sing, and pizza hut. Like 12ppl tgt, i bet its damn noisy.

Though we don't realise. Seriously laugh till stomach pain.

Wo cha ni ah?! HAHAHAHA.

And the look stupid or smart then 'ting tong ting tong!'

Idk when the last time i laughed till stomach pain. Hmm..

Anyway, saw peony at plaza sing. Hahaha :D:D:D

Saw her then quickly walk away :P

Went arcade, played the spot the difference game too.

Like 8ppl surround that machine and trying to see where's the difference. Haha.

It brings the memories back, sigh..

Trained to yishun and went to northpoint.

Homed around 9.30. Yeah thats right :)

School's gonna reopen tomorrow, and i've to go school on my own on monday :(:(:(

I've to leave home so early = have to wake up early too :(

[Edited]

Joys- i'm strong enough to live w/o you says:
*quick.
*close your eyes.
*then see got what number
　　　　　　　　　　　♥　　　　　　　　　　Merabel　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　LYS　　　　 says:
*Don't have number
*Only got black black
Joys- i'm strong enough to live w/o you says:
*hahahaha
*wa piang.
*retard.
　　　　　　　　　　　♥　　　　　　　　　　Merabel　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　LYS　　　　 says:
*HAHAHAHA!

I swear its super funny!!!!!!!!!!!!

[/Edited]

Micheal Jackson died.

Woke up not long ago, am still tired :(
I got nothing to do, and nowhere to go.
Sigh. I didn't study at all, and i'm feeling guilty :/
Laziness is the cause of this.

Why do i feel jealous. I'm not supposed to feel this way.
:(

Don't patronise me.

Photos :

I don't know, sorry.

Slept around 5 in the morning and woke up at 10am.
Am feeling very tired now.
Watching bof now.

Dilemma.

I don't know what i should do now, like seriously. Sigh.
Should i give myself a chance, and others as while?
I don't know if i'm able to do it. :(
Sorry, i need some time..

I'm not gonna specify who am i referring to above.
I guess the person knows its for her. Yeah (:
Don't ask who is it for, cause i won't tell.
Except for some (idk who too).

To me, love is only between the two people involved. :)

If only tears were laughter.

Sorry for going mia for so long.
I've moved and i kinda miss my house now :(
Things hasn't been going smoothly for me, i've been trying hard to not think of some things.
And its killing me.
I've to stop thinking and hold my promise. Idw to break it again.
Smile Merabel, you can do it.

Boohoo.

Dumbass.

Anyway dont be too sensitive, it isn't for anyone.

Its for myself.

I'm gonna go take mc later, sian.

Sick sick sick.

Sick :(

I'm sooooooooo tired, its 2am alrdy.

And i'm still doing research on my dnt.

Don't know how am i gonna wake up later.

I feel like dying, seriously.

Give me some power man, sigh :(

In a way, i'm glad i am so tired so i don't have the energy to think about other things.

Though its very tough, but yeah.. :)

For those who know me long enough, first time hear me so stress eh.

Ha ha.

The promise that have to be kept.

As i've said, i didn't went for chem this morning.

I reached school at 11am, then maths till 12pm.

Did the work given by the teacher, halfway some things happened.

So tada tada.. (don't know why i suddenly use this term, haha)

Lunch was provided then went out of school for awhile (don't ask what).

Came back and play ball for awhile then went for the adam khoo workshop thingy.

Till 430 then went to play ball and then dinner with humairah and kavis.

Might be going sentosa on sunday, teehee (:

Who wanna go sentosa! Text me k! Anyone is welcome :)

I'm kinda weird today cause i say things that i don't usually say.

Might not be going online anymore.

My broadband is cancelled :(

To contact, Call/Text.

I burned my thumb and now there's blister?

I went to poke it then the 'water' came out. Then i keep poking it :(

I didn't knew i have to put plaster so the water won't 'come back'

I envy people who are genuine happy.

[Edited]

I'm feeling so stress and tired now :(

Its 12 alrdy but i'm still not asleep, sigh :(

Someone be my human alarm clock later?

Wake me up..

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Btw i'm so touched :D:D:D:D

Tagged me from austraila eh :)

Love you for this :D

And, remember to come back k!

Don't abandon singapore hor !!

[/Edited]

Sigh.

I didnt went for chem eariler today but i'm going for maths.

Like now or something.

Feel guilty.

The truth that hurts.

Found out so many things. I lost faith.

Whatever it is, i'm not gonna care anymore.

Cause someone i've known less than a year,

Cant be compared to friends i've known for 4years.

Maybe somehow oneday i would.

No one will understand this :)

Full moon.

Im moving before 20th June.

So those who wanna come to my house, come before that.

We can party all week. I'm just kidding.

The moon ystd is so nice. Round round moon.

And its so bright.

I'm not worth your love at all.

I ain't good.

Make your decision.

I feel kinda good that at least someone understands how i feel.

And the person is AMANDA LEE JIA WEN! (honoured not honoured not!)

Amanda was shocked when i told her something and she said something (:

Not bad uh, you this 3years classmate :)

For this, YOU ROCK MAN!

Only if she understands how i feel. Hahaha, BKL.

Impossible.

Iloveyou.

xoxo.

Don't understand why i take those words of yours so seriously.

When i know in the end, you're gonna break it.

Why do i feel hurt over such small matter.

Why do i get so worked up.

Someone tell me.. :(

Lying on my bed for hours, thinking about stuff, letting it out & ......

I'm sort of feeling better now.

If you need someone to text when you're bored or whatsoever,

I'm here. But on a condition, ask me if you wanna know.

To be strong, i can't.

Brief summary on this week.

Not brief at all -.-

Monday the 1st :

Chinese Os, screwed up.

Night at the museum 2 at westmall with F H K G G WJ S.

Tuesday the 2nd :

School till 1.30.

"Party" at my house with sha humairah fernanda kavis grace.

Played truth or dare. Long long time since i laugh happily.

Must call ppl and say some things for dare. Still got kiss part siol :O

Shasha fernanda and me, we use the ball to aim ........

Too private alrdy, not suitable for the young :)

Played poker too and they left around 9.30? Around there.

Wednesday the 3rd :

School was supposed to end at 1.30 but was released at 1.

Went imm then to bukit batok to meet gabrielle then slacked.

Oh, we went up joyceFSS's house to use her toilet. Hahah, damn funny.

And she doesn't let me to see her dog :(

Her dog's name is called shut-up-la. Haha.

Thursday the 4th :

Dnt from 8am all th way till 530pm.

9 longggggggggg hours.

And i earned myself 6cuts on my hand and 1cut on my knee, how power -.-

Went dinner with humairah and kavis and homed.

Friday the 5th; which is today :

Dnt from 8 till 530 too, like seriously exhausted.

Plus today isnt a good day for me.

I sat on the floor supposingly to cut the lamination(?) thing,

But yet i did nothing and stare into space for very long.

Seriously don't feel like doing anyth.

Went up to the hall to play vb, and i glad that i could hide how i feel with smile and laughter.

Thats the only probably thing i'm good at. Hah.

Yknow what, i don't feel hurt reading your post, its nothing compared to what you've "given" me. Never failing to break your promises, lying t me over and over again. How could i bring myself to trust you, to trust your words. It wasn't once or twice and yknow that. Tell me, tell me how can i trust you. You know this; It takes a long period of time to build up the trust, but it only requires afew minutes to lose it. It wasn't (all), if you get what i mean. Lastly, i said i won't hate you and i never will.

The misery.

Tomorrow is the start of all sufferings.
Olevel chinese, see me in Nov taking it again.
Tuesday marks the start of camp victory.
Have to go to school everyday, how worse can it be.
All the way till 12june and then we will have 2pathetic weeks of holiday.
Ps. Not like we can enjoy and play during those 2weeks.

I'm gonna sleep early tonight, so don't be an idiot and call/text me at midnight.
Have to wake jieyi and huimin up at 6am and adeline at 6.15am.
(:

Good luck everyone.
-To those who're taking Os chinese tomorrow.

Love ; time.

I wished so much that you'd be here for me.
Giving me support for my Os.

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love. Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment. When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help. Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you." Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"" I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered. Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."" Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!" Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her. Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed to the elder, Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?" "It was Time," Knowledge answered. "Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?" Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered,
"Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Loveee is."

Tell me what to do now..

Its have been a week of all chinese and no other subjects.
I kinda enjoyed it :)
And wo de niu! See zouyi's blog for the cow's picture.

Olevel chinese day after tomorrow, abit nervous.
Afraid don't know what to write about the question.
I realised i'm deproving in my paper2 :(
Aiming for at least an A2.
Hopefully can.

Take love out of my mind please.

Is it that impossible?

Tomorrow starts the intensive chinese.
Monday to friday, whole day chinese.
No other subjects, ONLY chinese.
Gong han, si han, compo and paper2?
What the hell. Its gonna be so boring.
Plus, my chinese class is so boring :(
Unlike the other class, jealous siol.
Anyone free to entertain me haha, sms me (:
(And i mean tomorrow).

Slept at 7 in the morning,
Woke up near 1pm.
And i'm not tired, maybe i am.
I don't know, i don't know anyth right now.

Missed. ☆

Fever, headache.

Took back history chem physics chinese paper1.
Flunked all except chinese. (of course).
Only 43/70 though. B4 -.-
Hopefully paper2 would pull me up. Which i don't have any confidence for it.
Anyway, i was suprised to see my chem and physics papers.
Much much higher for this time round, but still fail though.
To think i didn't even pay any attention in class.
History was horrible, and i bet its the same for ss.

Went batok ite for friendly.
Bruises at hip and elbow. Dive and burned my hand.
Can't set properly due to my hand, hah.
And i think my wrist is starting to hurt again. :O

Scorer tomorrow, morning till evening.
15bucks per match. Alot more compared to U16 and U13, like 9dollars more.

Irritated.

Early in the morning and when i'm still in my lalaland,
Some stupid unconsiderate ppl is dk doing what, driling some holes or whatever shit.
Distubing my sleep !!
And its still so noisy now! Since like 8 till now, which is going 4?
I want to complain!!! Make me so irritated -.-

As usual, didn't went for dnt. For idk how many times alrdy.
Watched the uninvited on monday. Reached home at 12am.
School tomorrow, taking back papers? Bet i only passed chinese.

If letting go is the only solution,
Please do.

Over and over again, hurt was what that i've gotten from you.
I tried to be happy, I tried not to think about you.
But i couldn't.
Fake a smile, a laughter.
Thats probably the only thing i could do.
Tgt, we put a stop to it.
All i wished, is for you to be happy.
Take care (:

Love isn't a game.

Chem and maths paper1 tomorrow.
Didn't study at all.

LZY, take time to think about it ok.
Make the right decision, or else the both of you would suffer.

Young isn't the excuse to not know anyth.
Excuses.

Where's your promise.

Stayed at home for the whole day.
Didn't went for dnt, expected uh.
Currently watching 我的億萬麵包.

To love and not to hold.
Wo zuo bu dao..

If you cared enough..

I didn't study C.R.A.P for history today and it came out -.-
100% fail.
Chinese paper2 was rather easy i guess.
But some says its difficult.
I don't think i would score well too.

Dnt tomorrow, which kind soul can wake me up? :(
I won't be able to wake up for sure.

To not think of you, its almost impossible.

A thousand miles between us now, and it causes me to wonder why.

I'm almost done with my artefact.
Left with grinding, spraying and idk whats that called.
But folio not done yet, sad. Not even a little.
Have to chiong during camp victory.

Gonna study maths on sat after dnt.
Dnt is 9-1230pm i guess. Forgotten.

Standing on the edge of the cliff.

School today, went to cut hair.
Then library to find ppl.
And homed.

Don't tell me who to love, i love the one i love.
If i say its you, it is.

Will you be the one..

Hi i'm here to blog, but i don't know what to blog about.
Btw school tomorrow, sian.
Imm today, saw so many ppl there. Hahah.
I'm so tired and i'm going to sleep soon.
Some pig forced me to change my tenses.

Round round moon.

Went yewtee point with sha fernanda and amanda.
Went to eat and then to my house downstairs to slack.
From 4plus all the way to 8plus going 9.
Went back to yewtee point to eat our dinner, and we took almost an hour to finish eating.
Obviously we didn't finish eating -.-
The moon tonight is so nice that i keep repeating the same thing.

Fucking pain -.-

Went to school, almost couldn't hold back.
Humairah knows..
Ss today, i'd definitely flunked it. Who cares right.
Teacher wake me up to do, then i went back to sleep.
Another teacher came, she asked if i'm ok.
I looked at her and then went back to sleep. Hah.
Then chinese paper 1. Wrote crap, hah. I don't bother.
Went jurong point and then homed around 5? No idea.

I've no mood to do anyth, so don't expect much from me.
Fucking dumb thing i did ystd which cause so much pain on my hand.
Why does bad things always happens during major exams.
So coincidental. Haha -.-

:(

I'm tired :(
I feel so guilty, i didn't study at all today.
Who cares right, whatever.

Kill me.

:)

Midyear starting this thursday.
We're always lacking behind others, but that may be a good thing.
Cause we have more time to study!
:)

And zouyi is very angry. http://fly-lzy.blogspot.com/

Lyanna :
I fucking don't know who the fuck are you so i don't need your comments.
Keep your own comments to yourself, thankyou.
Welcome you back anytime but you'll not be entertain.
Grow up and get a life please.
If you think you're oh-so-perfect, then do something more worthy than spamming my blog.
Spam all you want because you're just a coward hiding behind the computer and spamming ppl.
HAHA.

Thumbs down; present; moon. <3

I'm so tired:(
I'm doing social studies essay right now, abit late i know.
Alot alot alot of things to write.
Dnt tomorrow, haven't complete my artifact:(

Pictures.

Jieyi

Siuwai & Mindy

Huda.

Yay, i'm still taller than jieyi even though she wear heels! Cheaterbug!

Siuwai and Zhihui

Lol. Zouyi's bag. Siuwai wanted to take photo with me cause i carrying that bag!!

Eh i tiptoe same height as you hor huimin! Don't think you wear heels then very tall!

Taken by huimin! Keep say i act cute! I talk also kena say :(

Hahah you take picture of me, i take picture of you! :)

Cats.

School ystd and remedial. Supposed to end at 2.30 but ended at 2 :)

Went home bathe prepared and meet zouyi jieyi at jurong.

Jieyi saw me then shouted "eh shuai ge!!", then one guy infront of her turned back.

Hahahaha. All disturb me sia.

Waited for huimin then went to marina sqaure. Zouyi damn jealous of huimin!!

HAHAHAHAHA. Zouyi see this, AREOPLANE....... :P

Went walk walk around marina sqaure then went arcade to find the guys playing pool.

Waited for the two princesses to come (fyi, you both are damn slow!!), wanted to eat ljs but everyone was there.

So went to eat kfc instead.

Someone keep disturbing me ah, what handsome what handsome one.

Anyhow only.

Went to esplanade, take picture take picture -.-

Cats musical started at 8pm and ended at 11pm.

Reached home around 12.20am.

Very tired :(

I walked under the rain in the morning and in the afternoon while going home.

So yeah, those who get it, thats good for me.

If not, then too bad :D

Rare eh.

Don't die,
My blog :D

Hahah, ystd is funny cause i was reading zouyi's magazine about long distance relationship,
Zouyi asked why i read so slowly,
I say " The class so noisy how read fast fast, cannot concetrate ley."
She started disturbing me, " Merabel merabel merabel merabel merabel merabel".
Then i cannot take it so i turned to her and "ahhhhhhh", then she CHUATIO!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Damn funny.

During maths, vectors got PS then zouyi say PS stands for pasiao, idk whats that.
Zouyi dw to tell me! She say i lousy:( Lol. I asked the maths teacher, heh.
HAHAHAHA. Then zouyi very paiseh. I asked the chem teacher again during chem, hahah.


Today, lesson till 1 then have the National Education Quiz till 2.
Must answer questions, earn credit then build buildings. Hahah.
Went to imm after that, ate pepper lunch.
I looked at the menu, wanted to ask why all have pepper then realised because its pepper lunch.
Walked walked awhile then jieyi irene adeline shili send me to take train. So big shot eh, so many ppl send me first. Hahaha.
Pangseh-ed zouyi, she actually wanted to go find her boyf but didn't in the end.
We saw her walking home through a big big field, so called her and told her.
We went waving like mad, and irene say don't care wave correct alrdy, cannot see her also.
She look so tiny from far far away then she say we also very small then she can't see jieyi.
Hahahahahaha.


Rare eh, long long long since i've such a long post.
Today's the 23rd..

Empty.

Didn't go for dnt. When will i ever get well?
Down with fever all the time? Sigh.

Emptiness. Thats all i'm feeling.
If someone would give me some love. Hah.
Well, i do appreciate friendship love. But i'm not referring to that.
ps. if you get what i mean.

I don't know.
I don't know who has the ability to make me feel loved, feel happy.
Perhaps no one? Yeah.

No one understands me, not even myself at times.
I like the feeling of someone being able to understand me.
Hah, i'm weird. But its okay.

Idon'tknow.

Didn't went to school for 2days, and i felt so distance..
Dnt in the morning tomorrow (or rather later).
If i'm well enough, then i'm going (:
If not, yeah..

Sigh.

Bad bad day for me.
All bad things come together?
Tell me whats more to come..

You left me all alone, searching for the answer to the question.
How about the book, do you want it anymore?
Or maybe i should just discard it...

Byebye weekend.

The time now is 8.50am and i'm going out soon.
Weekend = no rest for me (:
Friendly with ite at school later.
Its a sunday :O
Bye.

A start of a new day.

Hello! The time now is 7.29am and i'm awake!
Rare huh, to see me awake at this time :O
Gabrielle woke me up and then i woke zahria shihmin and fernanda up :P

Ok, i'm here just to show off that i woke up so early.
Unlike some pigs out there still sleeping.
(don't be so thinkskin to think that i'm referring to you, hahah)

Ever as important (:

A picture for you my dearest.
You'll always stand a place in my heart, <3

Lovestory.

I'm gonna collect my homework from zouyi later, like finally.
So i've the excuse of saying i got no homework! for the past few days, heh.

Things hasn't been going well for me.
Yes, we've lost the match against presby. And that marks the end of the nationals.
The sec4s have to study for their Ns and Os. While the sec3s still have to go back for trainings.

Its right that every family have their own problems.
I've mine too. Ahh whatever.

Anyway, this house that i'm living in has been sold.
I've been living in this house close to 10years, but it doesn't look old at all.
Idw to move :(

Always as important.

Lost the match against dunman this thursday.
Next match against presby, if lose then bye bye.

I passed chinese and ss only, for common test :O
Jingting, if you're seeing this, look at this.
85 ah? I 86 leh!! HAHAHAHA.
I know i only got 12 for my english, don't haolian i tell you ah.

I'm so tired now :(
Haven't got enough sleep, 24hours isn't enough for me!

Off to sims alrdy.
Ciao (:

Cold :(

I'm at computer lab now, and its very cold.
Zouyi has food poisoning and she paiseh-ed me for the day!
I'm so angry, hahahah!
She's having flu too, thanks to me! Hahaha.
Thank me for that man, zouyi!

Match tomorrow, against queensway.

Hectic.

Tiring week for me..

Adam khoo's workshop, not so bad but time passes really quickly.

Things learnt ;

1: Choices have consequences.

2: Participate 100%

3: Past not equals to the future.

4: All for 1, 1 for all.

5: Competition never ends.

- Success = Ability to handle rejections.

- The greatest FAILURE in life is not PARTICIPATING 100%.

- Others opinion doesn't matter.

- There's no failure, only LEARNING EXPERIENCE.

1: Must be able to accept compliments/feedbacks/self.

2: Take risk
3: Be in control.

" To wish you were someone else is to waste the person you are. "

" It is not what happens to us in life, but rather what we choose to do about what happens that determines our destiny. "

" The thing always happens that you really believe in ; and the belief in a thing makes it happen. "

" Time is the only asset that you can spend only once. Be an entrepreneur of your life today and be the expert investor of your future. "

" Everyone has 24hours in a day. Not a minute more or a minute less. Whether you are rich or poor, young or old, God is fair. Hence, time and tide waits for no Man! "

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Got 2nd for westzone, 3golds and 1 silver.

My fault, sigh. Nationals starts next wed, i wonder if i should continue playing volleyball or not.

I don't want to drag the whole team down.

For more, go to http://redsports.sg/.

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You lied.
I can't find you up in the sky smiling at me :(

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Fate perhaps.

Training today ........... and homed.
Some idiot injured knee again, LOSER! Hahahaha.
Then hor, serve ball spin till dk what lor.
Anyway, take care hor. Don't anyhow anyhow.

Monday's talk till 9pm, same for tuesday and wednesday.
NINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE pm :(
Monday's match against yuhua then have to go back to school till 9.
Tuesday training, the talk till 9 again.
Wednesday semis, have to go back to school till 9pm again !! Kill me.
Thursday finals. Sure very tired :(
How to survive? :(
You tell me la, you tell me.

Do you know.

Tired.
Monday match against boonlay, won 2-0.
Wed against bukit view 25-0, 25-4.
Ystd against bp, lost 2-0, 26-28, 24-26.
Today against hillgrove, won 2-0.

Training tomorrow at 11am.
Anyway, Congrats Cgirls for getting champ.

Got 40/60 for chinese paper 2, highest in class but not good.
And 31/50 for paper 1, sigh.

Tell me the impossible.

Training today, shout shout shout till want to die.
Played backcourt, 3 sets. 4person 5person and then 6.
Keep shouting, gan chiong sia haha.
Zouyi and me no mo qi, the ball always land between us.
Haha.

My wrist is in pain, but my mummy don't want to bring me go see doctor !!
Must wear wrist guard..

To think no one's true.

Even someone who seems to care alot for you,
May not be true. They'd do smth behind your back without you knowing.
And acting nice infront of you.

Sec4 life is so stress.
Chinese paper 2 today, i did badly for it :(
Training tomorrow.

W/o you.

School today. Took temperature, hah.
Maths remedial after school till 4.30.
Race race race, see who can do faster.
Kill all the brain cells.
Zouyi cmi, first question die alrdy. Hah.
Zouyi also funny, ystd teach new things then ask me do the hw.
Pro ah you zouyi, like i know how to do leyyyyyyyy.

Went for training then opp. school then homed.

No news from you.

Nothing gained.

Didn't went to school today.
The same old reason why.
Went to jp to settle the things.
I've many things else to say but yknow,
I dw you to get upset.
You told me not to say anymore, i didn't.

Walked under the rain just now,
And i feel as though i'm dying now. Hah.

School tomorrow, then training.

February..

Sigh, its finally february.
Lessons till 3.30 today.
Went for training then opposite school to what what what.
Yeah. Went home around 8?

Many stars today and i saw the moon after idk how many days.
Sigh.

The feeling of emptiness.

Flagday today. The feeling of rejection :(
I've never got rejected before, ahh.
Zouyi kept laughing at me, and she says that i have no ren yuan.

Training after that, weights fitness physcial and then setting.
My shoulders hurts like @!#@#%$#^#$@ now.

Then went somewhere then somewhere then somewhere,
And homed.

I'm so tired now, i don't have any mood to do anyth.
I'm blogging for the sake of blogging.

Probably staying at home tomorrow, yeah.
And zouyi, i'm not a spoiler. Sunday is the only day that i can sleep till late,
Don't ask me go out!!!! HUR.

Stars.

FlagDay!

Training today, boring......
Went bbt there to eat and slack till 8plus.
Talked about many things, sigh.
These few days we've been pouring our hearts out to each other.
Almost everyone isn't feeling good, if you get what i mean then good for you.
If you don't, too bad. Go cry to your mummy or daddy :O

Sigh, i'm feeling so............. Idk how to describe.
Feel like guailan-ing someone now, anyone willing to be the one? Haha.

Having flag day on saturday, i'm so happy! -.-
Excited probably, never done this kind of thing before.
Location at Queensway Shopping Centre.
Come support please? :(
Remember to bring many many coins ah, i warn you first.
For more information, text me at 9 _ _ _ _ _ _ _,
Ask me on msn. Hah.

Idk why, but i feel weird today.
I may go mad :O
So long since such a long post, sigh.

Chinese new year.

I'm tired, slept at 5am just now.
Have so much to think, sigh.
And my dear head is burning like mad.
But its better now, 39C (:
It went all the way up to 41, and i really wonder why didn't i burn my head :O

Was supposed to go out around 11, but the time now is 12.10pm.
And yet, my dear brother is still sleeping :O


I'm sorry we can't be friends.

Treat me as a stranger.

Wo fang bu xia..

What a great new year.
I'm so not looking forward to it.


Merely a night, everything's gone.
Wo zhen de fang bu xia..

Sickkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

Went to see the doctor and i got 2days mc.
Should be going to school tomorrow.
Training as well.

I'm feeling so sick now -.-

My love.

I'm feeling so cold and tired now.
Might be going for a walk later :)
Gonna do my homework too, hopefully.
Trng tomorrow.

Some things, you just can't let nature takes it course..


Sorry, move on.

Its all worthwhile.

Look up into the sky, what did you see?
Stars.

The weather is so cold.
Trng was alright, wasn't really in the mood.
Half day on wednesday due to Os results.

Nothing beats the pain in my heart now.

Westzone is starting on the 9th feb.
I was so looking forward, but now............
Am i still looking forward? My life is so meaningless.

I've not started doing anyth on dnt,
The theme this year is Tidiness.
No play, only study.
Who cares about studies now, definitely not me.
Don't talk to me about studies.

Who gives a damn about me, not you, either do you or you.
Who cares if i'm sick, no one.

Sick :(

Didn't went to school ystd, stayed at home.
Went to see a doctor, and the doctor is very smart.
Tell you why later.
I'm not feeling well :(
But i did went to school today :)
Training tomorrow.

Studying is a chore!
Right zouyi? Hahah.

Oh ya, the 'clever' doctor didn't gave me my mc,
Thus i've to go back to get my mc today -.-

HUR.

This is how the mrt line will look like in the future?




Went causeway to meet sha to collect the bag then went to repair her phone.
Asked my maid to come to yewtee to take the back home, intented to go vivo.
When we reached tiong bahru which is like one stop away from outram, sha changed her mind of going to vivo to fernanda's house.
She went home to take her books, so i took the train back home myself.
How lonely....

Olevels result out tomorrow.
School till 3.30pm.
Training till 6plus.
Hw not yet complete.

☆

"A new year."
I don't care what bad things you've said about me behind my back,
What you've done behind me. Forget about it, i'd love you still.
I'll make time for you though this year is a very important year.
Don't be afraid of anything.

K, don't be touched. Hahahaha.
I know when you read till this, you'll be scolding me idiot.

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Oh and HI lobaloba,
Welcome back. I'd say that no one is interested in you?
Why do you have to care about who i like.
Get a life man, stop these childish acts.

Hah Amanda, this is so interesting uh.
A guy afraid of letting ppl know his own identity?
Welcome the lobaloba back anytime yo.

Lala.

I MISS MY BABY!

Jermaine is away at camp, :
- She gave me 4 candy canes, and i'm not allowed to share with anyone else.
- She will be back on the 28th.

Hahahaha :D:D:D:D:D

( I'm forced to remove smth above away :( )

Letters.

The Letter A
Are you available?: No.
What is your age?: 15.
What annoys you?: Irritating ppl like me and many more.
The Letter B
Do you live in a big house?: No.
When is your birthday?: 28th oct.
Who is your best friend?: My com, though it doesn't work well sometimes.
The Letter C
What's your favorite candy?: Whatever thats nice.
Who's your crush?: Hahaha. Who do you think?
When was the last time you cried?: Don't have to know.
The Letter D
Do you daydream? Yes
What's your favorite kind of dog?: Cute dogs.
What day of the week is it?: Monday.
The Letter E
How do you like your eggs?: What eggs are you referring to? :O
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: Nah.
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: Nothing is easy.
The Letter F
Have you ever flown in a plane?: Duh.
Do you use fly swatters?: No.
Have you ever used a foghorn?: ??
The Letter G
Do you chew gum?: Yeah.
Are you a giver or a taker?: Define this.
Do you like gummy candies?: If its nice.
The Letter H
How are you?: Not good.
What color is your hair?: Black i suppose.
The Letter I
What's your favorite ice cream?: Idk.
Have you ever ice skated?: Yes.
Do you play an instrument?: Recorder counted?
The Letter J
What's your favorite jelly bean brand?: Idk.
Do you wear jewelry?: No.
The Letter K
Who do you want to kill?: Can't think of any now.
Do you want kids?: Who knows the future.
Where did you go for kindergarten?: Idk whats the name but its opp. my pri school.
The Letter L
Are you laid back?: Kind of.
Do you lie?: Who doesn't.
The Letter M
Whats your favorite movie?: No favorite.
Do you still watch Disney movies?: How do i watch without SCV.
Do you like mangos?: Sweet ones.
The Letter N
Do you have a nickname?: I think so?
What is your real name?: Merabel.
Whats your favorite number?: Idk.
Do you prefer night over day?: Depends.
The Letter O
What's your one wish?: To have many many more wishes.
Are you an only child?: No.
The Letter P
What one fear are you most paranoid about?: Jealousy.
What are your pet peeves?: Anything thats gross.
What's a personality trait you look for in people?: Understanding maybe.
The Letter Q
What's your favorite quote?: Doesn't matter. (Not really favorite)
Are you quick to judge people?: Don't judge a book by its cover.
The Letter R
Do you think you're always right?: No one is always right. It seems that i'm always wrong.
Are you one to cry?: Maybe.
The Letter S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: That depends.
Do you like snow?: Yes yes.
What's your favorite season?: Depends on my mood.
The Letter T
What time is it?: 12.55am.
What time did you wake up?: In the afternoon.
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: Long long long ago.
The Letter U
Are you wearing underwear?: Duh -.-
Underwear or boxers?: Too private alrdy.
The Letter V
What's the worst veggie?: Vegetables that taste awful.
Where do you want to go on vacation?: Many many places.
The Letter W
What's your worst habit?: No idea.
Where do you live?: Yew tee to be exact.
What's your worst fear?: Why should i tell.
The Letter X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: Don't think so.
Have you seen the x-games?: Nah.
Do you own a xylophone?: No.
The Letter Y
Do you like the color yellow?: Why not.
What's one thing you yearn for?: Not to be lazy.
The Letter Z
Whats your zodiac sign?: Scorpio.
Do you believe in the zodiac?: Won't hurt to believe.
Favorite zoo animal?: Pigggggggggggggg.

Empty.

Training ystd, fitness.

Tuesday having friendly with sembawang.

Friday have to reach pasir ris sec for friendly by 0830.

Then fairfield at 4pm.

Twilight wasn't as nice as expected.

The book is nicer.

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Dear mr.loBALOBA.

Mister eh? A guy? I thought only girls spam ppl :O

Perhaps a gay? I see.

I don't need you to judge me, i am who i am.

This is my blog, i have the rights to say anyth that i want.

Not happy? Get lost from here (:

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My only angel DEVIL!.

Fever and sore eyes :( 

Woke up in the morning but can't go for training. 

Went back to sleep then wake up to watch why why love.

Finally finish watching, hahah.

Friendly with nanyang on thurs, dk if i'll be okay by then.

You'll never know and understand.

Friendly at Yuhua today. 

Then to Jp then playground then homed.

Not gonna specify (:

Hurt is the feeling that i experienced most.

No meaning left.

I'm back from camp.

Dear dear dear dear baby.

Training ystd then Vivo to watch beverely hills chihuahua.

After that went pasir ris chalet for awhile then homed at 12plus.

Didn't catch much sleep cause (you-know-why)...

I got watched while sleeping, hahah.

Camp tomorrow till 13th. 

Haven't pack my bag. 

And i'm alone at home now :(

I'm going to watch xiao niang re alrdy, ciao.

Pictures.

@Esplanade.

Gives the 'wtf' sign.

She say this photo is thanks to her.

@Vivo, after sentosa. Being forced.

Shihmin ; Merabel.

Dying.

Trng ystd, supposed to end at 3 but ended around 4?
Went east coast for class bbq, walked more than half hour to reach the bbq pit -.-
Went cycling, bbq, eat, and all those things you do in bbq yeah?
And mrs quah sent me home, tyvm.

Training tomorrow...........
I'm so tired, never seem to get enough sleep :(

If time could be rewinded.

Slept around 5am, woke up at 4+?
But i have to wake up early tomorrow :(
Cause why?
Because someone is coming to take picture of my house?
Might be moving house, but not so soon.
Then i wouldn't have maid anymore :(
Saddddddddddddd0ddddddddd.

Ok, training on tues.
Then maybe going to class bbq at east coast?

Owl.

I'm sick sick sick.
Since monday? Skipped 3trngs :(

Its 5.33am now and i'm still not sleeping.
Mummy called me an owl cause i'm still awake, she went out alrdy.
I think she's jealous of me cause i can sleep :D
But i don't want to, hahah.

I'm going to watch tv now.
Ciaoz.

So sad so sad so sad.

Ok, the title is random.
I found out that on 6th oct 2000, something big happened.
HAHAHA!.
Nah, its the day that my parents divorced.
8 years passed, fast or slow? Idk.
To think eight years ago, i was only 7. Only p1, hahah.
But i think they went through 2years of separation before they were offically divorced?
Yeah, i remembered i was only k1.

Hahah, ignored that part.
Just thinking how would i lived now if i still had my father with me.


Idk which day did i went to make my ic.
Its on the day that my brother went overseas.
And i suddenly remembered that i've to go to the concert tomorrow.
And i have no idea how to go and who's going? Lol.
Anyone wanna go with me? Hahaha.

Today, i tried to on my com since afternoon and i just managed to get in on.
Like finally, hahah.
Used my brother's macbook, and this keyboard seems weird to me now.
The typing, lol.

Ok, i'm so tired? Don't ask me why.
Training tomorrow.

Just sneak out and don't tell a soul goodbye.

Training today. 2.4 weights then match with cboys.
Went home, supposed to go out but stayed at home instead.
Once reached home, lazy to go out alrdy, hahah.

Tired x10000000000000000000000000000000.
Lol.

Some pig fall off the stairs while replying msges, clumsy pig.

4mths and counting.

Been chatting on redsports, hahah.
Got to know some ppl?
And belinda wanna spread my blog link to everyone, lol.
And pinky wanna make me famous for free!
By wanting to know my blog link, haha.

122 days :D:D:D

What a FUNNNNN day.

Won the match against huayi, tomorrow Ngee Ann.
I don't even know what are you all angry at.
Scold me for all y'all want, i don't even know a thing.

Yeah, tomorrow will be another FUNNNNNNNNNN day.

Last day :D

Tomorrow is the last day of bridging, three cheers!!
This two weeks seriously damn tired, school match school match.
Taking back report book tomorrow, nothing special also.
Still have to go back to school next monday and tues for chemistry :(

Match today was postponed, till monday 5.15.
Sunday against huayi.
U16 coming to an end :O

Disappointed.

Lost the match, 2-1.
25-21, 25-23, 13-15.
My fault :(
Disappointed.
If not cause of me, can win.....

Match against Ngee Ann tomorrow.
Crucial match eh?

I'm very tired tired tired.
Arm pain. Knee there swollen.
TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
Can i not go to school tomorrow? :(

3.3.

Won sembawang 2-1.
21-25, 25-8/9 (?), 15-11.
Against presby 1st team tomorrow :O

Tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired.

I've not done my homework yet! :(
Many many hw :(

Tired.

Since a long long long time since i blogged, i'm too lazy to blog too.
Basically school match school match and school match.

We're in 2nd and in the same group as :

Presby
Ngee Ann
Sembawang
Hillgrove
Huayi (?)

Against sembawang tomorrow.
And presby on wednesday.


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LOL, i just realised i got 231 uniques on my bday!
Thats so surprising? :O

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