344th post.

Woke up at 8.30 in the morning then went back to sleep.
Woke up at 10 i think, bathe then met Fernanda at Je at 11.15am.
I was late ok, hah.
Walked to Imm and back to Jec.
Went darling's house, do homework ok! Don't play play!
Oh and, she bite me! Bad bad.

Her maid says i'm cuter than her! HAHAHA!
Darling scared of tickles, heh.
And she is addicted to ...... :D
She says i'm a pig, but i think she's more!
Influencedd by her (:

RCIY Camp from tomorrow till 1st of June. Sad ok.
I will miss my computer ):
And of course my darling too! :D

Tired.

I'm tiredddd....
Chemistry remedial tomorrow, from 11-1pm.
Have to wake up early, again.
I'm gonna die sooner or later if this goes on ok.
Not enough sleep..

Busy playing maple, no time to blog.
Of course i won't neglect my darling, so don't worry (:
Nothing matters more to me other than you.
And darling is addicted to ... and .... :D

I can't imagine my life without you.

Stayed home the whole day, bored uh..
Played maple, watched television, chat, eat, drink and blablabla..
Training tomorrow! 2-6pm. At least its not in the morning (:
So i don't have to wake up so early, hah.
A good thing, i can have my beautiful sleep, LOL!


Oh and this is to Fernanda;
Don't give up ok, you won't lessen her pain.
A year passed, those memories, and you want to let go so easily?
San si er hou xing hor, if not next time regretted (:

Imy imy imy imy imy imyyyyyyy..

Addiction.

I left the com on from yesterday till today,
Downloading maple. 4 hours.
Choing 3 hours somewhere in the afternoon till lvl 60.
Went for church, then went to gabriel's house for the party.
Supposedly staying over, but decided to go home.
Darling says go home, so yeah..

Reach home, straight away on the computer (:
Hamachi is down, cannot play maple.
Darling is offline, nothing to do.

Most probably staying home tomorrow, provided someone asked me out.
And if i'm interested laaaaaa.
Trainings on every mondays, wednesdays and fridays.
Alternate days! (:

Suzanne is addicted to (you know what) and (you know what) :D
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

You're my everything.

Have not touched my computer for a very long time ok,
Not bad right!
Got back my report book, Passed 2, Failed 4.
Pathetic shit. And Suzanne passed all her subjects -.-

Reached home around 11.10pm or something.
Want to know where have i went to?
Nope, i won't tell you! :D

I'm having muscle aches on my arms and legs ok,
I have problem straighting my arms and reaching for things.
My legs are in pain whenever i touched them (:
I may just fall while walking, wobbly...
I don't think i'm going for training tomorrow, won't be able to train too.
Its like 9-1pm if i'm not wrong, and i have church at 4pm.
I guess i won't be able to wake up too, hah.

Oh and,
Suzanne asked me to blog about her, so i shall (: So good right! Hahaha!
She's addicted to ahem ahem! And she loves hugging me -.-
She is crazy over her darling, haha! And if she says the word guai,
She owe me something (secret) !
And she keep reminding me of my camp, which i keep forgetting, hah.
Her parents are super friendly and they says i'm very shy,
Ok i am, but only to those that i'm not close with la.
She says i'm stubborn when i'm not, except for sometimes la!
I made her addicted to something! Mission accomplished! :D
Computer is my life, but my darling is my everything! (:
I love watching television, but i love my darling more! (:
She calls me ahma cause i've aches that makes me can't walk properly,
Bad, bad. Tsk.
Ok la, enough already, don't know what to say anymore.
So long leh, got reward not, haha! :D

Lazy to blog bout other things, many other things to do after a long time.
And this post is super super super long can!

I think i'm really very addicted to ...
Ily (:

You're the one.

A long time since i blogged.
And the previous post was blog by,
JERMAINE TAN LI CHAN!

Bascially, i failed my social studies by a mark!
Pathetic shit.
But i got 1st in class for chinese paper 2!
88/110 (:
Happy ok, didn't expect myself to get that high.
I still wonder who got so high marks when the teacher says the marks.
HAHA!
Tuesday getting back papers.
Hopefully there's improvement, hah.

Church today, was talking bout miracles do happens.
Watched video clips, many many others.
Lazy to explain (:

If i can wake up tomorrow (as in later),
Will be going to sentosa.
With who?
You don't need to know :P

HELLO :D

Hello people :D:D:D

I'm not merabel!
But then I'm told to help her blog.
So here I am to keep this blog alive :]

Since I'm blogging here,
then I shall copy her style of blogging.
The cheating way, to make the entry
seem like its long when it's actually not!

She told me that I can blog about anyth.
But then Idk what to blog about.
So I'm blogging about nonsense :)

Private? Yes, no.

I slept at 4plus in the morning and i woke up at 9plus.
Thats counted super early ok, those who know me should know (:
For no particular reason, hah.

Blog first, if not i'll be lazy to blog when i reach home, hahah.
Going for church later, its 4pm-6pm.
If got ppl accompany then go town after that.

And may be putting private for my blog, again (:
People view without tagging,
Many views but no tag ):

And i'm eating sushi!
I sense jealousy in the air! :D
Hahah, i'm just bored.
Nothing better to do, actually there is, studying...
I'm lazy, i always wait till the last day then i start choinging.
The excuse i gave was, in case i forget everything ma, haha!

Chemistry sucks.

Hah, small kid, lol!


Chemistry Papers was shit ok,
I done all of the questions already,
Then the teacher says you finish? Like those kind of amazed look.
Just anyhow scrible, gave stupid answers (:
Finish at 9.15am then went to canteen eat then talk talk.
Waited for fernanda all to finish their 2nd paper, till 11. HAHA!
And i conclude that Art students so kelian,
Dnt students paper only 1hour or plus plus.
But theirs was two and a half hours, so short (as joyce wanted) lor.

Slack at canteen while waiting for shasha.
And that Jess and cheryl keep chasing me -.-
Then i told shih min and zahria that i ran 100km,
Thats why so tired, LOL!
Then she said 2.4km already want die, you run 100km ah.
Then i said, i run 1m, hahah!

Left school around 1.15pm, went home, guaikia right? Lol.
On the com, use awhile then went to sleep.
Woke up and continue using (:

Joyce, look at this!
Four more days to the end of midyear,
And i meant weekdays :D
Five more papers to clear, (:

Cause you'll never know me well enough,
Not you, not anyone else.

Leave me alone.

Cleared Chinese Paper 1&2, English and Maths Paper 1, History! (:
Relieved that history is finally over, no more memorising of notes,
But there's still Social Studies ):
Upper sec life is so miserable, more mature than lower sec, duh :D

Tomorrow Chemistry Paper 1&3,
So gonna die. Chemistry sucks.
6 more papers to clear, 5 more days to go.
I should blog tomorrow and bold 4,
In case someone starts shouting at me, haha!

Chinese Paper 2 was a piece of cake! HAHA!
Won't fail! (: Don't think will get A, cause Paper 1 was shit.
And i wrote alot for compre! :D
Maths was rather okay, know some don't know some.
Left blanks, who cares.

Mug and mug and mug,
It makes me tired. Mug till 3-4 am in the morning, oh well.
I think i'm dying soon, exhaused (:

Fever ):
And i'm having flu ):
Hah, random, trying to make my post longer.

Wen shi jian, qing wei he wu?
I guess i'll be fine alone.
If you think me thinking of her will make me cheer up,
You're totally wrong.

I wonder i wonder i wonder.

I'm lazy to post, how lazy can i get?
Hmm, i'm very tired today but i managed to keep myself awake! (:
Its TWO more days to Mid-year!
Like super fast can.
3 papers in a day, tired..

I'm not feeling good, both ways.
But i just don't want to care bout it, exams first (:
I don't know how to handle this, in a dilemma.
HIAITY? HIAITY? HIAITY? HIAITY?
Hai, i don't know..

I've not been studying at home ):
Everyone's working hard but here i am blogging.
Must study study study!

& i'm lazy to post pictures (:
Who cares, not many ppl read though.

If love can be that simple, why not?

How far can we go, i wonder.

Its FOUR more days to the start of Mid-year.
And i didn't slept at all this week, so proud of me! Hah (:
And and i mean in school la duh.
I seriously have to study, but the weather is so !@#$%^@$,
And it affects my mood -.-

Scorpio :
You've been running yourself ragged,
So take extra care of your health over the next few days.
Take your vitamins and get plenty of sleep.
You don't want a cold to get in the way of fun times with your honey.

I seriously got nothing better to do,
And my prepaid has no money, sad right.
Awaiting for monday, so i would have money to top up! (:
There's 3 papers on wednesday, like wth?
All the way till 2.30pm, insane.

Library tomorrow!
Provided i'm allowed to go out, hahah.
I'm so so so so bored, someone call me and talk ): ,
If you know my house number, lol!

Everyone needs love, care and concern from their loves one.
Who doesn't?

HIAMTY?

I think studying is so boring,
And it makes me feel so tired.
Mid year is coming, O.O
The weather is so hot (warm)..

I want to get good grades,
Mug mug mug and mug!
Even if can't get good grades,
But at least must have improvement.
Piority to studies!
Oh and i still have not slept in class yet,
An achievement eh? Hahah (:

Happy 1 month, don't say i boxim.

Mug mug mug and mug!

Is fate really that important? Someone answer me?
I don't know whats wrong with me, sort of change to another person.
Not obvious but i feel it, ah whatever.

And i'm been a good girl for this week! (although too early to say :/)
I haven't been sleeping in class, and i'm so proud of it ok!
I studied! Can you guys believe it? Hah (:

Life is boring without using the computer,
And got nothing to do except watching the television la.
Its also very tired not sleeping in class, very very tired ok.
Didn't sleep in the night too, hai.
Shaggggg okay..

Oh and,
I want to get good grades for mid year,
Hopefully lesser underlines! (:
If i'll work hard la, heh.

I don't know how i am feeling,
HIAITY?
I want to know, i can't feel it, theres something wrong with me.

Dui bu qi ):

I'm banned from using the com, sad right? Lol.
Hmm, suspend suspend suspended..
I still have 5 questions from Victor soh not yet clear.
How the hell am i suppose to do?
Questions bout whats my strengths, my weaknesses, how to improve?
Each question half a page long? I rather you kill me.

And i think i kind of miss school and of course friends ):
Been suspended since tuesday,
But went back school with mother to see teacherS,
Like 4 adults looking at me, scary ok..
FYI : I'll be back in school on monday! (:

Actually this post was darling called me to blog,
If not i wouldn't bother (:

Dui bu qi, i know 6days is very long, but neither do i want to.
I'm sorry, i miss you as much as you do.
You don't have to scared that you'll wake me up,
Cause you're the most important person in my life.
I love you, <3

Ilyyyy, :D

Mrs wee didn't come to school today,
Cause she's having course (:
Like finally, she didn't come for a day.
All like damn happy la, lol.
And NGJINHUI torture me! Hahah.
She wrote all over my arm, and its like damn difficult to wash it off.
I'm gonna sue you, :D

After that was Cme Maths Recess Physics Dnt.
And stop asking me bout that thing la -.-
He keep forcing me to admit, then i just admit la. Zzz.
Also not i take one, stupid shit.

Friendster horoscope:
Your eyes might have good vision right now,
But what about your heart? It sees too.

Just so you know, there's a space that only you can fill.
You're the key to my heart, i love you.
You're the one i need,
I would spend every single minute i could with you.
Make it last alright, <3

Dao zi kou, dou fu xin (:

My fever is getting higher and higher (:
Like 39.4 degree now. Power eh?
Oh, i finally manage to log into msn and friendster!
Like if i can log in into one means i can do it for another, hah.

I've been watching 鬥牛要不要 since afternoon (:
And i have not done my homeworks,
I seriously wanna get good grades for MYE la!
But i'm so lazy, any medicine to cure laziness? :(

I didn't sleep the for the whole day today,
and i'm still not sleeping now.
The time now its like 12.30am la.
I think i'm gonna die during lessons later.

darling, imyyyyyyy.....

Xin hen tong ):

I'm so lazy to blog.
I will just post a short one just for the sake of posting.
My fever is like getting worser and worser. Worser? Lol.
Morning was 38.2, now is 39.1 (:
Hahah, like over 39 degree la.
And it makes me feel terrible,
Plus (you know what) makes me feel sooo cannot be described.

Friendster lovescope:
Personal issues with your partner could hold you back in the workplace (school, which means sudies).
Dish it out with close friends, not colleagues (school mates).
The conference room is not the ideal place for confiding secrets.
- Like damn true eh? Hahah.

Should i join the RCIY thingy?
My brother is inside, he asked me to join.
But every saturday must go to church.
If there's training, then i couldn't go for training.
Should i? Hmm..

Wo pa wo deng bu liao, hen duo tian.
Wo zhen de hen ai hen ai ni, ni dong wo de xin you duo tong ma?
Ni bu dong. Mei you ren neng li jie.

Smile Merabel! (:

Here comes weekends again, i've no idea why am i sad.
The 3rd week, why am i always sad on weekends.
Sadness go away, happy happy! (:

Today is a tiring day, so much trouble.
Don't wish to elaborate.
Went to police station and waited for 30mins just to get a piece of paper.
Hah, stupid shit.

I forgotten to post bout the interview thingy, so here it is.
The interview is damn funny, laughing non-stop.
When they interview me, yuliah keep looking at me.
Damn paiseh can, then the person ask talk on the phone with who.
Yuliah keep disiao, hahah.

Friendster horoscope :
You're excited about an upcoming event,
But you still have to find some patience.
- How will i be excited in this kind of mood.

Friendster lovescope :
Now's not the time for keeping your emotions on the down low with your honey.
Connect with them, or you could be perceived as being aloof.
Trust your heart more than your ego.
- I don't know la.....

I just want you to know that i love you.
I want to be there for you everytime when you're sad.
But you don't want to tell me what exactly happened,
What do you expect me to do?

A day without you, its so miserable.

Sports day, 2008 (:
Spot me!
Its so obvious, hahaha!
I don't know why but i love sports day.
Not only this year, but every year :D

I slept for 2 and a half hour today,
During maths cme and physics.
Tomorrow Mrs wang's coming back! (:
Like finally can! Wth.
I want to pass my maths one leh!
But idk a single thing bout matrics..
Sad case.

Hmm, i can't think of other things to blog.
Or rather i'm too lazy to blog :x
I'm tired, why can't school be on alternate days?
So we can rest and not wake up early every single day.
And jieyi loves disiao-ing me! What only, hahah.

Ciaoz,
Oh and,
I love you (:

<3

I got nothing to blog bout and Suzanne wants me to blog bout her,
So yeah, i'm a kind soul (:

Suzanne Lee is a pig, everyone agrees right?
She only know how to influence me bad things, bad right?
She always touch my stomach, so pervert right?
And i say i tell my mummy she molest me,
Y'know what she say?
She said that my mummy will believe her rather than me, tsk tsk.
So bhb right? HAHAHA! (:

Jealousy kills.

2007, sports day.

I don't want to be sad, i seriously don't want to.

Ppl will only know how to say cheer up,

But its easier said than done.

Cause jealousy really kills..

Its not your fault and nobody else's fault.

It's mine, why am i getting jealous over such little thing?

I hate weekends la, tmd.

Hah, i'm a loser (:

Iloveyou, my dear.

I realised that i'm bound to be sad on weekends.
Not because of someone but because of something.
I don't know why is that so, but i'm feeling terrible .

Oh ya, yesterday.
St hilda's won nationals champ for boys,
And Presby won for girls.
Prize presentation, took pictures then went back to school.
Played ball, slack at school till 8plus.
Reached home around... 9.30pm..
Tired, but still played audition.
And i'm getting lousier and lousier.
I don't know wth did i do that makes me feel so tired.
Even now, i'm feeling damn tired.

I don't know how much i mean to you, but you means the world to me.
Idk wth is wrong with me, why am i feeling this way?

Hold on to this love <3

Lost to xinmin 3-0,

This marks an end to Nationals, Shuqun Bgirls getting 4th..

We have so much fun together as a team,

Though conflicts and all but we're still a team (:

And for those graduating ones, jiayou for O's :D

The trip to thailand, such a memorable one.

Together as a team, united we stand (:

Today, maths was ok? Was busy listening to songs and deleting my msgs,

Basically cause i have like 2000+ messages in my inbox.

And it makes my phone lag, so yeah have to delete.

PE, did 5 stations (:

Actually 4 cause not enough time, heh.

Inclined pull ups - 21 (:

Standing board jump - 177cm (i can't jump far)

Sit and reach - 50 (:

Shuttle run - 11.43s (slow, i know)

After that was english, story time haha.

Flashbacks (:

Recess and then went for match. Lost as said, hai.

But we all played happily, don't we?

So now, focus on studies (:

I want to get good results, but i'm always so lazy :x

Went back to school, slack at canteen.

And fernanda go hit my knee, on purpose!

Damn pain till i drop tears. Not cry ok! Hahah.

She said i'm psyco cause i got her picture in my phone, lol!

How lame can she be? Hahah, she will ying zhua gong me if she see this :D

Then home sweet home (:

My legs and knee are in pain :(

Tomorrow is friday, and there's prize giving at toa payoh sports hall.

B boys playing finals too, vs St hilda's.

Damn shag, this week is such an busy week (:

And i hate weekends! Someone knows why, heh :D

Wo duo me xi wang ni neng mei yi fen,

Mei yi miao dou zai wo de shen bian.

Wo hen she bu de ni.

Lost the match yesterday..
Sports day today, ran 8x200m and Cca 8x100m.
I think i ran damn slow, manage to over take syahira,
But in the end still lost to their class.
After 200m was 100m.
No strength anymore, hahah.
Got a 2nd for cca run.

After that, went clementi to eat and then walk to clementi interchange.
Took a very long time to decide on where we want to go, haha.
In the end took 99 to Jurong and took train home.
Lol, lame right (:
But the main purpose is to waste time? Idk how to explain, hah.

I'm so tired..
Yesterday semi-finals, today sports day, tomorrow 3rd and 4th placing.
Idk why, but i'm feeling so so so tired..

I think i sort of pull my muscle or something,
And my knee and leg hurts.

Ily, you mean so much to me <3

Cause you mean everything to me.

Today is a tiring, actually not so but i'm feeling tired..
Training was ok, weihong yongkwang henry and ruixiang came.
From 10.30 till 1pm then went down to eat,
And went up to the hall for libero control.
I don't even want to do, and i only knew that i have to do only today -.-

I don't know what to blog about,
And i'm so tired but i'm gonna wait till 12 before i sleep (:
And and, I've to pack my history file, if i'm not lazy to :D

Will we drift? I'm afraid to lose you, my dear.
Ily darling, if you're happy, everything is worthwhile (:
Though you can't msg anymore for this month,
Remember, i'm just a call away (:

The care you given <3

Hmm, tomorrow having training from 10.30am-1.30pm.
Means we only have to study from 8am-10am.
So shiok right, hahah (:
Mainly because our match is on tuesday?
Vs presby, strong team eh :D
The match decides on whether we are 1st or 2nd placing,
Or 3rd and 4th placing.
So yeah, important match.

I'm feeling sick,
And the fever of mine have not subside (:

Friendster lovescope :
The person you've been hoping would notice you does,
And they let you know in a very big way.
Don't be surprised if something truly amazing happens today.
Your friends will be talking about this for years.

Hah, what will happen today? I bet nothing (:
Prove me wrong then, :D

Some random things,

Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
Courage to change those things i can,
And the wisdom to hide the bodies of the people i may have to kill,
Because they piss me off (:

Imy imy imy imy imy imy imy imy <3

Oh, i'm a pig today (:
Slept till so late, hah.

Basically, i'm sick so i didn't went for training.
Yep, so don't ask why :D

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch,
A smile, a kind word, a listening ear,
An honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring,
All of that have the potential to turn a life around.

What we need to know about loving is no great mystery.
We all know what constitutes loving behavior,
We need but act upon it, not continually question it.
Over-analysis often confuses the issue,
And in the end brings us no closer to insight.
We sometimes become too busy classifying,
Separating, and examining
And to remember that love is easy.
It's we who make it complicated.

( I forgotten if i have posted this before, but its in my phone :D )


Either do i want to,
I'm sorry that i've made you worried.

Is being happy that difficult?

I kinda feel better already, so i can post :D
Today, got back social studies test.
I got 9 over 25 -.-
And it was written there, Good that you are trying.
So unfair can, i didn't even go to school on that day when she's teaching.
I don't even know wth is NHS, stupid shit.
And i was super tired, just wanted to sleep then zouyi call me to wake up -.-

She don't let me to sleep! Kill her, smack her :D
And she says, if i get good results, i must give her a treat.
So buay hiao bai right, hahah!

After school went studying with yuliah,
And suzanne, but she didn't study!
Suzanne Lee don't want to let me see her sketch book!
Don't friend you lor! Hmph.

Love is like water, we can fall in it.
We can drown in it, but we can't live without it.
Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky,
Are best relieved by the letting of a little water.

I have you, a lover and a friend.
You are everything I need.
You are the sun, the air I breathe.
Without you, life wouldn't be the same.
Please don't ever go away.
And if you go, don't forget to take me with you <3

I feel so guilty of lying, hai.

Let true love be unspoken?

I'm a good girl yesterday cause i didn't on my computer,
And i slept at 11.30pm :D
It's counted very early already..

I'm happy this few days.
And out of a sudden, i feel so moody.
I don't know why, hai.

Hmm, i got a new maid.
I should be happy, but why can't i?
Ok, whatever.
Who even cares whether i'm happy or not.

Y'know something,
Ily very much <3

Ily.

I'm too tired to blog, like seriously.
Keep dozing off -.-
I'm waiting for someone's answer! :D


Hmm, first period was history but teacher didn't come?
Free period :D
After that was chemistry, was having "headache"?
Recess - Chinese - Maths - English.

Maths teacher didn't come again, and idk a single thing bout matrics.
Don't know what 2x2 ah, simi sai one (:
And i just realised there's social studies test tomorrow,
I didn't study it at all? Hai.
Want to study but too tired to :(

It took me an hour to blog this post, lol..
The time now is 11.36pm :D

And oh,
I love you <3

心有余而力不足

I shall conclude that i won't be a setter,
Unless out of a sudden i like to run? Hahaha :D
Training today was super tiring..
Set set set, serve serve serve, dive dive dive.

I think i kind of injured my left wrist,
And i got a big baluku on my knee. Cause of diving -.-
Walk also pain ok, stupid shit.
I would rather choose to be reserve than setter (:

我决定放弃, 再等下去也不会有结果.
我要开心!

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[Edit]

Friendster horoscope :
Someone you know has made a radical change
-- They are not the same anymore.

I've been a fool all along.

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Be happy.

Tagged by denise.

1] At what age do you want to be a mother/father?
- Why do i have to think so far?

2] What i want the most now?
- Hmm, maybe to forget love.

3] Who is the person you trust the most?
- Sorry to say, there's no one.

4] Do you think you have enough confidence?
- No, no at all.

5] If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- Say already won't come true, so shhhh..

6] Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Uh huh, so what?

7] What are you afraid to lose the most now?
- I've lost the one.

8] Do you believe in eternity love?
- No, definitely not.

9] If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- Maybe.

10] List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- Denise ah? Hmm, _________ Fill in the blank yourself :D

11] What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- Love each other, sweet and of course sincere la! Still need to say? (Of course still got many more la :D)

12] What type of person do you hate the most?
- Liars and of course hypocrites.

13] Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- Like duh.

14] Do you believe in God?
- Yeah.

15] What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- I've lost the most important thing in my life..

16] Can you rewind time?
- I can't, i would if i can.

17] At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
- The latter :)

18] What kind of friend you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
- Someone that can be trusted.

19] Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
- Hmm, _____________ Fill in yourself :D

20] The place u want to go the most with your love ones?
- Anywhere will do. Cause with my love one, nothing else matters.

Instructions:Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question,
make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all .

People who've been tagged:

1. Merabel
2. Merabel
3. Merabel
4. Merabel
5. Merabel
6. Merabel
7. Merabel
8. Merabel

Cheer up, thats the most that i can do.

My heart to you is given.
Do give yours to me; We'll lock them up together,
And throw away the key.

I've to smile, idw ppl to worry about me.
Though i'm sad but life still goes on.
So cheer up too yeh?
(To whoever who's sad :D)

Lovescope:
March 30, 2008
You're not happy when you feel restricted.
You need to feel you have the freedom to do what you want,
When you want to.
If you meet somehow someone who makes you feel confined,
Give 'em a pass.
The right person lets you be you.


Just a joke :

If all of my friends were to jump of the bridge,
I won't jump with them.
I'll be at the bottom to catch them.
So many ppl to catch, later my hand break ah.
HAHAHA! :D


I'll be there for you whenever you need someone to talk to.

Take care, cause i can't be there to take care of you anymore.

Hahah, Suzanne is crazy over this 2 pictures of mine! :D







































Hahah, she's jealous that i'm cuter than her :D
LOL!!!!
Ok, i seriously got nothing better to do.

Tears just keep rolling down.

Hai, i'm feeling oh-so-sad.

Ok, there's training tomorrow, 10-1.
I don't have the mood to train.
Hopefully i'll be fine tomorrow.

I knew the answer, but i'm gonna act like nothing has happen.
At least to her, idw to spoil the relation between her and me.
I won't, i won't because of you spoil it.

Look here,
I love my darling!
(You know who you are)

--

You will find as you look back upon your life,
That the moments when you've really lived,
Are the moments when you've done things in the spirit of love.

Idk how you feel, i want to know.

Won bp 2-1 today, very close.
I guess they must be very upset/angry?
I don't know :D

More and more couples around,
So envy of them can.
Sweet couples! Hahah, jealous!!

Go find (you know who) for all you want,
Cause i know i'll never be better than (you know who).
Should i perserve on or let go?
Should i let my feelings be known?
Tell me what should i do?
My heart hurts like @!#$#@$%!
But still, i have to face it with a smile.
You know how difficult it is? Hai.

Don't scold me cause i really have no mood to blog.

你要我怎么挽回这爱情?

Oh ya, i'm here to talk bout yesterday.
Went for that baptism, and was like falling asleep la..
Damn freaking boring, imagine you have to sit down for 4hours without doing anything.
Can't even use phone la, wth. Then i was like secretly using, HAHAHA :D

I'm too lazy to explain the details, so it ended around 12? Somewhere there.
After that went to gabriel's house (i bet no one knows about him),
They are having a party there, i bet there more than 30ppl there.
As time goes by, ppl keep leaving till like left 20 over ppl.
Almost everyone's playing games, those chim chim games.
Like taboo and 1more dk what. I don't even understand some of the words there -.-
And they don't play games like monopoly or psp.
They play WII, kinda new to me..

After that my bro asked everyone to go for a swim outside at around 3am.
And he himself didn't swim, like wth.
The water was damn cold, and played uno in the water.
Of course, the uno cards are water-proof.
Played water polo, monkey and many many other things.
And the neighbour kinda shout through the fences,
Called us not to make noise. She complained la!
And the time was like 5am or something.
Then i said morning excerise what, you dk ah :D
So, we sat at the pool steps and talked..
Till like 6plus or what, went to bathe..
Eat, play and then fall asleep. Heh (:
Slept for like 2and a half hour only?
From 8am to 10.30am.
Ok, damn power right. Shasha says its a miracle for me to sleep late and wake up early.
Of course i will wake up early, its not even my house what. Hah.
If its my house, damn cool la. Got swimming pool somemore got slide.
Plus the house so big. But it takes a long time to walk to the house from the bus stop.
Damn eerie can. Reach home around 3plus 4.
Slept till like 7pm or something then online!
I've not bathe yet, hahah :D

I'm gonna take a shower and watch the television!
And Suzanne Lee, look at how long my post is.
Stop saying my post is so short -.-

Go away you freaking fever.
Why you keep coming back? I don't like you la.

I use laughter to cover sadness, how amazing.

爱情这么伤

Heh, i'm back from training, early uh :D
Cause...
I have to go for my brother baptiseeedddddddd.
From like 8.30pm till midnight? A waste of my time.
Supposed to go out at 6, but look at the time now.
I've not shower, not smelly ok anyhow!
I need my sleep, if not my darkrings gonna be darker and darker.
I guess i'll be bored there, so ppl message me!

K, i've to get ready to go out otherwise my mummy will nag at me :D
Ciaoz

I don't know how you feel, ily so much

I'm feeling terrible.
Idk how you feel, you never say.
I don't think i'm important to you, maybe.

A random pic :D






I got nothing to blog about! :D
Actually i have, but i didn't blog it out.
Or can i say i didn't post it, cause its in drafts ((:
But too bad, you can't see it! Sad? Cry then.

Ni hai ai wo ma?

Hai, i'm feeling so stress now.
Studies.. I want to get good grades, but i'm lazy?
I don't find an interest in studying, why must we study?
Waste of time, energy and money :D
But also, if we don't go to school its so boring.
Life is just so boring. Following the same cycle almost everyday.
Sleep-wake up-school-volleyball-home.

I really don't know how you're feeling,
But i feel that the love isn't there anymore.
Maybe friends are better off, i think it is.
I try not to quarrel with you, and what you did? Nothing..
Did you even appreciate it? I doubt so.

I have so much things to worry about, so don't add on to it.
My life is so stressful, but who knows?
Not even my mother knows bout it.
No one, not even a person..
And yet, i have to act like i'm so happy.
Forcing myself to smile, afterall its just a fake smile.

I'm feeling terrible (inserts sad face)
I admire strong ppl! :D

Have you make the wrong decision?

Heh, my 300th post! :D
Shouldn't i get an reward or something?
Lol!

I'm so tired, i done 6 slides out of the 15 slides that i'm suppose to do.
But i guess i'll stop there, cause i'm too lazy.
Anyway, its a miracle cause i did A homework :D
Right right? Raise up your hand if you agree!
Don't really do that cause ppl will think your screw is loose (((:

Maybe you've made the wrong decision,
Its not too late to say now anyway.
Speak your mind (:
I just have the feeling that it isn't right, i've no idea.

&& My phone bill is like 78bucks?
My mummy is so gonna kill me if she knows bout it.
She will cancel my line, saddedd..

爱要怎么说

I love you, my darling :D
Bleh, whatever! :X

I'm feeling damn bored now, and there's school later.
I didn't even do one of the homeworks that i've been given,
I'm gonna be so dead.
A week passes so quickly, i've not enjoy it yet :D

Today is suppose to be our 8th week and 4more days to 21st, but..
It doesn't matters anymore ya?
Cause some things can't be said here, our lil secret alright? :D
Keep it between the two of us ((:

Imy (inserts sad face)

Mwahaha. I am JERMAINE TAN here! Aren't you jealous? Loool! [:

I asked mermer to update, but then she's so lazy, as yknow that's her normal self. Yeah, so don't get pissed when she tells you that she's too lazy to do anyth, except to just close her eyes and sleep, heh. She stayed at home all day to slack. She claims that it's her off day, but I guess that's just an excuse for her to just laze around aye? Haha, just kidding. Mer don't give me any birdface after reading this ok! :D

So this is moixzs update for Mermerbel tday! :D

Friendly today with ACJC, won 6-0.
Played setter for the last 2 sets.
Idk how to set la, wth. Easiest is set to Zhugong!
My setting sucks! :D
I don't like to be a setter! Cause i'm lazy :X

Idk how i feel now, the only reason why i dowan to p cause i scared will quarrel.
Friends are better off, no?
You won't even sacrifice a small thing like that for me, and thats what you call love?
Like woah, love... It isn't as simple as you think.
Cause you won't know how i feel, and maybe thats good?
Hai, i really don't know how la (inserts sad face)

I think i've grown stronger after so many things that has happened, maybe..

Cause now that i've know the truth,
The wish of mine seems harder to come true.
The person you really love wasn't me all along.
I guess they were right, i've been a fool all along.
I know, she's much better than me.
And in fact, in every way.

Those little words/actions of yours could make me happy,
But i just wouldn't want to show it out.
To the world you may be one person but to someone you may be the world.
And to me, you are the one.
Don't cry cause its over, smile because it happened.

The moment you went away, i miss you so much.
I choose not to say, not to show it.
Cause love is precious.
You'll tend to treasure it when its not yours.

Everything does end, but life still goes on.
Take the experience back home from where it began.
C'mon ppl, lets move on.

I'm happy, happy to make you hate me.
I don't care who believe who, i know that i didn't edit the post.
And i think that the post is real.
Wo dui de qi tian di liang xin (Idk how to explain it in english)
Make all my team mates believe you, I don't care.
Cause this won't affects the relation between my team mates and I.
At least to me?

Hate me for all i care, it doesn't matter.
Maybe i make the right choice, to choose not to patch with you. Maybe.
I'm glad, glad to found out the truth.
You said it isn't real, how do you want me to believe?
It looks real, so real. How am i suppose to assume its fake?
Its not i don't want to believe, is i can't.
I can't, don't you understand?

I never thought things will turn out this way,
I never thought your feelings will come back for her.
Well, if thats so thats good.

Leave me alone,
I want to be happy.
A wish that would never come true.
Never! N-E-V-E-R!!

I hate you for lying to me.
Though i know hate is a very strong word.

I can let the world know, by just copying and paste it here.
I never thought you would lie.
I guess i've make the right choice last time to make you promise me,
That you won't contact her.
Well, i guess you just can't bear to not contact her, and thats why you broke your promise.
Like woah, perfect love. How amazing uh.
To think that i actually believe what you said.
Now i know that its all bullshit.
BULLSHIT! You understand? BULLSHIT!
I'm so disappointed, disappointed..
To think that i actually feel that way.

You don't mind, and you don't expect anything in return?
You love her?
Well, by all means.

Maybe this will be the motivation for me to forget bout you.
I won't forget that post on 29th feb 2008.
I'll bear in mind that.

Don't say if i really like you, I'll believe what you say.
Put yourself in my shoes la,
I wrote a post something like that,
What will you feel? You think you will believe what i'll say after that?
I doubt so.

Though i know no one will understands how i feel,
But i'll still live life as per normal.

Suzanne say update, so update lor.

Today meet yuliah&weibin at je, then go library study!
So guai right! First time hear merabel study sia!
Reach there no space so go basement and study,
Hahah, weibin insisted!

Study study study till 4plus isit,
Then went Jec eat walk play arcade, watch ppl play icehokey (sp?)
Went back library around 6plus then saw brenda?
Study for awhile then go home liao lo.

SEEEEEE, I got update hor!!

I'm here to clarify one thing.
I DON'T HAVE SPLIT PERSONALITY!
If you still think i am, then you're an idiot cause you don't understand simple english!

I REALLY DON'T HAVE LA!
AND I DIDN'T TAG AS CHARMAINE!
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SHE HAS THE SAME IP ADDRESS WITH ME?
HACKER RIGHT! WTH!

I REALLY REALLY REALLY DON'T HAVE SPLIT PERSONALITY OK!
REALLY DON'T HAVE LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

See how many underlines do i have :D

This was make blur cause idw let you see my results! HAHAHAH!

My receipt @ popular!

A total of $91.07 :)

Look at how long it is!!

I'm sick, so i didn't go to school.
Now you see this, don't ask me why.

You know i really don't want to care,
I forced myself.
To be ignorant, i think its good.
Hate me will you?
I'll feel better.

All of this while, i've been lying to myself.
Saying i don't love you anymore.
But y'know what, it isn't true at all.

Forget me and move on (:


Top8 groupings!

Shuqun Secondary
Bukit Panjang Govt High
Chung Cheng High Yishun
Sembawang Secondary

Jurong Secondary
Presbyterian High
Xin Min Secondary
Yuying Secondary

I'm hiding my feelings, no one really knows.
Stop forcing me, cause i really don't want to say it out.

Cause love is just so complicating.
Its harder to maintain an relationship than a friendship.
Maybe don't know its just the best way to avoid?

I'm feeling terrible now, but who knows?
Hah, everyone goes like cheer up cheer up.
Its easier said than done.

I'm really confused, different ppl telling me different stories?
I really don't know.

I have so much fun during the camp.
If i can, i'll choose to stay there?
I don't want to face the reality?
I don't want to face the world?

I'm not a toy, so don't push me around.
Did you all even care bout my feelings?
Don't i even have the rights to say no?

I need time.
I seriously need the time, i'm confused.

I'll think it through?
You'll know the answer by tomorrow.
I don't want to make ppl sad,
Though i already did.
I'm not feeling good either.

Wearing a mask infront of ppl, acting like nothing happen.
It isn't fun, i feel so uncomfortable.
Going everywhere with a mask, no one really knows who i am.
Not even my family, friends.
No one.

Over? Hai...
I never thought it would end so fast.
My fault, and i'm feeling damn bad now.
Ok, i can't change anything.
Thanks for everything you've given me,
Good luck in whatever you do.

If seeing me irks you all and wants me to quit,
I'll do so.
No use staying in the team when everyone hates me?

Now i've no mood to do anything.
I don't even feel like going to camp now.
Haven't pack, haven't do anything.

Hah, i'm a pathetic person.
What a weakling i am.

Barefooted at imm, look damn retard can!

I got two and a half over thirty for physics and i think i'm damn pro!

The lowest mark i got for common test, for all of my life.

And, i'm late for school today! FIRST TIME! :@

Like wth, i woke up at 6.50am!

If there isn't maths test today,

I wouldn't go for school.

I'm just too lazy to go to see a doctor and take a mc.

Sec3 camp :(

Volleyballers have privilage! :D

We'll be going there in afternoon whereas the others will go there in the morning,

And we'll be coming back on Sunday whereas the others comes back on monday morning! (:

- Must miss me ok! :))))))

Maths common test tomorrow!
QUADRATIC EQUATIONS (((:
& INDICES! :(
Idk anything bout indices, sure fail..

Of all the common test, i only pass chinese -.-
Only 57/100 and i'm like 4th in class?
Wth, zzz.
I almost pass social studies, failed by 1/2 mark.
I got 10.5 over 30 for chemistry :D
I gave stupid answers, and amazingly i got some of it correct! :)

Won the match against cedar girls, 2-1.
&& I hit shasha's ahem ahem, HAHAHA!

I can't straighten my hand.

It hurts like @!#$#@!# when i try to straighten it -.-

You broke your promise, hai.

Forget it, promises are meant to be broken.

Well, then what for we make promises?

For fun? For peace? For laughter? -.-

I tried my best, not to quarrel.

But this is just too .....

I tolerated, i did.

Sigh..

Friendly today at fairfield..
Did underhand to the wall 500times,
Setting 500times.
Weights sucks make my muscle aches.

I don't know how to express my feelings.
I despise weakness!!
Why ain't i strong? I feel that i'm so weak.
Good for nothing person..
Living in this world wasting resources.
Hai, why must i? Let me die.

Ily.

School is shit today, sleep sleep & sleep.
My dark rings is getting darker and deeper.

Social studies tomorrow & i've not study for it.
A little just now at library.
More of playing then studying.

---

Absence from whom we love is worse than death,
And frustrates hope severer than despair.
Wise men say, only fools rush in.
But I can't help falling in love with you.
No person is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry.
Love is like water; We can fall in it. We can drown in it. And we can't live without it.

Suzanne say she hate me cause my post all short short one.
So i shall post a long long post (:

To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult.
Our human loneliness has cause enough.
But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade,
Through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be.
You'll discover that real love is millions of miles past falling in love with anyone or anything. When you make that one effort to feel compassion instead of blame or self-blame,
The heart opens again and continues opening.
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

Darkness isn't the absence of light, It's the absence of you.
Jealousy is indeed a poor medium to secure love,
But it is a secure medium to destroy one's self-respect.
For jealous people, stoop to the lowest level.
And in the end inspire only disgust and loathing.

What we need to know about loving is no great mystery.
We all know that to constitutes loving behavior,
We need to act upon it, not continually question it.
Over-analysis often confuses the issue and in the end brings us no closer to insight.
Sometimes we become too busy to classify, separate, examining,
And to remember that love is easy.
It's we who make it complicated.

Nationals starts on the 28th of feb!
*Its deleted cause i don't want more trouble.

I'm tired of all this.
Hate me? Fuck off.
Like me? Thank you.

If only someone knows how i feel.
Am i happy? Hai.

Why am i feeling sad?
Why do tears keep rolling down?
Its just volleyball, just a team.
Why do i have to care so much?
If i can, i'll choose not to care so much.

3A got 1st for interclass!
& I got scolding from some ppl without any reasons -.-

My blog is private cause of some ppl.
I wouldn't want them to read, so thats why.

Volleyball? Team mates?
Are we even a team?
Or am i the only one who is not in the team.
Keeping secrets from each other, like woah.
Amazing eh?
Lie to one another? Fine with me.

IMY :(

Will we last?
You said i can never leave you.
3rd week is coming, i miss you so.

I enjoyed today! :D
The moment after you left, i'm already missing you.

Heh, many things are not convenient to be said here :)

& Lastly, i love my BBAA!

Hai, i'm sad.
I miss you so much, do you feel the same? :(

Drift, difted, difting?

Don't cling to things, cause everything is impermanent.
Don't ever let there be a doubt in your mind,
You're the one that i always miss.

Putting up a brave front is maybe what all that i can do.
There's no formula to relationship.
Love is when you're more concerned about someone else's situation as you're about your own.

I ENJOY COMPANION!

Heh, its the 2nd week and we're still going on! :D
210108, the day i'll never forget.

1st of February 2008! :D

1 and 2 (:
I'm on time! So accurate, lottery also not so accurate ah!
Familiar right? HAHAHA!

I'm sick :(
The fever of mine keep coming and go.
I'm gonna be an idiot soon :)

Things wouldn't go the way people wants it to,
That's what live is.

Have you been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit,
And you just pull the scar off of it over and over again.

One must never be satisfied with his ability to love.
No matter where he/she is, it is always just a beginning <3

---

I'm so busy :x
21st to 27th feb having common test!!!!
29th feb to 3rd march have sec3 camp!!!

Happy 1st week anniversary! :D

Wo jue de wo hen xinfu! :)
I love you more than words can say.
Though at times, we quarrel but i still love you so.

♥ My BBAA! :D

♥宝贝愛愛

Its has been 6days1hour&04mins :D
First week coming eh!
I'm glad that we've come so far.
Hold on to it, i don't wanna lose you.

14th and 21st feb! :)
&It falls on thursday! :(
&& Training on thursday :((
&&& Inter class is on 14th feb :(((

Okay, i'm damn lame.
Training today = waste of time.
Bball with Shiwei, that guailan girl.
Till 8plus 9.

I'm tired.
Super tired...

My bro got a freaking 8points for O levels!
He thinks it's not good enough -.-
If i were to get this point, my mother will buy me anything i want la!

Jermaine ask me to blog about her, so here it goes.

JERMAINE TAN LI CHAN! :D

Jealousy kills!

She is just way better than me, i knew it all along.
Call me petty, over-sensitive or whatever.
If she did like you, you both will be together so "long" ago.
When she break, it's like in dec.
Till now, not even 2months.

I'm just a subsitute.
In relationship as well as volleyball.
Just that i love you so much that i can't afford to lose you.
If one day you'll to leave me for her, i don't know what i'll do.
I just can't be compard with her.

FRIENDS only mah.
Yeah right, "friend".

I'm sad, feel like crying.
But i must be strong :(
I don't want ppl to worry.

Won Nanyang 25-9, 25-20.


&& Nanyang won unity 27-25, 25-20.
Unexpected eh?
Unity improved damn alot, i swear.


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Make our love last.
I love you<3
21 Jan 08.

Should i/Should i not?
I'm in a dilemma.
And i'm unable to think.
The fever is killing me.

You'll never know how much you mean to me.
How much i care for you.
How much i want you to be mine.
How much i love you.

I'm not strong, i never was.
Strong? Its easier said than done.
Who doesn't want to be strong, including me.

I don't wanna go for training,
Neither do i wanna go for competition.
Can someone just understand me?


---

And you don't mean your words.
I hate liars!
Confused isn't an excuse.
If the answer is no, then do say.

I'm not gonna rush you for an answer.
If you've decided, let me know.
Whether its a yes or a no, i'll respect your decision.

But i know you won't give an answer.

The world is damn fucking unfair!
For those who know, knows.
Those who doesn't know, don't bother asking.

I'm numb, i just can't accept it.
Ain't i good enough?

You guys out there just don't understand how i feel.
Tell me what can i be happy about?
Nothing.

I don't wish to cry, it's just can't be controlled.
I don't want to think bout it, can i?

I'm not happy! :(
I want to be strong!

I make it clear.
There's a limit to my patience.

Shouldn't lie to the one you love.
That's the basic trust.
I don't say it out, doesn't mean i don't mind.

I've my own problems, i have my own worries.
Don't worry about me, i'll be fine (?)

---

If one day, i'll to gather up my courage and ask you,
Don't ever say no.
I don't know what i'll do.

And lastly,
I LOVE MY DARLING! <3


[Edited]

J says must blog bout at ccab.
Went to clementi with Shasha to meet J R and A.
Off to ccab and the bus journey is long....
Went there only to watch a match -.-
J drinks water and she spits it out,
And she use her wet tie which contains her saliva to clean on me.
AND AND AND SHE'S DAMN PERVERT!
Played ball and went home.
Ask us to go, then pangseh us!

[/Edited]

I took out the thing in my mouth after much effort :)
I swear i won't pierce my tongue ever again.
Its like damn hard to take it out.

Jermaine says she is my lover -.-
And jermaine promised to grow up.
Make sure you do it.

I'm tired and bored.
I've not done my homework.
And i have to sleep early cause there is morning training tomorrow.

I'm like so damn tired.
And today is only the first day of the week.

One piece of good news is :
I GOT BACK MY PHONE! :D
Bad news is :
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS IT!

---

Some ppl are so childish, never grow up.
I hate talking to those kind of people,
Simply childish and unreasonable.
Just a waste of time and energy.

Despite what others say,
I love you the way you are cause you are special and unique.
Never ever forget that.

-MLYS ❤

---

Maybe its isn't right at the first place.
It's my fault.
From today on, i'll try to......
I'll give it my best.
I'll never want to see you sad/unhappy.

I smile cause i'm afraid you'll leave.
Cause you'll be worried. -I'm crapping :D

No one knows me inside out, head to toe..
A simple wish seems so hard.
No mood, sad.
But must act happy.
Act like nothing happened?
And i make fernanda laugh just now! :D

Its just too much of a conicidence.
But still,
Who you like, is your choice.

Keep a distance.
I don't want to get hurt, i can't take it.
I'm not strong.

I'm afraid, afraid to lose you.
Ha, bullshit.

飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤
学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤
没那种事
怎么做才能够停止
后悔竟伤你如此
不再放肆

为何总到失去才懂的难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

Hai, i was like damn moody for the whole day.
But still have to smile, laugh.
During physics, no mood to listen so went to dreamland.
Social studies, pauline fun. Was suppose to do the worksheet of 20questions.
But i only did 2 questions.
She took my paper and she was like WOAH!

After the lesson, walking out then she ask Xin Qing Bu Hao Ah?
Ignored her then walk away.
Dnt went to sleep, then do practial.
Was damn frustrated with the markings and measuring on the wood.
Said give up la, don't want to do already.
Then amanda was like,
Your nick say when you wanna give up, you're one step closer to success.
Is damn lame okay..

Everything i say happens! :D

Hah, i very sad..
Nope, i'm happy.
Very very happy.

If love can be simpler, i'll be happier.
If don't have love, i guess everyone will be happier.

I'm scared of nationals.
Not cause of compeition, but something else.
Those who know, don't say.

Just that i love you,
It hurts me to see you like this.
My heart is tearing, but i still have to smile and live on.
No cry easily, only if you know how i feel.

I said in cme lesson,
What's past is past, don't talk about it.

I guess i won't be feeling like this,
If i didn't know you.

Move on merabel, thats the only way.
Let go and you'll be fine.

Ha, today's morning training is fun!
Yongkwang take us + indoor.
Only B girls indoor, the rest outdoor.
Kimberly is so jealous! :D
HAHAHA! Too bad...

I don't like the history teacher! Sleep....
I've tons of homeworks to do!
And there's training tomorrow morning again!
But we're training indoor! :)

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I got something to look forward to everyday,
And you are the reason why its possible.
What will it turn out to be?
Will my wish come true?
Will i be happy?

Morning training is like super tired.
Use basketball to serve,
Then still must run 20 rounds around 2 basketball courts.

Lesson was okay, but i want Mrs Tan to be my chemistry teacher!
So much homework and i'm lazy to do it.
Afternoon training was okay, quite fun infact.

All the west side school's teacher came to our school to draw lots.
And we got our grouping.

ShuQun Sec
Jurong Sec
Nanyang Girls
River Valley High
Unity Sec
Bukit View Sec

Got jurong and nanyang..
Both quite strong.
Doesn't matter, we'll be stronger.
Work hard, fight fight fight! :@
And boys competition venue is our school.
So unfair can...

And there's morning training again tomorrow -.-
I got tons of homework to complete..

There's morning training tomorrow!
Must reach school at 6.30am?
Like wth lor, so early..
After that still have to study.
Then got afternoon training.
3pm to 6pm.

Might as well kill us.
If tired how to study?
How to revise?
How to do homework?

Then tuesday morning have training again?
Wednesday morning also? Crazy..

Morning training must wake up at 5am.
5.30 must leave house already.
Damn sian can...

P/s: Anyone got black dye?

Cookie has been given away again.
Cause i got no maid now! :(
How can i live without a maid?

I've done my maths hw! FINISHED! :D
And 1 out 2 of my chinese hw!

I'm a good girl. Lol!
Fernanda's mum say i am! :)

I'm happy?
Am i? I got no idea..

Ha, i'm happy today!
Yeah, very "happy".
Everyone is like calling me to cheer up.
If want equals can good liao lo.
Cheer up? So must smile.
No emo, smile smile smile.

Nobody understands how i feel.
Smiling doesn't mean i'm happy.
Saying i'm happy doesn't mean i'm happy too..

Should i transfer?
History to Geography?
Yuliah will kill me if i do!
Today pinch me like hell, keep messing my hair and pulling me -.-

Hai, if only you care.
Okay, stop talking bout this.
I'm happy! I must be!
No crying! :)

Thanks to those who cares.
I appreciate it! :)

Hopefully i will be happy.
Smiling on the outside but not in the inside.
Hurts like @!##$#$%#@!@.

Don't have to be sorry, you done nothing wrong.
Its my fault, wo yi xiang qing yuan er yi.
It wasn't me at all.
Won't be me be it in the future or the present.

Thanks for everything, i'll still feel the same.
xoxo.

I decided to not let any people read my blog.
I seriously need a place to say out how i feel.
I'll change it when i'm free... Soon!

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I don't know what to say.
All i can say is that i love you.
Very very much.
Just that i didn't say, doesn't mean i don't.

You hate me, you dislike me.
I can't do anything..
I must be strong! I'm not strong!
I want to be! I must not cry easily.

I think of you, every minute of the day.
It may sounds drama but its true..
Just wanna say, i love you tons and tons and tons!

Do take care of yourself.
You are there when i'm not feeling well.
But when you are, i can't do anything.
As you said you don't need my care or concern.

Sorry for all the things that i've done.
And thanks for everything that you've given me.

First day of school.
Hai, i don't like my class.
Not as in don't like, but just very noisy.
Like not a place to study la.

Upper sec so shiok.
Lol!
And guys wearing long pants look weird!

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Seriously, i don't know what to do.
I'm too sensitive okay..
But that's what i am.
I got no rights to be jealous about anything.
I'm nothing.

As i say, let nature takes it course.

Hai, school reopening tomorrow.
Have to see so many new faces..
Don't know what will happen.

I'm like still long from completing my assessment.
Say bye to my phone! :(
Cookie too! (Again)

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If thats your answer, i can't do anything.
Let nature takes it course.
If things are meant to go that way, i can't help.
I tried. Very very hard.
But what did i get?
Nothing..

Happy New Year! 2008!

New year wish..

1: A brand new year, a brand new start.
2: Team to be bonded! No quarrel! (Still the same)
3: Mark a end to that.
4: Happy happy! :)
5: Estella to ____________! (Fill the blank)

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If i could have the chance, i will.......
Nevermind, its impossible :)
Your answer cause a great great great impact on me.
No matter who's your choice is, it won't be me (:

You asked, if its me what would i do?
If one day, it will to happen.
I will answer your question..