The care you given <3

Hmm, tomorrow having training from 10.30am-1.30pm.
Means we only have to study from 8am-10am.
So shiok right, hahah (:
Mainly because our match is on tuesday?
Vs presby, strong team eh :D
The match decides on whether we are 1st or 2nd placing,
Or 3rd and 4th placing.
So yeah, important match.

I'm feeling sick,
And the fever of mine have not subside (:

Friendster lovescope :
The person you've been hoping would notice you does,
And they let you know in a very big way.
Don't be surprised if something truly amazing happens today.
Your friends will be talking about this for years.

Hah, what will happen today? I bet nothing (:
Prove me wrong then, :D

Some random things,

Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
Courage to change those things i can,
And the wisdom to hide the bodies of the people i may have to kill,
Because they piss me off (:

Imy imy imy imy imy imy imy imy <3

Oh, i'm a pig today (:
Slept till so late, hah.

Basically, i'm sick so i didn't went for training.
Yep, so don't ask why :D

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch,
A smile, a kind word, a listening ear,
An honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring,
All of that have the potential to turn a life around.

What we need to know about loving is no great mystery.
We all know what constitutes loving behavior,
We need but act upon it, not continually question it.
Over-analysis often confuses the issue,
And in the end brings us no closer to insight.
We sometimes become too busy classifying,
Separating, and examining
And to remember that love is easy.
It's we who make it complicated.

( I forgotten if i have posted this before, but its in my phone :D )


Either do i want to,
I'm sorry that i've made you worried.

Is being happy that difficult?

I kinda feel better already, so i can post :D
Today, got back social studies test.
I got 9 over 25 -.-
And it was written there, Good that you are trying.
So unfair can, i didn't even go to school on that day when she's teaching.
I don't even know wth is NHS, stupid shit.
And i was super tired, just wanted to sleep then zouyi call me to wake up -.-

She don't let me to sleep! Kill her, smack her :D
And she says, if i get good results, i must give her a treat.
So buay hiao bai right, hahah!

After school went studying with yuliah,
And suzanne, but she didn't study!
Suzanne Lee don't want to let me see her sketch book!
Don't friend you lor! Hmph.

Love is like water, we can fall in it.
We can drown in it, but we can't live without it.
Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky,
Are best relieved by the letting of a little water.

I have you, a lover and a friend.
You are everything I need.
You are the sun, the air I breathe.
Without you, life wouldn't be the same.
Please don't ever go away.
And if you go, don't forget to take me with you <3

I feel so guilty of lying, hai.

Let true love be unspoken?

I'm a good girl yesterday cause i didn't on my computer,
And i slept at 11.30pm :D
It's counted very early already..

I'm happy this few days.
And out of a sudden, i feel so moody.
I don't know why, hai.

Hmm, i got a new maid.
I should be happy, but why can't i?
Ok, whatever.
Who even cares whether i'm happy or not.

Y'know something,
Ily very much <3

Ily.

I'm too tired to blog, like seriously.
Keep dozing off -.-
I'm waiting for someone's answer! :D


Hmm, first period was history but teacher didn't come?
Free period :D
After that was chemistry, was having "headache"?
Recess - Chinese - Maths - English.

Maths teacher didn't come again, and idk a single thing bout matrics.
Don't know what 2x2 ah, simi sai one (:
And i just realised there's social studies test tomorrow,
I didn't study it at all? Hai.
Want to study but too tired to :(

It took me an hour to blog this post, lol..
The time now is 11.36pm :D

And oh,
I love you <3

心有余而力不足

I shall conclude that i won't be a setter,
Unless out of a sudden i like to run? Hahaha :D
Training today was super tiring..
Set set set, serve serve serve, dive dive dive.

I think i kind of injured my left wrist,
And i got a big baluku on my knee. Cause of diving -.-
Walk also pain ok, stupid shit.
I would rather choose to be reserve than setter (:

我决定放弃, 再等下去也不会有结果.
我要开心!

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[Edit]

Friendster horoscope :
Someone you know has made a radical change
-- They are not the same anymore.

I've been a fool all along.

[/Edited]

Be happy.

Tagged by denise.

1] At what age do you want to be a mother/father?
- Why do i have to think so far?

2] What i want the most now?
- Hmm, maybe to forget love.

3] Who is the person you trust the most?
- Sorry to say, there's no one.

4] Do you think you have enough confidence?
- No, no at all.

5] If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- Say already won't come true, so shhhh..

6] Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Uh huh, so what?

7] What are you afraid to lose the most now?
- I've lost the one.

8] Do you believe in eternity love?
- No, definitely not.

9] If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- Maybe.

10] List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- Denise ah? Hmm, _________ Fill in the blank yourself :D

11] What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- Love each other, sweet and of course sincere la! Still need to say? (Of course still got many more la :D)

12] What type of person do you hate the most?
- Liars and of course hypocrites.

13] Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- Like duh.

14] Do you believe in God?
- Yeah.

15] What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- I've lost the most important thing in my life..

16] Can you rewind time?
- I can't, i would if i can.

17] At this point of time, would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?
- The latter :)

18] What kind of friend you hope to be in your friend's eyes?
- Someone that can be trusted.

19] Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
- Hmm, _____________ Fill in yourself :D

20] The place u want to go the most with your love ones?
- Anywhere will do. Cause with my love one, nothing else matters.

Instructions:Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question,
make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all .

People who've been tagged:

1. Merabel
2. Merabel
3. Merabel
4. Merabel
5. Merabel
6. Merabel
7. Merabel
8. Merabel

Cheer up, thats the most that i can do.

My heart to you is given.
Do give yours to me; We'll lock them up together,
And throw away the key.

I've to smile, idw ppl to worry about me.
Though i'm sad but life still goes on.
So cheer up too yeh?
(To whoever who's sad :D)

Lovescope:
March 30, 2008
You're not happy when you feel restricted.
You need to feel you have the freedom to do what you want,
When you want to.
If you meet somehow someone who makes you feel confined,
Give 'em a pass.
The right person lets you be you.


Just a joke :

If all of my friends were to jump of the bridge,
I won't jump with them.
I'll be at the bottom to catch them.
So many ppl to catch, later my hand break ah.
HAHAHA! :D


I'll be there for you whenever you need someone to talk to.

Take care, cause i can't be there to take care of you anymore.

Hahah, Suzanne is crazy over this 2 pictures of mine! :D







































Hahah, she's jealous that i'm cuter than her :D
LOL!!!!
Ok, i seriously got nothing better to do.

Tears just keep rolling down.

Hai, i'm feeling oh-so-sad.

Ok, there's training tomorrow, 10-1.
I don't have the mood to train.
Hopefully i'll be fine tomorrow.

I knew the answer, but i'm gonna act like nothing has happen.
At least to her, idw to spoil the relation between her and me.
I won't, i won't because of you spoil it.

Look here,
I love my darling!
(You know who you are)

--

You will find as you look back upon your life,
That the moments when you've really lived,
Are the moments when you've done things in the spirit of love.

Idk how you feel, i want to know.

Won bp 2-1 today, very close.
I guess they must be very upset/angry?
I don't know :D

More and more couples around,
So envy of them can.
Sweet couples! Hahah, jealous!!

Go find (you know who) for all you want,
Cause i know i'll never be better than (you know who).
Should i perserve on or let go?
Should i let my feelings be known?
Tell me what should i do?
My heart hurts like @!#$#@$%!
But still, i have to face it with a smile.
You know how difficult it is? Hai.

Don't scold me cause i really have no mood to blog.

你要我怎么挽回这爱情?

Oh ya, i'm here to talk bout yesterday.
Went for that baptism, and was like falling asleep la..
Damn freaking boring, imagine you have to sit down for 4hours without doing anything.
Can't even use phone la, wth. Then i was like secretly using, HAHAHA :D

I'm too lazy to explain the details, so it ended around 12? Somewhere there.
After that went to gabriel's house (i bet no one knows about him),
They are having a party there, i bet there more than 30ppl there.
As time goes by, ppl keep leaving till like left 20 over ppl.
Almost everyone's playing games, those chim chim games.
Like taboo and 1more dk what. I don't even understand some of the words there -.-
And they don't play games like monopoly or psp.
They play WII, kinda new to me..

After that my bro asked everyone to go for a swim outside at around 3am.
And he himself didn't swim, like wth.
The water was damn cold, and played uno in the water.
Of course, the uno cards are water-proof.
Played water polo, monkey and many many other things.
And the neighbour kinda shout through the fences,
Called us not to make noise. She complained la!
And the time was like 5am or something.
Then i said morning excerise what, you dk ah :D
So, we sat at the pool steps and talked..
Till like 6plus or what, went to bathe..
Eat, play and then fall asleep. Heh (:
Slept for like 2and a half hour only?
From 8am to 10.30am.
Ok, damn power right. Shasha says its a miracle for me to sleep late and wake up early.
Of course i will wake up early, its not even my house what. Hah.
If its my house, damn cool la. Got swimming pool somemore got slide.
Plus the house so big. But it takes a long time to walk to the house from the bus stop.
Damn eerie can. Reach home around 3plus 4.
Slept till like 7pm or something then online!
I've not bathe yet, hahah :D

I'm gonna take a shower and watch the television!
And Suzanne Lee, look at how long my post is.
Stop saying my post is so short -.-

Go away you freaking fever.
Why you keep coming back? I don't like you la.

I use laughter to cover sadness, how amazing.

爱情这么伤

Heh, i'm back from training, early uh :D
Cause...
I have to go for my brother baptiseeedddddddd.
From like 8.30pm till midnight? A waste of my time.
Supposed to go out at 6, but look at the time now.
I've not shower, not smelly ok anyhow!
I need my sleep, if not my darkrings gonna be darker and darker.
I guess i'll be bored there, so ppl message me!

K, i've to get ready to go out otherwise my mummy will nag at me :D
Ciaoz

I don't know how you feel, ily so much

I'm feeling terrible.
Idk how you feel, you never say.
I don't think i'm important to you, maybe.

A random pic :D






I got nothing to blog about! :D
Actually i have, but i didn't blog it out.
Or can i say i didn't post it, cause its in drafts ((:
But too bad, you can't see it! Sad? Cry then.

Ni hai ai wo ma?

Hai, i'm feeling so stress now.
Studies.. I want to get good grades, but i'm lazy?
I don't find an interest in studying, why must we study?
Waste of time, energy and money :D
But also, if we don't go to school its so boring.
Life is just so boring. Following the same cycle almost everyday.
Sleep-wake up-school-volleyball-home.

I really don't know how you're feeling,
But i feel that the love isn't there anymore.
Maybe friends are better off, i think it is.
I try not to quarrel with you, and what you did? Nothing..
Did you even appreciate it? I doubt so.

I have so much things to worry about, so don't add on to it.
My life is so stressful, but who knows?
Not even my mother knows bout it.
No one, not even a person..
And yet, i have to act like i'm so happy.
Forcing myself to smile, afterall its just a fake smile.

I'm feeling terrible (inserts sad face)
I admire strong ppl! :D

Have you make the wrong decision?

Heh, my 300th post! :D
Shouldn't i get an reward or something?
Lol!

I'm so tired, i done 6 slides out of the 15 slides that i'm suppose to do.
But i guess i'll stop there, cause i'm too lazy.
Anyway, its a miracle cause i did A homework :D
Right right? Raise up your hand if you agree!
Don't really do that cause ppl will think your screw is loose (((:

Maybe you've made the wrong decision,
Its not too late to say now anyway.
Speak your mind (:
I just have the feeling that it isn't right, i've no idea.

&& My phone bill is like 78bucks?
My mummy is so gonna kill me if she knows bout it.
She will cancel my line, saddedd..

爱要怎么说

I love you, my darling :D
Bleh, whatever! :X

I'm feeling damn bored now, and there's school later.
I didn't even do one of the homeworks that i've been given,
I'm gonna be so dead.
A week passes so quickly, i've not enjoy it yet :D

Today is suppose to be our 8th week and 4more days to 21st, but..
It doesn't matters anymore ya?
Cause some things can't be said here, our lil secret alright? :D
Keep it between the two of us ((:

Imy (inserts sad face)

Mwahaha. I am JERMAINE TAN here! Aren't you jealous? Loool! [:

I asked mermer to update, but then she's so lazy, as yknow that's her normal self. Yeah, so don't get pissed when she tells you that she's too lazy to do anyth, except to just close her eyes and sleep, heh. She stayed at home all day to slack. She claims that it's her off day, but I guess that's just an excuse for her to just laze around aye? Haha, just kidding. Mer don't give me any birdface after reading this ok! :D

So this is moixzs update for Mermerbel tday! :D

Friendly today with ACJC, won 6-0.
Played setter for the last 2 sets.
Idk how to set la, wth. Easiest is set to Zhugong!
My setting sucks! :D
I don't like to be a setter! Cause i'm lazy :X

Idk how i feel now, the only reason why i dowan to p cause i scared will quarrel.
Friends are better off, no?
You won't even sacrifice a small thing like that for me, and thats what you call love?
Like woah, love... It isn't as simple as you think.
Cause you won't know how i feel, and maybe thats good?
Hai, i really don't know how la (inserts sad face)

I think i've grown stronger after so many things that has happened, maybe..

Cause now that i've know the truth,
The wish of mine seems harder to come true.
The person you really love wasn't me all along.
I guess they were right, i've been a fool all along.
I know, she's much better than me.
And in fact, in every way.

Those little words/actions of yours could make me happy,
But i just wouldn't want to show it out.
To the world you may be one person but to someone you may be the world.
And to me, you are the one.
Don't cry cause its over, smile because it happened.

The moment you went away, i miss you so much.
I choose not to say, not to show it.
Cause love is precious.
You'll tend to treasure it when its not yours.

Everything does end, but life still goes on.
Take the experience back home from where it began.
C'mon ppl, lets move on.

I'm happy, happy to make you hate me.
I don't care who believe who, i know that i didn't edit the post.
And i think that the post is real.
Wo dui de qi tian di liang xin (Idk how to explain it in english)
Make all my team mates believe you, I don't care.
Cause this won't affects the relation between my team mates and I.
At least to me?

Hate me for all i care, it doesn't matter.
Maybe i make the right choice, to choose not to patch with you. Maybe.
I'm glad, glad to found out the truth.
You said it isn't real, how do you want me to believe?
It looks real, so real. How am i suppose to assume its fake?
Its not i don't want to believe, is i can't.
I can't, don't you understand?

I never thought things will turn out this way,
I never thought your feelings will come back for her.
Well, if thats so thats good.

Leave me alone,
I want to be happy.
A wish that would never come true.
Never! N-E-V-E-R!!

I hate you for lying to me.
Though i know hate is a very strong word.

I can let the world know, by just copying and paste it here.
I never thought you would lie.
I guess i've make the right choice last time to make you promise me,
That you won't contact her.
Well, i guess you just can't bear to not contact her, and thats why you broke your promise.
Like woah, perfect love. How amazing uh.
To think that i actually believe what you said.
Now i know that its all bullshit.
BULLSHIT! You understand? BULLSHIT!
I'm so disappointed, disappointed..
To think that i actually feel that way.

You don't mind, and you don't expect anything in return?
You love her?
Well, by all means.

Maybe this will be the motivation for me to forget bout you.
I won't forget that post on 29th feb 2008.
I'll bear in mind that.

Don't say if i really like you, I'll believe what you say.
Put yourself in my shoes la,
I wrote a post something like that,
What will you feel? You think you will believe what i'll say after that?
I doubt so.

Though i know no one will understands how i feel,
But i'll still live life as per normal.

Suzanne say update, so update lor.

Today meet yuliah&weibin at je, then go library study!
So guai right! First time hear merabel study sia!
Reach there no space so go basement and study,
Hahah, weibin insisted!

Study study study till 4plus isit,
Then went Jec eat walk play arcade, watch ppl play icehokey (sp?)
Went back library around 6plus then saw brenda?
Study for awhile then go home liao lo.

SEEEEEE, I got update hor!!

I'm here to clarify one thing.
I DON'T HAVE SPLIT PERSONALITY!
If you still think i am, then you're an idiot cause you don't understand simple english!

I REALLY DON'T HAVE LA!
AND I DIDN'T TAG AS CHARMAINE!
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SHE HAS THE SAME IP ADDRESS WITH ME?
HACKER RIGHT! WTH!

I REALLY REALLY REALLY DON'T HAVE SPLIT PERSONALITY OK!
REALLY DON'T HAVE LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

See how many underlines do i have :D

This was make blur cause idw let you see my results! HAHAHAH!

My receipt @ popular!

A total of $91.07 :)

Look at how long it is!!

I'm sick, so i didn't go to school.
Now you see this, don't ask me why.

You know i really don't want to care,
I forced myself.
To be ignorant, i think its good.
Hate me will you?
I'll feel better.

All of this while, i've been lying to myself.
Saying i don't love you anymore.
But y'know what, it isn't true at all.

Forget me and move on (:


Top8 groupings!

Shuqun Secondary
Bukit Panjang Govt High
Chung Cheng High Yishun
Sembawang Secondary

Jurong Secondary
Presbyterian High
Xin Min Secondary
Yuying Secondary

I'm hiding my feelings, no one really knows.
Stop forcing me, cause i really don't want to say it out.

Cause love is just so complicating.
Its harder to maintain an relationship than a friendship.
Maybe don't know its just the best way to avoid?

I'm feeling terrible now, but who knows?
Hah, everyone goes like cheer up cheer up.
Its easier said than done.

I'm really confused, different ppl telling me different stories?
I really don't know.

I have so much fun during the camp.
If i can, i'll choose to stay there?
I don't want to face the reality?
I don't want to face the world?

I'm not a toy, so don't push me around.
Did you all even care bout my feelings?
Don't i even have the rights to say no?

I need time.
I seriously need the time, i'm confused.

I'll think it through?
You'll know the answer by tomorrow.
I don't want to make ppl sad,
Though i already did.
I'm not feeling good either.

Wearing a mask infront of ppl, acting like nothing happen.
It isn't fun, i feel so uncomfortable.
Going everywhere with a mask, no one really knows who i am.
Not even my family, friends.
No one.

Over? Hai...
I never thought it would end so fast.
My fault, and i'm feeling damn bad now.
Ok, i can't change anything.
Thanks for everything you've given me,
Good luck in whatever you do.

If seeing me irks you all and wants me to quit,
I'll do so.
No use staying in the team when everyone hates me?

Now i've no mood to do anything.
I don't even feel like going to camp now.
Haven't pack, haven't do anything.

Hah, i'm a pathetic person.
What a weakling i am.

Barefooted at imm, look damn retard can!

I got two and a half over thirty for physics and i think i'm damn pro!

The lowest mark i got for common test, for all of my life.

And, i'm late for school today! FIRST TIME! :@

Like wth, i woke up at 6.50am!

If there isn't maths test today,

I wouldn't go for school.

I'm just too lazy to go to see a doctor and take a mc.

Sec3 camp :(

Volleyballers have privilage! :D

We'll be going there in afternoon whereas the others will go there in the morning,

And we'll be coming back on Sunday whereas the others comes back on monday morning! (:

- Must miss me ok! :))))))

Maths common test tomorrow!
QUADRATIC EQUATIONS (((:
& INDICES! :(
Idk anything bout indices, sure fail..

Of all the common test, i only pass chinese -.-
Only 57/100 and i'm like 4th in class?
Wth, zzz.
I almost pass social studies, failed by 1/2 mark.
I got 10.5 over 30 for chemistry :D
I gave stupid answers, and amazingly i got some of it correct! :)

Won the match against cedar girls, 2-1.
&& I hit shasha's ahem ahem, HAHAHA!

I can't straighten my hand.

It hurts like @!#$#@!# when i try to straighten it -.-

You broke your promise, hai.

Forget it, promises are meant to be broken.

Well, then what for we make promises?

For fun? For peace? For laughter? -.-

I tried my best, not to quarrel.

But this is just too .....

I tolerated, i did.

Sigh..

Friendly today at fairfield..
Did underhand to the wall 500times,
Setting 500times.
Weights sucks make my muscle aches.

I don't know how to express my feelings.
I despise weakness!!
Why ain't i strong? I feel that i'm so weak.
Good for nothing person..
Living in this world wasting resources.
Hai, why must i? Let me die.

Ily.

School is shit today, sleep sleep & sleep.
My dark rings is getting darker and deeper.

Social studies tomorrow & i've not study for it.
A little just now at library.
More of playing then studying.

---

Absence from whom we love is worse than death,
And frustrates hope severer than despair.
Wise men say, only fools rush in.
But I can't help falling in love with you.
No person is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry.
Love is like water; We can fall in it. We can drown in it. And we can't live without it.

Suzanne say she hate me cause my post all short short one.
So i shall post a long long post (:

To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult.
Our human loneliness has cause enough.
But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade,
Through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be.
You'll discover that real love is millions of miles past falling in love with anyone or anything. When you make that one effort to feel compassion instead of blame or self-blame,
The heart opens again and continues opening.
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

Darkness isn't the absence of light, It's the absence of you.
Jealousy is indeed a poor medium to secure love,
But it is a secure medium to destroy one's self-respect.
For jealous people, stoop to the lowest level.
And in the end inspire only disgust and loathing.

What we need to know about loving is no great mystery.
We all know that to constitutes loving behavior,
We need to act upon it, not continually question it.
Over-analysis often confuses the issue and in the end brings us no closer to insight.
Sometimes we become too busy to classify, separate, examining,
And to remember that love is easy.
It's we who make it complicated.

Nationals starts on the 28th of feb!
*Its deleted cause i don't want more trouble.

I'm tired of all this.
Hate me? Fuck off.
Like me? Thank you.

If only someone knows how i feel.
Am i happy? Hai.

Why am i feeling sad?
Why do tears keep rolling down?
Its just volleyball, just a team.
Why do i have to care so much?
If i can, i'll choose not to care so much.

3A got 1st for interclass!
& I got scolding from some ppl without any reasons -.-

My blog is private cause of some ppl.
I wouldn't want them to read, so thats why.

Volleyball? Team mates?
Are we even a team?
Or am i the only one who is not in the team.
Keeping secrets from each other, like woah.
Amazing eh?
Lie to one another? Fine with me.

IMY :(

Will we last?
You said i can never leave you.
3rd week is coming, i miss you so.

I enjoyed today! :D
The moment after you left, i'm already missing you.

Heh, many things are not convenient to be said here :)

& Lastly, i love my BBAA!

Hai, i'm sad.
I miss you so much, do you feel the same? :(

Drift, difted, difting?

Don't cling to things, cause everything is impermanent.
Don't ever let there be a doubt in your mind,
You're the one that i always miss.

Putting up a brave front is maybe what all that i can do.
There's no formula to relationship.
Love is when you're more concerned about someone else's situation as you're about your own.

I ENJOY COMPANION!

Heh, its the 2nd week and we're still going on! :D
210108, the day i'll never forget.

1st of February 2008! :D

1 and 2 (:
I'm on time! So accurate, lottery also not so accurate ah!
Familiar right? HAHAHA!

I'm sick :(
The fever of mine keep coming and go.
I'm gonna be an idiot soon :)

Things wouldn't go the way people wants it to,
That's what live is.

Have you been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit,
And you just pull the scar off of it over and over again.

One must never be satisfied with his ability to love.
No matter where he/she is, it is always just a beginning <3

---

I'm so busy :x
21st to 27th feb having common test!!!!
29th feb to 3rd march have sec3 camp!!!

Happy 1st week anniversary! :D

Wo jue de wo hen xinfu! :)
I love you more than words can say.
Though at times, we quarrel but i still love you so.

♥ My BBAA! :D

♥宝贝愛愛

Its has been 6days1hour&04mins :D
First week coming eh!
I'm glad that we've come so far.
Hold on to it, i don't wanna lose you.

14th and 21st feb! :)
&It falls on thursday! :(
&& Training on thursday :((
&&& Inter class is on 14th feb :(((

Okay, i'm damn lame.
Training today = waste of time.
Bball with Shiwei, that guailan girl.
Till 8plus 9.

I'm tired.
Super tired...

My bro got a freaking 8points for O levels!
He thinks it's not good enough -.-
If i were to get this point, my mother will buy me anything i want la!

Jermaine ask me to blog about her, so here it goes.

JERMAINE TAN LI CHAN! :D

Jealousy kills!

She is just way better than me, i knew it all along.
Call me petty, over-sensitive or whatever.
If she did like you, you both will be together so "long" ago.
When she break, it's like in dec.
Till now, not even 2months.

I'm just a subsitute.
In relationship as well as volleyball.
Just that i love you so much that i can't afford to lose you.
If one day you'll to leave me for her, i don't know what i'll do.
I just can't be compard with her.

FRIENDS only mah.
Yeah right, "friend".

I'm sad, feel like crying.
But i must be strong :(
I don't want ppl to worry.

Won Nanyang 25-9, 25-20.


&& Nanyang won unity 27-25, 25-20.
Unexpected eh?
Unity improved damn alot, i swear.


To see more....

; Click here!



And Shasha's picture! :D

























; Click here.

Make our love last.
I love you<3
21 Jan 08.

Should i/Should i not?
I'm in a dilemma.
And i'm unable to think.
The fever is killing me.

You'll never know how much you mean to me.
How much i care for you.
How much i want you to be mine.
How much i love you.

I'm not strong, i never was.
Strong? Its easier said than done.
Who doesn't want to be strong, including me.

I don't wanna go for training,
Neither do i wanna go for competition.
Can someone just understand me?


---

And you don't mean your words.
I hate liars!
Confused isn't an excuse.
If the answer is no, then do say.

I'm not gonna rush you for an answer.
If you've decided, let me know.
Whether its a yes or a no, i'll respect your decision.

But i know you won't give an answer.

The world is damn fucking unfair!
For those who know, knows.
Those who doesn't know, don't bother asking.

I'm numb, i just can't accept it.
Ain't i good enough?

You guys out there just don't understand how i feel.
Tell me what can i be happy about?
Nothing.

I don't wish to cry, it's just can't be controlled.
I don't want to think bout it, can i?

I'm not happy! :(
I want to be strong!

I make it clear.
There's a limit to my patience.

Shouldn't lie to the one you love.
That's the basic trust.
I don't say it out, doesn't mean i don't mind.

I've my own problems, i have my own worries.
Don't worry about me, i'll be fine (?)

---

If one day, i'll to gather up my courage and ask you,
Don't ever say no.
I don't know what i'll do.

And lastly,
I LOVE MY DARLING! <3


[Edited]

J says must blog bout at ccab.
Went to clementi with Shasha to meet J R and A.
Off to ccab and the bus journey is long....
Went there only to watch a match -.-
J drinks water and she spits it out,
And she use her wet tie which contains her saliva to clean on me.
AND AND AND SHE'S DAMN PERVERT!
Played ball and went home.
Ask us to go, then pangseh us!

[/Edited]

I took out the thing in my mouth after much effort :)
I swear i won't pierce my tongue ever again.
Its like damn hard to take it out.

Jermaine says she is my lover -.-
And jermaine promised to grow up.
Make sure you do it.

I'm tired and bored.
I've not done my homework.
And i have to sleep early cause there is morning training tomorrow.

I'm like so damn tired.
And today is only the first day of the week.

One piece of good news is :
I GOT BACK MY PHONE! :D
Bad news is :
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS IT!

---

Some ppl are so childish, never grow up.
I hate talking to those kind of people,
Simply childish and unreasonable.
Just a waste of time and energy.

Despite what others say,
I love you the way you are cause you are special and unique.
Never ever forget that.

-MLYS ❤

---

Maybe its isn't right at the first place.
It's my fault.
From today on, i'll try to......
I'll give it my best.
I'll never want to see you sad/unhappy.

I smile cause i'm afraid you'll leave.
Cause you'll be worried. -I'm crapping :D

No one knows me inside out, head to toe..
A simple wish seems so hard.
No mood, sad.
But must act happy.
Act like nothing happened?
And i make fernanda laugh just now! :D

Its just too much of a conicidence.
But still,
Who you like, is your choice.

Keep a distance.
I don't want to get hurt, i can't take it.
I'm not strong.

I'm afraid, afraid to lose you.
Ha, bullshit.

飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤
学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤
没那种事
怎么做才能够停止
后悔竟伤你如此
不再放肆

为何总到失去才懂的难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

Hai, i was like damn moody for the whole day.
But still have to smile, laugh.
During physics, no mood to listen so went to dreamland.
Social studies, pauline fun. Was suppose to do the worksheet of 20questions.
But i only did 2 questions.
She took my paper and she was like WOAH!

After the lesson, walking out then she ask Xin Qing Bu Hao Ah?
Ignored her then walk away.
Dnt went to sleep, then do practial.
Was damn frustrated with the markings and measuring on the wood.
Said give up la, don't want to do already.
Then amanda was like,
Your nick say when you wanna give up, you're one step closer to success.
Is damn lame okay..

Everything i say happens! :D

Hah, i very sad..
Nope, i'm happy.
Very very happy.

If love can be simpler, i'll be happier.
If don't have love, i guess everyone will be happier.

I'm scared of nationals.
Not cause of compeition, but something else.
Those who know, don't say.

Just that i love you,
It hurts me to see you like this.
My heart is tearing, but i still have to smile and live on.
No cry easily, only if you know how i feel.

I said in cme lesson,
What's past is past, don't talk about it.

I guess i won't be feeling like this,
If i didn't know you.

Move on merabel, thats the only way.
Let go and you'll be fine.

Ha, today's morning training is fun!
Yongkwang take us + indoor.
Only B girls indoor, the rest outdoor.
Kimberly is so jealous! :D
HAHAHA! Too bad...

I don't like the history teacher! Sleep....
I've tons of homeworks to do!
And there's training tomorrow morning again!
But we're training indoor! :)

---

I got something to look forward to everyday,
And you are the reason why its possible.
What will it turn out to be?
Will my wish come true?
Will i be happy?

Morning training is like super tired.
Use basketball to serve,
Then still must run 20 rounds around 2 basketball courts.

Lesson was okay, but i want Mrs Tan to be my chemistry teacher!
So much homework and i'm lazy to do it.
Afternoon training was okay, quite fun infact.

All the west side school's teacher came to our school to draw lots.
And we got our grouping.

ShuQun Sec
Jurong Sec
Nanyang Girls
River Valley High
Unity Sec
Bukit View Sec

Got jurong and nanyang..
Both quite strong.
Doesn't matter, we'll be stronger.
Work hard, fight fight fight! :@
And boys competition venue is our school.
So unfair can...

And there's morning training again tomorrow -.-
I got tons of homework to complete..

There's morning training tomorrow!
Must reach school at 6.30am?
Like wth lor, so early..
After that still have to study.
Then got afternoon training.
3pm to 6pm.

Might as well kill us.
If tired how to study?
How to revise?
How to do homework?

Then tuesday morning have training again?
Wednesday morning also? Crazy..

Morning training must wake up at 5am.
5.30 must leave house already.
Damn sian can...

P/s: Anyone got black dye?

Cookie has been given away again.
Cause i got no maid now! :(
How can i live without a maid?

I've done my maths hw! FINISHED! :D
And 1 out 2 of my chinese hw!

I'm a good girl. Lol!
Fernanda's mum say i am! :)

I'm happy?
Am i? I got no idea..

Ha, i'm happy today!
Yeah, very "happy".
Everyone is like calling me to cheer up.
If want equals can good liao lo.
Cheer up? So must smile.
No emo, smile smile smile.

Nobody understands how i feel.
Smiling doesn't mean i'm happy.
Saying i'm happy doesn't mean i'm happy too..

Should i transfer?
History to Geography?
Yuliah will kill me if i do!
Today pinch me like hell, keep messing my hair and pulling me -.-

Hai, if only you care.
Okay, stop talking bout this.
I'm happy! I must be!
No crying! :)

Thanks to those who cares.
I appreciate it! :)

Hopefully i will be happy.
Smiling on the outside but not in the inside.
Hurts like @!##$#$%#@!@.

Don't have to be sorry, you done nothing wrong.
Its my fault, wo yi xiang qing yuan er yi.
It wasn't me at all.
Won't be me be it in the future or the present.

Thanks for everything, i'll still feel the same.
xoxo.

I decided to not let any people read my blog.
I seriously need a place to say out how i feel.
I'll change it when i'm free... Soon!

---

I don't know what to say.
All i can say is that i love you.
Very very much.
Just that i didn't say, doesn't mean i don't.

You hate me, you dislike me.
I can't do anything..
I must be strong! I'm not strong!
I want to be! I must not cry easily.

I think of you, every minute of the day.
It may sounds drama but its true..
Just wanna say, i love you tons and tons and tons!

Do take care of yourself.
You are there when i'm not feeling well.
But when you are, i can't do anything.
As you said you don't need my care or concern.

Sorry for all the things that i've done.
And thanks for everything that you've given me.

First day of school.
Hai, i don't like my class.
Not as in don't like, but just very noisy.
Like not a place to study la.

Upper sec so shiok.
Lol!
And guys wearing long pants look weird!

---

Seriously, i don't know what to do.
I'm too sensitive okay..
But that's what i am.
I got no rights to be jealous about anything.
I'm nothing.

As i say, let nature takes it course.

Hai, school reopening tomorrow.
Have to see so many new faces..
Don't know what will happen.

I'm like still long from completing my assessment.
Say bye to my phone! :(
Cookie too! (Again)

---

If thats your answer, i can't do anything.
Let nature takes it course.
If things are meant to go that way, i can't help.
I tried. Very very hard.
But what did i get?
Nothing..

Happy New Year! 2008!

New year wish..

1: A brand new year, a brand new start.
2: Team to be bonded! No quarrel! (Still the same)
3: Mark a end to that.
4: Happy happy! :)
5: Estella to ____________! (Fill the blank)

----

If i could have the chance, i will.......
Nevermind, its impossible :)
Your answer cause a great great great impact on me.
No matter who's your choice is, it won't be me (:

You asked, if its me what would i do?
If one day, it will to happen.
I will answer your question..

SMOKING IS BAD FOR HEALTH! :x

This was me when i'm small :)

I'm tired..
Like forever :)
My finger hurts alot! :(

I don't know how much you love me,
But i know someone else express it better than you do.

I'm like feeling so damn down, but i've to act like i'm fine.
If i can choose again, I'll still choose to like you.
Life is unfair?
Yes it is.
Nothing in the world is fair...

I'm tired cause of unknown reason.

Maybe to you,
Those 2 words seems nothing.
But to me, it means everything.
From Nov 14 2007, till Dec 26 2007.
All that i've done is for nothing? O.O
Reply my message = waste of time?
Up to you..

My finger damn pain :(

I'm lazy to go around wishing people,
So those who come here will be wished by me!
Must be honoured yea? :D

Merry Christmas!
And A Happy New Year!

If Santa Claus will to grant me wishes,
I will wish....

1: For everyone to be happy! :)
2: Team to stay bonded! No quarrel!
3: (You know who) to (you know you know)!
4: My handphone! :(
5: Maureen to Cheer up!

I'm halfway done with my blog.
Lazy.
Any kind soul will be kind enough to help me finish it?

Going to De La Salle for "Training".
Instead of being train, i think its the opp.
It starts at 2.30pm.
And i've no idea what time it ends :)
Anyway, I can stay out late today.
Just that i got no where to go and no one to go with.

Ha, I'm bored..
Many many days didn't go out already.

Played maple, cause i got nothing better to do.
Was playing maple halfway yesterday,
My maid suddenly like kena possess.
Almost scared me to death.
Now i'm like damn scared of her..

PS: My blog is private yo!
Only 15 people can read..


[Edit]

Hello everyone!
My name is Maggie, My surname is Mee.
My full name is Maggie Mee Is Yummy.
You can call me Maggie or Mee or Maggie Mee!
Nice to meet you guys! :D

[/Edit]

I'm like living in this world for nothing.
All the things that i used to have, is all gone.

Why must i have such a mother.
Bill is just $50+, and she make a big fuss out of it.
Expect me to do 1 maths book and 1/2 of a new one.
I'm not a genius. You can't expect much from me.

The fever is killing me and still want me to do maths.
She said if i passed and promote to sec3 Express,
She won't transfer school for me.
But now? She said she is going to transfer for me.
You don't mean what you said, when you say you will do what you say.

Hate is a strong word, but still i wanna say.
I HATE YOU!

I want to go for the malaysia trip,
How i wish i could go.
But having such a heartless mum,
I couldn't go.
Why must i have such a mum? I rather you don't give birth to me.
Just that my bro is smart, and can produce good results.
Doesn't mean that i can too.

Sometimes i wonder why my mum can be so heartless?
Sometimes i wonder why would my mother treat me like that?
Maybe i'm pick from the rubbish dump?

FUCK OFF! I HATE YOU!

Training.
Jog the whole 1.8km, super tired can..
Plus only slept for like 3 hours? Can die...
But after that played dodgeball.
Super fun can!
Then train for awhile then briefing..
Super boring can, want to sleep..

I'm watching Dou Niu Yao Bu Yao.
Nice to watch okay.
Ep3 Part2.

Thats all for today, off to sleep soon! :)

Look look look at the time!
I'm still not tired.
High on msn! With fernanda and amanda.
I'm bored, i shall go offline and watch my television!

Gong Zu Xiao Mei, Ep11.

Ciaoz, i'll be back :D

I'm watching gong zu xiao mei now,
But i can't concentrate.
Millions of question going through my mind,
Very xin ku..
What can i do? I don't feel good, who can help me.
I'm sad, really very sad..
My heart is aching, thousands of needles poking through my heart.
Who can help me?

I don't want to feel the way i'm feeling right now.
I'm suffering, how i wish i could just die without thinking of anyone.
Why must my life be like this.
Nothing is fair, i mean Nothing!

I'm bored now.
Who wanna go out later?
Text or ring me.

I'm going to sleep soon.
I'm super tired,
And Jermaine is not saying a single word on the phone -.-

Its 3.30 and i'm still not sleeping! :D
Going to sleep soon!
I'm tired! *yawns*
After a hard day of training, and i'm gonna sleep till i'm happy :x
Hope so, but i don't think its possible.
I told fernanda to call me when she wake up,
Which i think is super early.

There's no training tomorrow and saturday, so cool! :D
Equals to can slack for 2 days!
HAHAHAHA! :)
And i've finished watching ISWAK,
And joan is like only at Ep 4?
I'm making her jealous! xD

A bonded team! <3


--




MAUREEN IS LOVED! <3



Maureen says as long as i'm happy, she's happy!
I'll be happy! (:

9 more days to Malaysia's competition!
Jiayou! :D

----

Yuliah, i know you will read this.

Cheer up alright! He isn't worth of your tears.

No matter what happens, you still have me!

Strangers are better off (?)

They can never hurt you unless you bring them closer.

If he has hurt you, don't believe him again.

Or at least not blindly.

There's nothing called forever, forever is nothing.

Be strong!

Love never fails to hurt someone.

SMILE! :D

Anything can talk to me yea?

I didn't go for training again.
Was having fever -.-
38.8.

I don't feel good.
Sad.....
Don't ask why.
Maybe this just shows that i'm nothing to you.
NOTHING!!!!

I MUST BE STRONG!
I'LL GET OVER IT!
I'LL BE STRONG!
STRONG STRONG STRONG!!!!

Maybe its just your coldness to me,
That i decided to get over you.
YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL!

-----
I think joan is crazy.

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence, :
M-A-I E-M-O L-A-H

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] Maybe somehow if you'll be more straight forward, we wouldn't be like this ❤ [/c] :
Didn't.

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence,:
Like real ah!

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] Maybe somehow if you'll be more straight forward, we wouldn't be like this ❤ [/c]:
:)

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence,:
Emo shit, yo

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] Maybe somehow if you'll be more straight forward, we wouldn't be like this ❤ [/c]:
Nope.

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence,:
Yesh.

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] Maybe somehow if you'll be more straight forward, we wouldn't be like this ❤ [/c]:
Nah

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence,:
Step not emo nia! hahahah

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] Maybe somehow if you'll be more straight forward, we wouldn't be like this ❤ [/c]:
No, not emo


[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence,:
Okay laaa, not emo k?

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] Maybe somehow if you'll be more straight forward, we wouldn't be like this ❤ [/c]:
Yeah.

----
She is really mad.

12/9/2007
9:34:07 PM

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence,:
All I want for Christmas is you!

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] If only you know how i feel. ❤ [/c] {I'm nothing, nothing to you.}:
?

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence,:
All I want for christmas is for you ;D

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] If only you know how i feel. ❤ [/c] {I'm nothing, nothing to you.}:
Uh huh, why?

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence,:
Is you la .

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] If only you know how i feel. ❤ [/c] {I'm nothing, nothing to you.}:
Orh

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence,:
Walaozh

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] If only you know how i feel. ❤ [/c] {I'm nothing, nothing to you. I'm not feeling good.}:
Like as if it will be me

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence, :
Will be lah!

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] If only you know how i feel. ❤ [/c] {I'm nothing, nothing to you. I'm not feeling good.} :
Haha.

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] If only you know how i feel. ❤ [/c] {I'm nothing, nothing to you. I'm not feeling good.} :
Won't la.

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence, :
WILLLL :@!

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] If only you know how i feel. ❤ [/c] {I'm nothing, nothing to you. I'm not feeling good.} :
Orh, okayokay.

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence, :
wl..............

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] If only you know how i feel. ❤ [/c] {I'm nothing, nothing to you. I'm not feeling good.}:
:D

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence,:
Walaoz ehz

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] If only you know how i feel. ❤ [/c] {I'm nothing, nothing to you. I'm not feeling good.} :
Huh?

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence, :
Walao ehz/

#// [c=12]©МΞгĂβΞŁ™[/c] [c=4] If only you know how i feel. ❤ [/c] {I'm nothing, nothing to you. I'm not feeling good.} :
Why?

[b](J)[/b] Screaming in silence, :
Make me sad only.

----

Lol sia she, must be very bored.

I don't know.
I really don't know.
I really really don't know.
I really really really don't know what should i do.

Who can tell me what should i do?
I'm not feeling good.
I'm not okay, so don't ask me.
Who understands how i feel?
I'm in pain, really very pain.
Why do love hurts so much?

If knew things will go this way,
I wouldn't have fallen into it.
If i've the chance to choose again,
I will not choose the same path.

No one knows how i feel.
Just that i didn't say out,
Doesn't mean that i'm fine.
I may look strong, but i'm not.

I dowan to care anymore, but i can't.
I'm seriously tired, tired of the tears.
Why must i tear, when the person don't even care.
I'm a weakling, a loser.

If only you will give a fucking damn about me.
I would be happier.
Even a show is more important than me.
Tell me what i mean to you.
NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
F off.

I'm bored!!

QUIZ.

List the top 5 presents you want for your birthday ;
1. YOU!
2. YOU!
3. YOU!
4. YOU!
5. YOU!

Answer the following questions ;

The person who tagged me is ;
-Jermaine.

Your relationship with her is ;
-Don't know.

Your impression of her ;
- An idiot.

The most memorable thing she did for you;
- Nothing i guess.

If she become your lover , you will ;
- Don't know lei.

If she become your lover , what does she need to improve ;
- More straight forward.

If she become your enemy , you will ;
- Say: " GO AWAY LA!"

If she become your enemy , the reason is ;
- SHE LOVE (YOU KNOW WHO)

Your overrall impression of her ;
- Still an idiot.

How do you think the people around think about her ;
- An idiot lor.

The character you love yourself ;
- Nothing.

On the contrary , the character you hate yourself is ;
- Everything.

The most ideal person you wanna be;
- No one.

For people who care and like you, say something to them? ;
- Thanks, i appreciate it! :D

Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel ;

1. CAROLYN KOH
2. YULIAH TAN
3. SHAHIRAH
4. IRENE TAN
5. RICHELLE
6. FELICIA TAN
7. ESTELLA BU
8. LEE ZHI HUI
9. LEE JIAN WEI
10. GOON SIU WAI

Who is No.6(FELICIA TAN) having a relationship with ?
- No one.

Is No.9{LEE JIAN WEI} a male or a female ?
- Its a him.

If no.7{ESTELLA BU} and No.10{GOON SIU WAI} together, would it be a good thing ?
- They don't even know each other.

What about No.5{RICHELLE} and No.8{LEE ZHI HUI}?
- Neither do they know each other.

What is No.2{YULIAH TAN} studying about ?
- She's a smartass.

What was the last time you chatted with No.3{SHAHIRAH} ?
- In the afternoon today.

What kind of music does No.8{LEE ZHI HUI} like ?
- What i like, she like it too! LOL!

Will you woo No.3{SHAHIRAH} ?
- Impossible!

What about No.7{ESTELLA BU}
- Lol, her team keep disturbing when we got nothing to do with each other.

Is No.4{IRENE TAN} single ?
- Yeah!

Whats the surname of No.5{RICHELLE} ?
- She said is Joy-Chia.

Whats the hobby of No.5{RICHELLE} ?
- Don't know? Volleyball maybe?

Do No.4{IRENE TAN} and No.9{ LEE JIAN WEI} get along well ?
- I think so.

Talk something casually about No.1{CAROLYN KOH}
- She likes saying COOL.

Have you ever tired developing feelings for No.8{LEE ZHI HUI}?
- No way!

Where does No.9{LEE JIAN WEI} lives ?
- My house. LOL! Okay no, Jurong East.

Are No.5{ RICHELLE} and No.1{CAROLYN KOH} Best friends ?
- I doubt so.

Does No.6{FELICIA TAN} likes No.2{YULIAH TAN} ?
- As a friend maybe?

How did you get to know No.2{YULIAH TAN}?
- She is my peng you. Classmates!

Does No.1{CAROLYN KOH} have any pets ?
- Nope.

IS No.7{ESTELLA BU} the most sexiest person in the world ?
- I'm cold.

Training was shit today.
Whole day fitness -.-
After training stayed back to watch match.
Talked with yanqi and shahirah.
No, should say hear them talk.

I don't say out my feelings, how i feel.
Cause i'll breakdown.
Better not.
At home alone better, no one knows.
Keep all my feelings inside, i'll soon collapse.
I don't know why, but jealousy kills.

I don't want to talk about it anymore,
I can't take it.
I'm weak, i'm a loser like what alex say.

I may seems strong, but i'm not.
I'm tired of the tears.
I guess give up is the best solution.
And thats the only way i can do.

So bye, and everything will go smooth....

Now that (you know who) is not attached, maybe you will like.
I don't know what will happen,
But if you will to fall in love with another person,
I'll wish you all the best.
I guess thats the only thing i can do.

No matters how much hurt is caused me,
I'll still face it with a smile(?)

I guess i'm not important to you,
As it seems to be.
Maybe things should just end here,
I can't take it anymore.
It'll be better for the both of us.

If the day should come that we have to part,
We just have to admit the fact and say Goodbye.

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People says i'm pessimistic,
Say i always think negatively.
But thats what i am what.
Thinking negative, would make you feel better,
If things really do happen.
At least you expected the outcome.
It won't hurt you as much (?)

The fever's killing me.
Making me insane, idiot or what so ever...
38.5!~ Cool uh! :D

I don't know why it turn out this way,
Maybe we're not compatible,
Maybe what we need is fate.
Maybe the person you like isn't me.
Maybe it started out wrong in the first place.

If the person you like puts your friend/best friend pic as dp,
Will you feel good? Won't you feel jealous? Or even angry?
Maybe its just too overboard, that i can't take it anymore.

Maybe the one that you like in the first place isn't me,
It was her. But she has hers already.

You said you love her (you know who) a lot.
But just as a friend.
But who knows, maybe deep in your heart you love her as a lover.
That, no one knows. Only you yourself know it clearly.

You tell her everything, i can't stop.
You put her picture as dp, i can't stop.
You love her, i can't stop.
Tell me what should i do?
I really have no idea.
Maybe what i can do, is just let go.
And you'll have your freedom to like someone else,
Or even her.

Joan says i am a useless bum, and i think its true.
I'm good for nothing,
And some freeloader!

Played beach volleyball in the rain.
How cool..
Its fun okay, anyhow..
Think i'm having fever now!
COOOOOL!!
Played with water, haha.
Those type that came out from the floor.
Whatever you call it.
Hahah, damn fun..

Went to eat outside 7-eleven.
Yanqi's like a hungry ghost!
HAHAHA :D

Okay, i've no idea what the hell is going on.
Maybe what we need is time.
Maybe we won't go on any further.
Maybe we should end here.
Maybe i should let go.
Maybe i should carry on.

Tell me what should i do.
I won't know, if you don't say.
I'm tired of keep on guessing what you really feel.

Maybe i should just disappear from this world,
Then everything will be fine.
Go ahead on what you wanna do and move on without me.

If you think she (you know who) is irritating, or whatever.......
Think about your blog la, much more people can.
You said you care, did you even show it?
Did you even bother to?
I guess the answer is no.
At least to me, cause i don't feel it.

AIRPORT!

The view from plane!

























We used it okay! :D























Shasha's birthday!




























TAUPOK!



























TAUPOK TAUPOK TAUPOK! :D



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BACK FROM THAILAND!
After 5 long days...

Okay, the plane didn't crash and i'm back here.
Jermaine says i took submarine dere -.-

Had fun there, don't wanna come back.
Okay no, i miss my com!
There's so many things in singapore.
Would surely want to come back.

I'm tired and there's training tomorrow.
9-1.

I think i'm having fever now.
Sorethroat! No voice...


JERMAINE IS A PIG!
SHE LOVES TO SLEEP!
HAHAHAHAHA! :D


Pictures in the next post.