Have to reach school tomorrow at 9.00.
I'm tired.


I don't know if i wanna go hougang after that.
Seriously, i don't know.
Feel like and don't feel like.
In a dilemma.
Tell me what should i do?


I want those answers.
But you just don't wanna say.
I can't help it, it hurts.
Making me pek chek everytime you dowan to answer.
You think is funny, no it isn't.
I should just let go, cause this won't work.


Love is more than a feeling,
Its a state of mind.
Love is not to look at each other,
But to look together in the same direction.

I'm tired.
Both mentally and emotionally.


Slept for like 2 hours.
I'm sick :(
I think i'm gonna lose my voice.


Love do hurts.
It does, and it really hurts.


For now,
I guess i don't have to hold on that promise anymore.
I'm free to speak what i want (:

I've fallen too deep.
It's hard for me to get out now.


I love you, do you feel the same?
No, you don't.


Jealousy kills!


I don't feel good,
I shouldn't have fall into it.
It makes me feel terrible.
I don't know why.


Haha, JJ!
Or JT!
Whatever it is, you're the one.

I'm not feeling good.


I don't want to fall so deep,
I scared it would be the same ending.

I've phobia of falling in love.


You wouldn't know,
U're the one in my mind.

Jermaine's mouth got phlegm,
She say it herself.
Hahahah :D



P/s : Don't mention that person infront of me.
I'm trying to let go.
To end the suffering,
Firstly, don't mention it.
Not to think bout it.

Damn fed up with my grandmother.
I promised someone not to say vulgar,
So i won't..


Nag nag nag, only know how to nag.
Never get the fact right, then anyhow scold.
This kind of unreasonable grandmother,
Can go to hell la.
Move out la, why must stay at here.
Keep saying you rich, buy your own house la.
So stingy, don't want spend your own money.
Die already also cannot bring into your coffin right.

To be loved, its a blessing.
To love, its a torture.


Take me away from those sufferings.
I can't take it, its controlling me.


I'm strong?
I hope to be.
I've to learn how to.
Learn how to not let my feelings control me.

I seriously don't know what should i do.
Life just sucks to me.


I don't want to care anymore.
But everytime i look at you,
My heart turn soft.
An undescribable feeling,
I don't know why.


Friday's the last match for us,
Its at tp.
First match of the day.


Volleyball to me now,
Is so..........
Don't know how to describe.
I worked hard, i study,
Stay in volleyball.
Its just for the sake of see-ing you.



Now, you don't bother.
Should i still hold on?
I have no idea.

My 200th post! xD


I'm tired.
I don't want to care anymore.
I'm not feeling good, so don't bother.


We're out, last match on thurs.
Youth cup this year, ain't fun.
Sucks.



I tried my best,
Seriously.



Memories that are craved in my heart,
Will never be erased.

Lost today...

My service sucks man...
Training can serve so well, but competition?
KANASAI!

Coach must be very disappointed..
Sigh..


Hope next match can win bah,
If not we'll be out..




I'm useless, what can i do?
I'm good for nothing.
Tell me what am i good at?
1 word, NOTHING!

Group X:

SHUQUN
NGEE ANN
PHS RED
SEMBAWANG
CHUNG CHENG
XIN MIN


Group Y:

JURONG
PHS BLK
KOLAM AYER CSC
BUKIT PANJANG
UNITY
PEICAI

---

Tomorrow,
PHS red VS Chung Cheng 8.30am
SQS VS XMS 9.15am
NAS VS SMB 10.00am

Didn't go for training.
Tiredd...


Reach Hougang at 8am yesterday.
Do libero control, $40..
Plus that time de, $30..
Total is $70...
More than enough, i think..



Tomorrow, i scared la!!
Sure paiseh like siao..
Die die!!!
Secret secret! :D



25th november 2006
The day which i'll never forget.
Days comes and goes..
Time flies...


I've these special times with you,
And no long have i had with you..
I want them back, never want them to stop.
But that's part of being human.
Stop, renew, stop, renew.
None of us can undo what we'd done,
Go back into the past,
Or relieve a live thats already recorded.


It hurts when you can't be with someone you love.
I have to be at peace with your desires.
There's no formula to relationship.
Love is when you're even more concerned about,
Someone else's situation as you are about your own.

Get to see her yesterday,
Was doing libero control for her match.
Then yiting message me say what happy right,
Lame sia, still say they all at there observing.


Denise go give her the sweet then add extra words.
What beloved beloved..
Then later when we playing ball,
The ball roll towards them,
They at there disturb say what let her take let her take..



Ngee ann won today, 2-0..
Grats Grats!
My antenna long okay, thats why i know.
HAHAHA!

I ask her when is their next match,
Then she say, your antenna long then you go check lor. .
Good lor she...

But anw i still found out from the fixtures.
Thursday, 3pm @ Temasek Poly sports hall court 2.
Ngee ann VS Anderson.

Say my antenna long already. HAHAHA!



Sad, there's match tomorrow but they don't have.
Have to reach hougang at 10.15am.
1 hour and 15 mins earlier.


Ahhh, i want see her!!!!!!!
Don't feel like going tomorrow,
Cause there's no her.
I study, its just for her..
Not cause of other things..



Got back my report book.


Failed:

Maths, Science, Geography, Home Economics.


Passed:

The rest except for the above 4..



Comments:

Merabel has been a reliable chairperson.
She has a jovial nature and can be quite vocal at times.
She is capable of doing better if she learns to priortize,
And channel her energy into more important things.

Birthday is like tomorrow, but i don't have the mood..

Going to vivo with classmates..
But have to reach home before 6 :(
Birthday still must go home so early,
Wth lor...


I tried my best to forget,
But i can't..
Thought you should know,
Sigh...



Working on monday, YAY!!
Like 1 match $6..
Easy money.. HAHAH!

2 more days! :)
And 3 more days to youth cup! :)


I don't want to have anything to do with you,
Understand?
So what if you wanna celebrate my birthday with me?
I've the choice to say no right.
Its my birthday, i make the choice.



Happy that i passed my EOY and promote to sec3 express.
I was given a chance, i've to do well next year.
I promised, if i promote,
I will study....
Hope i can fufill my promise...




First match: 29/10/07

SQS vs PHS
10.30 @ TP...



Anyone wanna go out on sunday,
Msg or contact me..
The more the merrier,
Give some face la..
My birthday leh!!!!
HAHAHAA! xD

I'm left with memories.
A past , very very dear to me.
I once held so tightly, kept it to myself .

It's so out of line to try and turn back time.


Memories---1102 25/11/06


From :
koh Carolyn
Sent :
Sunday, March 11, 2007 10:22 PM
To :
mysterygal_me@hotmail.com
Subject :
Ps. I'm still not over you ( Off from your Msn nick :))



Heyyo . I'm very sorry for no replying your messages .
Just that my current phone got confiscated & I can't use it .
( My bill exploded that is ) .
Then I bought myself a prepaid card & it got cut off because it wasn't registered .

Umm . I only know that you messaged me on like .. 9th March .
My mum told me there were messages and so I checked them .

Hm . Okay . So I thought you had a girlfriend , and gotten over me .
I don't know should I be sad or happy , no seriously .

And now you telling me you're not over me , very .. um .
Some kind of . Suprise uh .

This mail's to explain myself and somethings are better left untold .
& it'll benefit both of us , right ? (:

Move on with life ! :D
Takecare & <3>

----


From :
koh Carolyn
Sent :
Monday, March 12, 2007 11:55 AM
To :
mysterygal_me@hotmail.com
Subject :
RE: Ps. I'm still not over you ( Off from your Msn nick :))



But really , some things are better to be left untold doh .
Okay since you want me to get to the straightttttt point ,
then I shall O:

I still have feelings for you , but I can't let go of my current bf .

Straight enough ?
So just forget me (:


---


From :
koh Carolyn
Sent :
Wednesday, March 21, 2007 9:51 PM
To :
mysterygal_me@hotmail.com
Subject :
RE:



Haah , I said : '' See you tomorrow , good night <3
I took the initiative to say good luck :)
<3

I'm bored..
And i didn't went to school.
So my mother don't let me go for training.
And then i can't go watch the football thingy.
WTH LORRRR!!!


I got 34/100 for maths!
How nice -.-
Well, no point cry over spilled milk.


I'm still stuck at lvl 17 in audi.
Sadd...

Oh please lor,
Why would i be bothered to be nice to others.
I'm not the one you used to know anymore.
You don't know me, not even in the past.
Don't think you know me so well -.-


I'm a good for nothing.
Happy? -.-


You wanna make people like you,
Then say bad things bout me, nevermind.
Say all you want..


So what if people ask you go first.
So bhb.
Ppl ask, isn't a need to go what.
Like what sia.


I'm good to everyone,
Except you.

Love will always turn to hatred.




9 more days!

The more extreme and the more expressed that passion is,
The more unbearable does life seem without it.
It reminds us that if passion dies or is denied,
We are partly dead.


Love is like water,
We can fall in it.
We can drown in it.
And we can't live without it.


There are no little events with the heart.
It magnifies everything;
It places in the same scales the fall of an empire,
Of fourteen years and the dropping of a woman's glove,
And almost always the glove weighs more than the empire.




10 more days! xD

Have lots of fun today.
Okay, not really.


Trained to jurong and then back to lot 1,
And then to city hall -.-
Went to merlion park see merlion.
Yuliah's friend! xD
Cannot move de! Hehe!


Went to the concert,
So tired, 1 and a half hour sitting down.
Butt pain >.<
Many people slept, HAHAHA!
Including me, of course.
Then when ending must clap.
Clap for so long still cannot go,
The conductor keep walking in and out, LOL!


After that went to suntec to makan.
Then went back to esplanade.
Saw huaiyue they all.
Walk with them to mrt,
Then saw Jian wei, weiquan, boon kiat and aikpeng.


Damn the train, so many people.
9 plus still so many people.
Got banglah also.
HAHAH!
Chou4 chou4! xD


They alight at jurong,
Then left me alone go home.
So sad lor! :(
But nevermind,
Got peiyi and yuliah msg with me.
HEHEHE! :)
Walk home, so dark.
Scary!!!!
Reach home around 10.50pm.
TIRED!!!



Its my blog, i can say anything i want.



I don't understand why,
Why do you have to stick to ************
Do you have a need to follow them?
You all from different school,
That is so far away from each other.
Must you be so extra?
Trying to be good to them.


You're just so LAME!!!!!!




11 more days! xD

Later gonna go esplanade watch concert.
I guess i'll be sleeping rather than hearing.
From 5.30pm to 8.30pm leh.
3 bloody hours................


I promised i'll never hurt you if you come to me.
I'll love you more than myself.
I'll dote on you more than anyone else does.
It's a promise i made.
Its gonna be a year soon.
It's only for you, my darling.
I love you.



12 more days to youth cup as well as my birthday (:

I'm feeling terrible on the outside as well as inside.
I don't know how to express it.
There's no one there for me,
To talk to, Someone that can be trusted.


I really feel very terrible.
My tears seems so uncontrolable.
I cannot bear it.
I need someone to say it to.
But just no one that i know,
I can talk freely to him/her.


I'm really really really feel very very very terrible.
Cheer me up someone.

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're wait from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They are free



But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do


If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide


But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do


But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do


What real love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What love can do
What love can do....

For the memory of love is sweet,
Though the love itself were in vain.
And what I have lost of pleasure,
Assure what I find of pain.

The meeting of two personalities is like,
The contact of two chemical substances.
If there is any reaction, both are transformed.

Accept the things to which fate binds you,
And love the people with whom fate,
Brings you together but do so with all your heart.

I miss you like the flower misses the sun.
Like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter.
Instead of beauty to direct its light to the heart,
It hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to.

I hope for a day that you would look back,
And take a look of me.
Go back to the old days.


Its soon gonna be a year,
Time flies..
The day which i remembered clearly.
Its so memorable..


Sad, mom sold my cookie {dog} away.
How dumb is it, she sold it away and she cried.
She's the one who wanted to sell it away,
I'm the one who is suppose to cry alright.



SENTOSA ANYONE?
Next Wed, 17/10/07?
The more the merrier!!

Exams are over,
Everyone jumping for joy.


I'm tired, very tired.
Got home around 9.


Tuesday gonna go durian watch concert.
5.15pm to 8 plus plus.




The day i met you was the luckiest day of my life,
And also the unluckiest day.
Bad in the way i had to forget you though i can't.
Good in a way, we once shared beautiful memories that i would never forget.
Never in my life, swear across my heart.
Those memories will last FOREVER.

Maths paper 2 was difficult.
To me, at least.


I only know how to draw the graph,
The rest don't know.


Literature is easy, but i don't think i'll score.
I wrote crap. HAHA!


Enjoy myself till 26th october,
After that i'll be died.



Now the sight of you makes me puke.
Don't disturb me anymore.
Leave me alone and i'll be fine.

Science paper was difficult.
I left blanks. HAHAHA!
I think i will get 20 and below,
Who cares.


Tomorrow is Maths paper 2 and Literature.
Day after tomorrow will be MT paper 2.
And the end of exams.
Cheers!


Looking back, I have this to regret,
That too often when I loved, I did not say so.



Gonna enjoy myself during this few days,
If not results come out = i die.



Anyone wanna go sentosa on.. like maybe 17th?
Everyone that i know will be welcome..
Let me know about it (:

Long time since i blogged.


Okay, Eoy's coming..
Like this coming friday?
Thats fast..


Hope i can do well, and stay in express.

Guess i won't be online from now,
Till the end of EOY.
Its like 11th october.
Thats long.
So, miss me guys. xD

Anything/nothing just msg me.
96980326.


I'm so gonna concentrate on EOY.
I hope i don't miss my com.
I hope my audition skills won't go down.
I hope i won't miss that person that i long for.
And last but not least,
I HOPE I WON'T FAIL MY EOY! (:



I love you like i do in the past.
Just that you didn't know.
I lied, for the sake that will move on.
I lied to you, i lied to myself too.
I'm think i'm the dumbest person on earth.
A person that don't know how to express my feelings for the one that i love.
Sigh, what a faliure i am.

No doubt, thats me.

Damn, i look like freak in this pic.

Forgotten when was it taken. The sun is bright!

UGLY!

At Century Square.

PS: Its the wall colour, and its red.

This looks scary.

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy,
I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry,
I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me
I’m going to smile.
Love is never lost.

If not reciprocated,
It will flow back and soften and purify the heart.

This better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
The hottest love has the coldest end.
Some of us think holding on makes us strong;
But sometimes it is letting go.
For few love can last a lifetime,
But for many not knowing when to let go can hold them back forever.
If this is goodbye, don't come backif this is the end,
Don't wake me up.


-


When you say I Love You,
Mean it.
Believe In Love At First Site.
To Fear Love Is To Fear Life.

Somewhere There's Someone Who Dreams Of Your Smile,
And Finds In Your Presence That Life Is Worth While,
So When You Are Lonely Remember It's True.
Somebody Somewhere Is Thinking Of You.

To love someone is to understand each other,
To laugh together,
To smile with your heart and to trust one another.
One important thing is to let each other go if you can't do this.
If music be the food of love, play on.


Love reminds you that nothing else matters.
Love is more than a feeling;it's a state of mind.
The best things in life can never be kept;
They must be given away.
A Smile, a Kiss, and Love.
To love is not to look at one another,
But to look together in the same direction.


-


If you love someone you say it,
You say it right then,out loud,
Or the moment just...passes by you.


Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others,
And the delight in the recognition.
There is no remedy for love but to love more.
There is always some madness in love.
But there is also always some reason in madness.
Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind;
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.

Editteddddddddd!!!


Didn't have the mood to blog, or rather no time.
Have been studying =/


I'm addicted to Facebook.
So fun yea.


5 october will be the starting of EOY!
And its like 14 days from now.

Will be going on HIATUS soon!!!
Will be back after EOY!

And it will be like 11th of october?
Then no need to go to school till 19 of october.
8 days of holidays!
COOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLL! xD



Love each other or perish.
Love is so supremely important.
Without love, we are birds with broken wings.
Don't cling to things, cause everything is impermanent.

I'm tired, very very tired.

Tired of all this kind of things.
Have been coming home late, Like 8 plus.


There are stars tonight, but not many.
I look out of the window, i saw the cresent moon.
I prefer a full moon to a cresent moon though.


I've thought about it,
I'm so gonna forget you.
I'm determinted!!!
The day i totally forgotten about you,
You'll be very happy.



Life is a series of pulls back and forth.
You want to do one thing,
But you're bound to do something else.
Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't.
You take certain things for granted,
Even when you know you should never take anything for granted.
The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love,
And to let it come in.


"Let it come in.
We think we don't deserve love,
We think if we let it in we'll become too soft."
Love is the only rational act!


17 more days to EOY!

No mood to blog.


There's no star tonight.
So sad..

Teared not cause of jersey thingy,
But of other things.

Miss those memories that we shared.
I thought of how we meet, getting close to each other.
Developing feelings for each other, how close we used to be.
I know, things that are gone, i couldn't find it back.
The fact is we are like not even friends, don't talk to each other.

I'm trying to let go, very very hard.
Tears just keep rolling down..
I just couldn't control it.

I forced myself to smile, put up a strong front,
Just to not let people know i'm hurt inside.


All i want to do now is to,
Concentrate on my studies,
Score well for End-Of-Year && Promote to Sec 3 Express.

No love for the time being,
No dropping of tears for e time being,
Happy all the time! (:


18 more days to EOYs.

Went to meet yuliah and melissa at yew tee foodcourt at 12.
Yuliah bought watch and off to shiwei's house downstairs.

Played at de fitness thingy, waiting for that pig to wake up.
Melissa take my phone don't know call her how many times ah,
Still didn't wake up.


Went up to shiwei's house and slack.
For like so long?
Yuliah and melissa keep screaming cause of her dog.
Melissa keep pulling my shirt, the dog keep aiming yuliah.
HAHAHAHAHA!

Then bring the dog down walk walk,
And went to the basketball court.


Played basketball, that guy stepped my leg.
Swollen already ):
Now walk so pain, got blisters also.
Who call us play bare-footed.


Bring cookie down, yuliah and melissa keep playing with her.
They took lots of picture with cookie -.-
My dog leh!
Still say every week want come see cookie -.-
Later my dog like you all, don't like me how?
Sadded!!!


After that went back to shiwei's house,
Melissa keep pulling my shirt -.-
Shirt so big liao still keep pulling.
Cause of shiwei's dog, keep barking.
Wanted to sent them to yew tee but they say don't need.

So, i went home...

-

Letting go is never easy,
especially when so many others have become part of the equation.
Maybe, from the start i shouldn't have fall for you.
I'm just so wrong.
I fall so deeply for you.
So deep that i couldn't get out of this no matter how hard i try.
If the day come when we see each other again,
We can talk as normal friends,
Proves that i've gotten over you completely.

Yesterday


During recess, we stay in class slack.
That potato come scold us then make us do detention lor.
Plus got briefing at 12.45.
Then he say what you go now later you do 15 min dentention.
Like that also can -.-


Bangkok training tour : 27 November to 1 December 2007
Malaysia invitational volleyball competition : 21 December to 23 December



Actually need pay $700 de then minus minus only need pay $30.
Fernanda so suay need pay $450, who call you so rich.
HAHAHAHAH!
After that went to je meet shiwei then went to eat at foodcourt.
Eat le then go back school.


We tell the security that shiwei is last time in our school de.
Then transfer le, come back see teacher.
HAHAHAHAHA!
Play netball then i keep asking who is in my group.
Lol, really very blur mah.


After that went to commonwealth there de see-saw play.
So much fun there.
Melissa & yuliah keep shouting.
Cindy fell 2 times, same pattern but different side.
Super gong lor.


Took 188 home with shiwei and cindy.
Cindy wanted to go westmall but 188 didn't go.
She took de wrong bus lah. Pro leh..


Stupid shiwei, got 1 person infront dunno do what , don't know how say.
Then she purposly go make loud loud.
Another person on the music then she also go on.
Idiotic de lor.
Reached cck took train to yew tee then walk home.


SHIWEI IS SUPER THICK-SKINNED DE LOR!!
Hahahahaha!

Damn it, i want my phone :(
Sad lahhhhhhhhhhh..............



Training was super tiring.
At first was fun....
Till lph came..
Make me slide and jie qiu.
Spike so many balls, hand become numb le lah.
I DON'T LIKE SPIKING!


When walking home, saw shiwei.
IS I SO UNLUCKY LOR, NOT YOU!
Who call you behind me.
Hahahahahaha.

Training was kinda bored,
But why am i so tired?


Today i'm a guai kia okay!
Listen in class. Do work.
End-Of-Year like in a few weeks times?
Any kind souls would be kind enough to study with me? Let me know.


I wanna get good grades and promote to Sec 3 Express.
Cannot drop to NA.
I talk but no actions.
HAHAHAHA!
Lazy me, hopeless.



Awaiting for minicup.
How i wish, minicup is just tomorrow.
Go to sleep, open my eyes and have to go to hougang.
Play match, slack and have fun in the bus.
HAHAHAHAH!



Hope 1 day you would look back and come back to me.
I'll always be there for you, no matter what happens.

I've made the promise to you, i won't break it though promises are meant to be broken.
I love you like i always do <3

Dragonboat was okay.
Sunburn! Sunburn! Sunburn!


I'm getting darker.
Suzanne keep saying i white(fair) .
Is she black lor!


Went back to school, bought food.
Then stay at canteen to slack.
So sad, school closed at 2 plus (i think).


Took 188 home, slept on the bus.
Super tired!
Reached home, intend to sleep.
Instead i'm here using the com.



School reopening on Monday!
And i didn't even touch till my hw.
Art haven't do, haven't study, haven't do hw.
Just plain LAZY!
No choice, who call me born out only lazy le.
HAHAHAH!


Nothing much to say.
Just,
I LOVE YOU.
something thats common, but its something that meant alot.
Every word you say,
Could change my life, change my everything.
Just for you.

Going for dragon boat later!
Since its already 12am, which means today is 8 of sep.


Super high now, and i am suppose to wake up at 5 -.-
Meeting shasha at je at 6.45,
Then go eat breakfast with the rest of B girls.
Need to reach school by 7.45.


I'm tired, but i don't feel like sleeping.
Anyone ton with me? Message me then.
Gonna offline and watch tv le.
Ciaoz~

I'm not supposed to love you.
I'm not supposed to care.
i'm not supposed to live my life.
Wishing you were there.


I'm not supposed to wonder ;;
Where you are or what u doing.
I'm sorry.
*i can't help butt fall in love with u.


Someday you'll will cry for me;;
Like i cried for you.
Someday you'll miss me like i missed you.
Someday you'll need me like i needed you.
Some day you'll love me but i won't love you.
So, goodbye forever, i'll be on my way.

Best way to forget someone is:

Make sure you dont see that particular person for like 2-3 months,
Keep yourself busy.
Like exams are coming, start studying.
DON'T stay @ home alone and emo.
Go out with friends. Just keep spending time with friends.
Or go out with your relatives and all.
Just like study now since exams are coming.
Stop listening to emo songs.
Just keep yourself occupied :D


I've done all, but it just doesn't seems to help.
Sigh, i dunno what to do.



Met shahirah at cck then off to jurong to meet shasha.
Waited for fernanda at the bbtea shop.
Off to tm, walk walk then went to century square to play arcade.
Hahaha!


Fate is what we are lack of.

Super tired.
Got 2nd for captain's ball.


My head got 2 more baluku. Sigh.
One is i jump up catch the ball then got 1 person kick my leg,
I fall behind sia. Is super pain de lor.
Got one more time is the ball behind then i take then kena my head.


Yuliah keep disturbing me.
Say what don't see already la.
I DIDN'T LOOK AT HER LOR!
Is she keep looking can -.-

I don't think there are many people who reads this blog.
Who cares.


I have many things to say.
Some things couldn't be say.
But some can! (:


Though i don't think you will see this, but i don't care.


I love you,
Theres nothing that can be compared to you.
I can give up my everything just to be with you.
Trust me, i'll be there for you anytime, anywhere.
Just give me a call, and i'll be right there.
Maybe the time isn't right.
But as far as i know, for me theres only you.
I'm not sure about the future,
But is just you that i wanted right now, so so so much.


I'm not that kind of person that if love another person,
I'll hate that person.
So, don't have the need to lie to me.


Lastly,
Good luck with J.
Last long yea?
All the best.


You can come to me anytime.
I'll lend you a hearing ear when you need someone to talk to,
Though i don't think it would be me.

Got back my results.

English : 64.0 B4
Chinese : 46.0 D7
Maths : 60.0 B4
Science : 37.6 F9
History : 62.2 B4
Literature : 60.0 B4
DnT : 66.7 B3
HomeEc : 48.0 D7
Art : 66.0 B3


Comments:

Merabel has shown a little improvement but she needs to continue to work hard to achieve a minimum of for EL1 (WHICH I DID CAN!) and an overall average of 50% (I ALSO DID!) to promote to Sec 3 Express else she will be transfered to Sec 3N(A).


Angry lah, I FAIL MY CHINESE FOR THE FIRST TIME! WTH!
I got 47/70 for common test and cause of homeworks i fail.
Pull me down, sigh. No choice, who call me don't do homework.

My science hopeless de lah, expected to fail.
Home Economics, didn't do the cooking test as i didn't come to school on the day.
So, i failed.

The worse of all is i didn't even got an A.
HOW PRO AM I!

An Express student without an A.
Guess i'm the only one.
Sigh.



It is really hard to forget someone you really love.
But yeah, i make the promise.
I've to do it.
I won't make empty promises to you.
Time is all that i need.

-

I will keep you with me in my heart.
I promise I will be there.
You came into my world, changing everything in me.
You brought laughters and joy, along with happiness and blessings.
Put it simple, you made me came alive.
A vow of never leaving you is made when we came together.
And forever begins.
Stay with me, for ever more.
And I will love you for always.
I know there are times when I have got your heart breaking.
But I have never meant to do so.
Nothing beats seeing you with a smile so genuine. (:
I love you. ;D

Woah, my history test is like only 10/20?
LOL!

Training was tiring, aches everywhere.
I'm short!
I don't like jumping!



Sigh.
I don't know if i'm right not.
Did i make the right choice?
I have no idea.
Should it be like this?
What can i say.


Looking forward to nov.
Hoping that {you know what} will still be there.
So much that i've done for you,
Have you never appreciate it?
I don't think so.
I'm true.

Shawn won!
Expected la uh?


I have many baluku.
On both legs and the neck behind.
Fan gun till got baluku on the leg, pro right.
Do weights, then the dumb bar.
Heavy leh, 10 kg.
Put behind the neck.
Now so pain :(



If the day come when you need someone,
I'll be there.
Don't ever let there be a doubt in your mind.
You're the one that i always miss.

-


Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice, on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
how can we say forever
Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can't you see it baby,
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive, this romance
But in the end if I'm with you, I'll take the chance
Oh you can't see it baby
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

My blog is dead.
Hahaha.


When to play pool with valerie, yiting, fernanda, vera and cindy.
I fake fake angry with valerie then she angry :(
I don't let fernanda hit the no.1 ball.
Hahaha.
Pei Fernanda take train to jurong east then take back to yew tee.
Lol.
Damn funny -.-


I didn't study for history test.
Prepared to fail le.
Ahh, nevermind la.

Hahah, so cute.
Everyone keep asking me to remember them.
Lol.
Scared i shi yi.


IF i lost my memories,
In a way, its good lah.
Some people should know.

Wonder what if tomorrow i wake up,
And i don't even know who i am.
What will it feels like.
Hmm.. The start of a new life.
Cool.


Toa payoh sports hall tomorrow for finals.
Wonder who will win.
Lets see...

Today didn't go school,
Then sleep late late.
So long didn't sleep till late late le.
Haha, no lah.
Like only once in a week i can sleep till late late mah.




Went to see doctor.
And the doctor don't let me go for training tomorrow.
Cause of that stupid baluku on my head.
Whatever -.-


Tomorrow maybe going republic poly to watch match.
Or either Sunday.
But monday,
Confirm got go toa payoh sports hall to watch.


Sigh.
I don't know what to say.
Just know that you're still the one i love most.
Keep you in my heart for always.
You're the one that,
I'll always miss.
Never thought it would feel like this.
I'll be there for you,
No matter what you're going through.

You'll always be the sun in my sky.
It may be fate that brings us back again someday.
Though we go seprate ways.

Yay, got back my maths results.
Not good but at least i pass.
24 over 40.

Today i damn dumb.
Whatever.

Go jump.
Head hit tio the metal door the on top,
then fall. My back kena the staircase.
Then finger cut.

-.- Go ahead and laugh..


My head got abit blood coming out.
Damn pain.
Swollen :(
And i like injure till my backbone.
Sigh...

Tagged by Felicia to do this -.-

1. Valerie
2. Yanqi
3. Aikpeng
4. Fernanda
5. Shasha
6. Peiyi
7. Irene
8. Zhi Hui
9. Raehanna
10. Samantha
11. Suzanne
12. Carolyn

Q1. Why did you put Friend 1 [Valerie] first?

Cause she is talking to me now.

Q2. Why did you put Friend 12 [Carolyn] last?

Cause she is the one i'm trying to forget.

Q3. What do you think Friend 3 [Aikpeng] is wearing now?

Shirt and shorts?

Q4. Have you ever had a crush on Friend 7 [Irene]?

No no no.. She's my meimei..

Q5. What is the most attractive thing about Friend 4 [Fernanda] ?

Erm... Shuai? Cute?

Q6. What is least attractive of Friend 11 [Suzanne] ?

Hmm.. Got metal problem :/

Q7. How did you meet Friend 9 [Raehanna] ?

School?

Q8. If you had to label Friend 2 [Yanqi] , what would you label him/her as?

Kind? Friendly? Cute? Shuai?

Q9. Have you ever kissed Friend 6 [Peiyi]?

No?

Q10. Where do you usually go meet Friend 5 [Shasha] ?

At jurong east interchange? Then go school?

Q11. What can you see Friend 10 [Samantha] doing for a living?

Hmmm.. A pinching people job? Lol.

Q12. Is Friend 8 [Zhi hui] a model?

No?

Q13. What song describes Friend 5 [Shasha] ?

Hmm... Unbreak my heart? :/

Q14. Do you think Friend 3 [Aikpeng] could kill someone?

Erm.. Most likely. With his volleyball skills?

Q15. Does Friend 9 [Raehanna] look like a girl or a boy?

Girl?

Q16. Does Friend 1 [Valerie] play any video games?

Ermm... Don't know?

Q17. What flavour ice cream Friend 4 [Fernanda] like?

Ermm... Cookie and cream? Chocolate?

Q18. Has Friend 2 [Yanqi] ever broke someone's heart?

Duh?

Q19. Do you think Friend 8 [Zhi hui] would rather have a million dollar or their true love?

True love?

Q20. Would you/do you trust Friend 6 [Peiyi] driving skills?

She don't even have a license?

Q21. If you and Friend 11 [Suzanne] were locked in a closet, what would you do?

Find a way to get out of the closet?

Q22. How often do you talk to Friend 4 [Fernanda] ?

Erm.. Like everyday?

Q23. Do you want Friend 3 [Aikpeng] 's body?

Want his body for? So muscular..

Q24. You and Friend 10 [Samantha] is stranded on an island, how would you try to save yourselves?

See if theres anything on the island, then say.

Q25. What stores does Friend 8 [Zhihui] get their clothes from?

In some stores?

Q26. If you could change one thing about Friend 6 [Peiyi], what would it be?

Ermm.. Don't know?

Q27. What annoys you most about Friend 9 [Raehanna] ?

Hmm.. She always disturb me. Okay la, i also disturb her de.

Q28. What is the best thing Friend 5 [Shasha] done for you?

Ermm... Don't know.

Q29. If Friend 7 [Irene] were a restaurant, which would they be and why?

Ermm.. Depends?

Q30. Do you know any dirty secret of Friend 12 [Carolyn] ?

Ermm.. Don't think so? Even if have also cannot say.

Q31. At your wedding, what would Friend 11 [Suzanne] be doing?

Erm.. How would i know?

Q32. What is Friend 8 [Zhihui] most afraid of?

Me? Hahah, no la.

Q33.What animal should Friend 1 [Valerie] be?

Anything that she like?

Q34. What do you think Friend 10 [Samantha] is thinking right now?

Thinking of..........................

Q35. What is the worst thing Friend 7 [Irene] could do to you?

Not helping me play audi? LOL!!

Q36. Would Friend 3 [Aikpeng] be as hot as the other gender?

Ermm... Should be?

Q37. Is Friend 12 [Carolyn] going to read this?

Most likely not. Don't think she would care -.-

Q38. Why or why not?

Hmm.. Bu fang bian at here say.

Q39. What were your first thoughts when you saw Friend 7 [Irene]?

Cute??

Q40. Do you trust Friend 2 [Yanqi] with your deepest secret?

Ermm.. What deepest secret do i have??

Q41. Would Friend 2 [Yanqi] be a good teacher?

Teaching ppl how to speak vulgar? Lol, kidding...

Pass it on to twelve people!

1. Yanqi
2. Valerie
3. Irene
4. Samantha
5. Suzanne
6. Zhi hui
7. Jian wei
8. Dexter
9. Daniel
10. Yuliah
11. Elaine
12. Hui min

Yay, Common test end le..
Time to relax..
Woots!!

For once, i want minicup to come fast.
Now, i dread minicup to come..
Wonder if it will be the same as last year?
End up like...............
Will it be as fun, interesting as last year?
I don't think so..

Maths was rather easy?
Cause i anyhow do?
Think will fail bah..


Nothing much to say,
Just don't have the mood to..
Sigh, you've my promise to that..
Though promises are meant to be broken.


Tired.. Mug Mug & Mug!!
2 tests tomorrow..
Science (the subject that i dread most)
History...


Everything sucks.

Life sucks,
Love sucks &&
I sucks!!

Sigh, what more can i say..

Sigh...

Wish you good luck,
Last long with *.
* must be very fortunate.
Hoping that * will give you hapiness,
That i can't give you.
Hope * will treat you much much better than how i treat you.


This post is specially for you and your stead.
Wish you both all the best.
Take care.

Sucks man.
I hate my mother.
Everytime don't let me go out.
Say study first also don't allow.
Where got this kind of mother sia.

My brother want go out can.
I want go out, cannot.
Bias sia.
So unfair can..
Everytime give those lame excuse.

What for study when even get good marks or not,
Also can't go out.
Stupid sia.

National day was fun fun fun..
Okay la, not really..
2A total earn le $110..
Yay!!

I dedicated 3 songs..
First one is, The day you went away.
Second is, Truly deeply madly and the comment is I Love you, *.. Written by fernanda.
Third is, Skater Boy and the comment is i think Samantha is an idiot.. Also written by fernanda.
HAHAHA!!!

Actually wanted to go to the haunted house, but see the que..
Sian already. So damn long..


After that change then meet samantha vera cindy and lynn at redhill,
Then off to Tampines mall.
Saw lixuan there.
I tell shasha then she say so fake.
Then turn behind saw her.
HAHAHA!
Like so qiao hor,
See lixuan 2 times.
At Tm and Century Square.
Its called fate, YUAN right shasha?


Too bad they got training,
Shasha keep on say wanna see *,
But she studying.
I want see *,
But she got training.
Sigh..

Days pass, I still miss those days.
Day by day, instead of fading the love i had for you,
Its growing..

I'm gonna get over you.
I had already promised you.
Sigh.
Sometimes i wonder what if i didn't promise you that.
Or rather i didn't tell you that .........................

Nah, its all too late...

I have learnt.
Cherish the opp or you will live to regret it.
Two chances, but i just let it go.
The one on the bus and on the mrt.

Hai, what can i do now?
Hope the time will rewind?
Nah, its impossible..

Sigh, no one understands me.
No one really knows how i feel.
I've been hurt so deeply in my heart.
But still, a smile infront of everyone..

I'm happy, Oh yeah i am...
Happy, Be a happy person..
Be strong Merabel, don't be so weak..

You've to get over this.
There's no choice.

A person with the same number.
Hai, get over it man.
Move on yo.
Life has to go on with or without *
Ain't i right?


*A person's appearance doesn't count.
What counts is their heart inside of them and their personality.
No one wants to be told that they're not good enough...

Saw it somewhere.

I'm tired..
Very very tired.

Had pe today and then training.
Sigh, school tomorrow and training on sat.
8 on sat!! So early..
I want my beautiful sleep :(
I'm becoming panda -.-


Love isn't suitable for me.
I don't wanna give up, but i have no choice.
A smile infront of everyone..

Now then i know Guo hao and Agnes is volleyballer.
Dude, i'm damn slow.

Today science test is totally horrible.
Must go watch porn, then can know more about sexual intercourse -.-
Left lots and lots of blank, who cares.

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I'm SO SO SO SO sad now.
Well, people that hate me would say too bad for you or serve you right or something like that.




Maybe i'm not good enough for you.
Or rather i'm a failure.
Maybe i should give up, if i could.



The more i think about it, i sadder i get..
I tried to hold back my tears,
But its just too difficult..



I want, i want
You!!!

No matter what, know that you're always 1st in my heart.
Love is never wrong.
It just depends on how long do we love a person..



For those people who hate me, you may think i'm despo or what.
But yeah, i truly truly love C.

For you I'd cross the world,

I'd do anything.

Cause for you, everything's worth.

Your appearence has caused a big change in my life.

Guess i've to forget you..

If not we can't even be friends..

Sighs~

I kept thinking of you,
I miss you.
WHY?
You don't even love me at all.
You don't even care about me at all.
BUT WHY AM I CLINGING AND LOVING U SO MUCH.
WHY I CANT STOP.
EVERYDAY LOVE IS GROWING INSIDE MY HEART.
People say, time heals.
Time totally make it worst.
I just need C, SIMPLE.
I'm waitin for u everyday, every min every sec.


Why WHY why WHY?
I'm still hanging on to you,
CAUSE I MERABEL, LOVE YOU C.
UNDERSTAND?

Nevermind.. I already know that there's somone else in your mind.
Someone that will make you happy, make your life better.
Someone whom know you better, someone who can take care of you better than i do.
I'm just no-one.

Im just useless,
A useless person,
A useless daughter,
A useless friend.


I can't see you,
I miss you,
I love you,
I need you.

Its 9 months, 9 months...

I don't care what you all say,
I'm a flirt, bitch, whatever.

There's training tomorrow..
Hope its not fitness.
Pray to god, LOL!!!

Whole body ache due to the FITNESS on monday -.-
I'm super super tired.

Common test is starting on 30th July.
So fast leh ):
Mug?
Hope so....

1 more day to 9 months.
You are the one i wanna chase, you are the one i wanna hold.
Letting go is never easy.

To prove that i'm sincere, and serious.
I'm gonna wait till end of year, or rather minicup.
Then i would..........................


Common test is in 1 week time.
I wanna study and get good results.
But i just couldn't concentrate.
You are always on my mind. (It may seems old fashion, but it came out from my heart)
You once said that you would study with me.
I treat it as a promise.
Though, i think it wouldn't be fufilled..

I tried so hard, so hard to remain in your heart. ))):

I felt so....

A feeling that i can't descibe it myself.

Friends are still better yeah?
No (zhihui).Friends betray each other..
Yes(Irene) )): Best friends is forever. :D
I don't know(Rae) I'm cluless. xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Your heart is not with me. I've been wishing, wishing for it so much.

Memories...


We were once so close. Sat near each other and yet still msging.(so sweet`irene) (so near yet so far`rae)
The last day of competition, prize-giving.
On the bus 147, i regretted not sitting with you. Though you wish to.(so sad`irene)(aww~`rae)

The memories still lingers in my mind, though we have little memories but i treasure it very much.

You went all the way to hougang sports hall just to support our match..
We went round hougang shopping centre looking for you all..
Screams~

Those were sugar sweet memories. It's not a useless thing to recall.

You wouldn't be replaced.

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love.
One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left.
Except for Love.
Love was the only one who stayed.
Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.
When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.
Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat.
Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat.
There is no place here for you."
Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel.
"Vanity, please help me!""
I can't help you, Love.
You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.
Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you.""
Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"
Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.
Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you."
It was an elder.
So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going.
When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way.
Realizing how much was owed the elder, Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Loveee is."


Saw this on mabel's blog. Very meaningful.

I'm dying to watch harry potter.
Gonna watch it on like monday?
So, people steady okay..
The more the merrier. (though i usually don't agree)


A day without you would seems like a thousand days without you..
So its already many many thousands days without you.
I don't like the feeling,
But yeah, its not for me to say.

I don't think you will see this,
Didn't see you online for quite some time.
Or rather cause nowadays,
Can't really online.
I tried to occupy my time, make myself busy.
Just to not think of you,
But no matter what,
I still can't..

Even if you see this, you won't know its for you.
You will thought that its for other people.

After so long, i still can't get over you..
9 months...
I once got over you for a period of time,
But....
I realised i miss you many many.
Though we didn't contact or what,
But i still.... yeah...


And something to clarify,

I didn't played you, or whatever..
I'm true about you, but its already in the past.
You said you wanna part,
its your decision.
I can't do anything..
Its my fault la, okay.
Stop saying its your fault la...

Its all over..
8th July 2007.

Its your decision,
I can't do anything..

I'm not worth your love..
I don't have the ability to give anyone happiness.
I'm not a good person.
A fucker, A loser, A sucker..
Everything..

You're the one who say lets part ways,
So let it be.

Ok, i'm sick of all this.
Sorry la, I did hurt peiyi's feelings before.
And i apologise for it can.
But i didn't cheat her feelings before,
I once love her but thats was in the past...
Now its one and the only one.
But in the future, i don't know la.


I'm not worth for people to love.
Always ended up hurting people...
I am not fit to be in love.
Go far far away from me............


Maybe someday..
Just someday,
When i learn how to not hurt people's feelings.
Then its time...


People say if you don't like a person already,
It's better you tell the person if not the people will suffer.
As it goes, chang tong bu ru duan tong..
Thats what i say to peiyi ma..
Am i wrong?
I think so...
Sigh, I have no idea what to do now..


There's training tomorrow,
Should i or should i not go...

For those spammers:

Get a live la..
Wasting your own time here..
Go ahead and spam all you want ( if you can ).
I'm not gonna reply your tags.
Waste of time..

Bored bored bored...


To some people that tagged my tagboard:

Say what you all like. I don't care..
And thanks for your compliment..
Pig is adorable..
Means you are saying me adorable? HAHAHA. (so thickskinned)
Pig is fat ma, got see before pig skinny de ahh.
First time hear leh..
If it isn't fat, would it called pig?
Haha, i have no idea..

Training is super super tiring can..
Call me to block..
Cannot even reach can -.-
I anyhow jump. HAHAHA!
Hand never even higher then net..
Li hai hor..


Its after 1..
And some stupid person keep calling me go sleep..
So irritating lor, no la xD
1 only, still early you know..


&& time for bed.
I don't think i will sleep anyway.
So, Shhhh....
Later someone scold me lor.

Someone just bloody hell spare a thought for me.
2 friends that can say i'm close with me,
Actually badmouth me..
Anyone knows how much it hurts not.
Tell her that i'm not serious about her.
Play play only.
And told her to forget me..
What kind of friend are both of you.

I wish i can...
Don't go for training, don't go to school.
But i know its impossible.

I can't promise you anything.
I'm useless, whatever you wanna say me.
All that i can say is I DON'T KNOW.
Sighhh...

There's training tomorrow Later..
Wonder if i can skip it.
I really have no mood to go for training,
Or rather no mood for everything.

I'm trying to smile.
Saying HAHAHA just for the sake of saying.
No one knows how sad i feel.


Okay, enough of crapping..
Off to bed, hope i can die in my sleep.
And never ever wake up.

HOHO, i am back to blogging.
After so long 5 days.

Lots of things happen,
And i'm lazy to type.
I guess some things are not convenient to say it here.
People will start to give comments,
And i don't really like it.


Whatever it is,
I need time to consider.
I'm scared that i don't love you as much as before.
If you think i am not serious about you,
Suit yourself.


I used to like more than a person.
But since 240507,
You're the only one i love.
I'm not sure about the future,
Cause no one knows what will happen.
Nothing lasts forever.


And the fcuker that told her all that,
If you happen to see this,
You are a F.U.C.K.E.R.
Are you jealous or what.
It doesn't even concern you right,
Busybody.


It had only been 9 days.
And we ..............
Sigh.

When will it be when i prove that i truly love you.

I am just like the sun and you the flower.
I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom.
Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you.
But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you.
Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight.
*this is the story line.

To be happy,
You can change the world,
Or change your thinking.
But to be realistic,
You have to change ur thinking to be happy.
As for me,
I will change the world for you.

As day goes by,
My love for you grew so much that a day apart was intolerable.
Dear, I love you so much.


Looking forward to the day we will see each other again.
2 more days uh.
Since i already waited for 3 days,
No harm waiting for 2 more days.

People say,
Longest wait is not created by the amount of time passed,
But by your mind.
Its true, isn't it?

It's feel good to be in love,
But not to fall out of love.
Love makes you happy,
But will also make you sad.
It's worst than being in hell.
It causes you to smile,
But it will also cause you to frown.
It cause you to feel hurt,
And also cause you to happy.
So, is love a pain or a gain?


Darl, I miss you so much.
Come back soon will ya?
I'm gonna bear the loneliness without you for 2 more days,
And thats it.


You never fail to make my day, dear.
I love you many many. (:
Be it life or death,
I will stay and stand by you.

I'm suffering in silence.

i love you darl.

If i were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ear that's ok
Would you stand by me, let me told you tight,
And say you love me one more time..

If i feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me, would you run with me
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be the one,
To take my breathe away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be the one,
To take my breathe away?

Would you be there..

If i'm away, would you still think of me,
And wish that you could hold me now,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
To take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that you love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be there,
To kiss my pain away...

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
To take my breath away.

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you will always be there,
To kiss my pain away...

Would you be there? for me...


..............


Today actually wanna wake up to message her.
I set the alarm clock at 5.
I woke up at 5.
She hasn't woke up yet.
Feeling so tired, I went back to sleep.
Woke up around 7 plus, Saw her msg.
My god, She's really damn sweet.


I miss you very much.
I love you whole-heartedly.
One day without you by my side,
I am feeling like hell.
How i am gonna tahan till tuesday?


Darling, you are my everything.
Without you will be like life without colours.
I really really love you.
Nothing could express my love for you,


My love i had for you is more than anything.
Trust me won't ya?
i know you do.
I trust you like how much you trust me.


I'll treasure you.
I will give you as much as i could.
Spend more time with you. (if i can)
Will not let you be worried for me.


I love you always dear. (:

My eyes is swollen.
Okay, Whatever.

.......

Everytime i look through the messages you send me,
I teared.
Even now i'm typing this,
I am tearing.
I know you don't want me to be unhappy,
But i can't help it.


Wonder what am i gonna do without you.
How am i gonna live without you?
Wonder what if one day you will to leave me,
How am i gonna live on with life?


I love you as it is.
You don't have to do anything.
I love the way you are now.


I love you.
I've no idea how to express it out,
But all i can say is,
I truly truly love you.
You are the one and only one in my life.
There will be no other person except you.
You are my life,
I love you wholeheartedly.


As much as i don't want you to go,
I still had to let you go.
I can't be selfish.
Enjoy yourself there dear.


From the day i was born,
I never teared for anyone more than you.
You make me tear when i am happy, touched and even sad.


You are the most important person in my life.
No one can replace you in my heart.
I love you darling (:

Training was super super tired.
Ran 1.2km. Coach expect us to run for 5 mins.
Crazy.
Do skipping, use the tube.
Skip using 1 leg, cause the other leg the knee pain.
So many people doing the same.
Then do weights.
Think tomorrow gonna have muscle aches. :/


Darl come to find us.
How sweet!
Early in the morning, she send me a lovely message.
That really make my day, dear.

She wanted to send me home,
I don't let. Hehe!
I send her to khatib.
Then she msged me,
Said that she taking cab to yew tee.
But when the time i saw the msg,
I already reached home.
Cause my hp no battery.

Sorry darl.
I'm really very touched.
Touched to tears.
I love you many many many! (:



If loving you is right, I can't go wrong.
I'll never let you down girl, will never let you go.
You are the earth,
I am the sea.
The world together.
I'll be all that you need.
If you should leave,
And go your own way.
I'll still love,
I will survive just for you.

Baby, run to me.
And I'll take you into my arms.
I'll never let you go.
If you give one chance to tell you how i was feeling,
I would hold your hands,
And tell you i won't,
Live my life without you.


Would you be there to love,
To be with me.
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that,
You'll always be the one to take my love away.


If i ask you not to go,
Would you not go?
I know you won't.
But its alright.

Someone is very proud of you.
Someone is thinking of you.
Someone cares about you.
Someone misses you.
Someone wants to talk to you.
Someone wants to be with you.
Someone hopes you aren't in trouble.
Someone is thankful for the support you have provided.
Someone wants to hold your hand.
Someone hopes everything turns out all right.
Someone wants you to be happy.
Someone wants you to find them.
Someone is celebrating your successes.
Someone wants to give you a gift.
Someone think you ARE a gift.
Someone hopes you are not too cold, or too hot.
Someone wants to hug you.
Someone loves you.
Someone wants to lavish you with small gifts.
Someone admires your strength.
Someone is thinking of you and smiling.
Someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on.
Someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun.
Someone thinks the world of you.
Someone wants to protect you.
Someone would do anything for you.
Someone remembers you and wishes you were there.
Someone needs to know that your love is unconditional.
Somebody values your advice.
Someone wants to tell you how much they care.
Someone wants to stay up watching movies with you.
Someone wants to share their dreams with you.
Someone wants to hold you in their arms.
Someone wants YOU to hold them in your arms.
Someone treasures your spirit.
Someone wishes they could STOP time because of you.
Someone can't wait to see you.
Someone wishes that things didn't have to change.
Someone loves you for who you are.
Someone loves the way you make them feel.
Someone wants to be with you.
Someone hears a song that reminds them of you.
Someone wants you to know they are there for you.
Someone is glad that you're their someone.
Someone stayed up all night thinking about you.
Someone is alive because of you.
Someone is wishing that you would notice them.
Someone wants to get to know you better.
Someone wants to be near you.
Someone misses your guidance and advice.
Someone has faith in you.
Someone trusts you.
Someone needs your support.
Someone needs you to have faith in them.
Someone needs you to love them.

Went to the New Water thingy.
Kinda cool.
At around simei there i suppose?


Msging darl all the way.
She's so sweet can.
She make my day man.
Aww, I love her so. (:


I'm super tired now.
But i gonna wait for my darl to online.
She's having training now.


IMISSYOU <3
21/05/2007

Sigh. Got back my results.
I am such a failure can.

English : 47/100
Maths Overall : 49.1/100
Chinese CA1 : 56/100
Chinese SA1 : 57/100
Paper 1 : 26/70
Paper 2 : 66/110
Science : 47/100
Geography : 38/100
Literature : 12.5/30
Art: 62/100


Dude, so far only pass Chinese & Art.
Pro right. -.-

Hahas. I won't lose too!

I LOVE VALERIE!
I LOVE VALERIE!
I LOVE VALERIE!
I LOVE VALERIE!
I LOVE VALERIE!


Hohoho! i got 5.
You only got 4.
I won again. (:

I am so fated to 3 can. -.-

English = 47/100
Maths = 47/100
Science = 47/100


Sigh. My results so lan can.
Each paper also need 3 more marks to pass.

I don't think i can get 60% for overall anymore.
Anyway, it doesn't matter anymore.
You say if i didn't get 60% or above for overall,
You won't talk to me.
Now you don't even talk to me,
So whats the different whether did i get it or not.


3 more days to the 8th month. (:

Got back my english results.
Paper 1 = 28/60 fail by 2 marks.
Paper 2= 24/50 fail by 1 mark lor.

52/110 X 100 = 47.

English got 47 over 100.


Guess i got to really get over you.
Well, I don't think i could,
But ...........
Anyway, must fight for your own happiness kay.
I'll support you till the end.
Be happy!
I wanna see you smile. (:


For the past 7 months,
I hope the best for you.
I hope that you would be mine,
But its seems that it'll never happen again.
Once, I almost got over you.
But the feelings came back again.
I couldn't help it.
It was not of my control.


Since 25th Nov 2006 till now.
I'm still waiting for you.
Sigh.

Went Phs to watch match.
And yeah, saw them there.
Sigh,
I guess i have to forget you once again.
Which i don't want to.


They went off early.
Msged her, but didn't reply.
I tell Shasha confirm 100% chop won't reply one.
And she really didn't.


Was shocked when they came back.
Then Shasha ask Zouyi call me from the court.
Then she point to me.
They went off at the second set.
It was quite late already.


Ended around 6.40pm.
Then went home.
Reached home about 7.40.
Gosh, i took 1 hour to reach home. Lol -.-

Just now when crossing the road, almost kena bang by motorcycle.
Was reading the messages that * send me.
Then got 1 person behind shout. i chua tio.

I'm not your type & you are dumb last time right.
Its alright for me.
I don't mind (:


Lastly, I love no one.
Including myself. (:

Didn't went for training today.
Was kinda lazy.
Muscle aches on my arm.
I find it hard to move my right hand.
It gets hurt whenever i move it.


Give me a chance.
And i'll prove it to you,
I truly love you.
Nothing could express my love for you.


Its better to remain silent.
&& if you know,
You would try to avoid me.
So yeah, what for?
I feel that friends are better,
At least we could talk to each other,
Without feeling awkward.

But, i just don't want to be just friends.
Perhaps, I'm waiting for you.

I love Carolyn more than anyone do.
I can't live without her.
I live for her.
I'll be there for you anywhere, anytime.
It hurts me when i see you sad.
LOL!


My stomach is in pain now. =/
I bet no one cares.


No one understands how i feel.
I only hope that she would be happy,
&& i'll also be (:

I once tried so hard to forget you.
But, it seems that i couldn't.
As time goes by, i'll eventually fall back in love with you.
Sigh.

Maths Paper 2 was difficult can.
I think i'll flunk it.
So happy can. No more exams - for the time being.
Can play le. No need keep studying anymore. (:

Must find 1 day, go out together okay.
Cannot pangseh one leh.
I miss you so.

If time could just be at 1 point of life, it will be good.


ILOVEYOU<3

♥LOVEYOUALWAYS ♥

Science paper was rather easy. Maybe because i did study.
My brother revise it with me (:
I expect it to be more difficult.

Tomorrow, Last & Final Paper && Freedom!! Woots! (:
Maths Paper 2
Hope it would be easy.
I m lazy to do maths.
Must practice practice and practice.
So bored can.

.......

I was under the shade waiting for you,
I came because I missed you.
It had been some times I last seen you.
I can still remember you heartening smile,
Your looks and the warmth you gave me.
You took so long..
Minutes seems like hours,
But it's alright,
Just when i about to give up waiting and walk away,
I turned and saw you standing infront of me with ur sweetest smile,
The look in your eyes just melts my heart.
I really want to accompany you home everyday.
I want to hold your hand,
I want to walk with you,
I want to sing with you till the end.
But, Are you willing to hold my hand?
Walk with me?
From The Day i saw you,
I knew my feelings for you wasn't simple.
I didn't have courage to say it out.
Just on that day, you told me you are leaving,
I turn away and i speak to myself.
I really love you and my feeling for you wasn't simple.
I love you.
Don't leave me alone here..


Honestly,i'm not a romantic person.
I dun know how to talk to people.
I open my mouth,
I would talk the wrong things and they will be angry.
What can i give,
I will give you.
What i can't,
I'll try my best to give you.

Why am i writing this?

Just Because,
8 letters 3 words, 1 meaning.
I wish i could hold your hand and tell you the 3 words,
But i just don't have the courage to do so.
So, I have to tell you here.
I LOVE YOU...

Literature test was kinda easy.
Did for like 20 mins && went to sleep.
People all write more than a piece of paper.
I only write 1 piece of paper, 1 page.
How pro am i. hahas (:
Carolyn will kill me if she know.


Ended at 8.45am. Super early can.
Then went to IMM walk walk.
Play at the playground.
Around 12 plus went to Tm.
When we getting off the mrt, saw the gerlyn they all.
Then to NgeeAnn Sec.
Sat at the void deck opp. NgeeAnn.
Then got a guy ask us whether want buy cigarette 5 dollars.
Woah, amazing sia.
He directly ask seh.
We went to buy *.
When we go back,
Then Lixuan call.
I was like where are they seh.
I look outside then saw them.
Then quickly hide. LOL!
They take 291 to Tm.
We take the next bus.
From the void deck, we run to the bus stop. haha.
Went Tm, never see them. Went around look for them, also never see.
Even went to Century Square. But don't have.
Guess no fate bah.
Then when we about to go home, saw them.

Carolyn very fierce can.
Then Shasha go say, you merabel's mother ah.
Then she go say something like that.
Funny seh.

Took train home. Super tired can.


&& Today i almost kena bang by car two times seh.
And almost bang into the wall 2 times. Gundoo right.

Argh. Elaine don't hai me la.


Name 12 people randomly.

1.Carolyn
2.Suzanne
3.Aikpeng
4.Lyvia
5.Joan
6.Elaine
7.Samantha
8.Shasha
9.Irene
10.Zhi hui
11.Raehanna
12.Dexter

1.What if #7 [Samantha] fallen in love with you??

- Lol. It wouldn't happen.

2.What if #1 [Carolyn] say out your crush??

- She don't know anyway. So many people know le.

3. What if #3 [Aikpeng] kissed you on your cheek??

- Not as if he didn't before. He's my ex what.

4.What will u do if #9 [Irene] asked you to be his/her stead??

- It wun happen. (:

5.What would you do if #12 [Dexter] backstab you??

- He's also not close to me. What for want backstab?

6.What will you do if #2 [Suzanne] love you??

- Good then. Jio her lo. Haha. No la, She's not les.

7.What will you do if #11 [Raehanna] is your secret admirer??

- No way, kill me will you? Hahas. No la, she is my meimei (:

8.What will you if #10 [Zhi hui] killed your parents??

- She my meimei where will kill my parents. If she would, i'll kill her first.

9.What will u do if #6 [Elaine] ask you out on a date??

- Depends on my mood. No la, see who got go.

10.What will u do if #8 [Shasha] stole your boyfriend/girlfriend??

- She won't. She got hers i got mine (:

11.What will you do if #4 [Lyvia] wanna to cha cha with you??

- Lol. Its impossible. She's not les.

12.What will you do if #5 [Joan] destory your day??

- No idea. Cause she didn't before.

13. Tag 5 people to do this quiz.

1. Carolyn
2. Joan
3. Lyvia
4. Shasha
5. Irene

Girl you know, I'd give you everything.
I wanna hold your hand,
And say the words he never said.
I'll make you promises you can believe.

When you're down and you feel so lonely.
Turn around, you can come to me.

You can just be yourself,
Cause I don't want nobody else.
All of your secrets are safe with me.
For the kind of love you can trust,
For more than just a crush,
Baby, won't you just come to me?

Let me be the one,
Telling you it's alright.
Sharing the smiles and tears you cry.
Let me be the one,
Loving you when you're weak.
For all of the strength you need,
You can come to me.




Maths paper 1 was kinda easy, but i afraid i would fail.
I anyhow scribble on it, then went to sleep. (:
After the paper went to JE.
Lyvia and co. went there for ice-skating.
We went there to see.
Lyvia claimed to be good at it.
Watched like from 12++ till 5 plus.
My stomach pain like bloody hell don't know what.


Okay, I am bored.
I love *. (:

我爱你, 所以选者让你走.
(I love you, so i choose to let you go.)

我可以为了你上刀山下油锅.
(I can climb knife mountain & go in oil pot because of you.) LOL -.-

我可以为了你牺牲一切.
(I can sacrifice everything because of you.)



Thought of the past......

Why did i say wanna break with him.
I am so foolish at the time.
We have so much fun, but thats already the past.
Whats over is over.
What is done cannot be undone.