Hurt.

I dont wanna feel this way.. I can't do this.
Its hurting me so much.

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Tumblr.

Ppl who bothers to read every single thing in my tumblr is someone who i will cherish <3

One day.

I always wish i can lie down and gaze at the stars with someone i love. 

I wish.

I wish i found love.

Someone special.

Went for appointment ystd and the doctor said i can stop dripping the eyedrops and wear contacts again next week hehehe :D:D:D:D
He said i got high chance of getting qing guang yan. IDK WHATS THE ENG WORD FOR IT!
Even the doctor use the chinese term, so its ok hahahaha.

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Waiting for someone who's able to make my heart race.
I think its you...

Sincerity.

It's all about sincerity. 

What's love.

Surprised by how much i actually mean to you.
1/100?

Day 1 of 30.

First day of specs, 29days more to go to be able to wear contacts again.
Eyes infection suck, so pain and torturing.
I'm still awake at this ungodly time to wait till 5am to drip my eyedrop.
Talking about eyedrop, i dont get why does the eyedrop flow down from eyes to my throat.
ITS SO BITTER :(((((

Ok so the reasons why i dont update this blog frequently:
1. I'm too lazy to.
2: I dont have much to say because my life ain't that interesting and everything that i wanna say its already on my twitter.

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I really dont like it when ppl say stuff when they're angry and then apologise after that.
Sorry just doesnt help after saying it for so many times.

Indescribable feelings.

I've a fragile heart. Don't come near if you can't take good care of it.

Specially dedicated to youuuu~

Thank you so much for helping me with my saikang work. I'm thinking you'd probably see this so yeahh.
Thankssssssssssssssssssssss<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 ^^

Confused.

I dont really know what i want now. I dont want to hurt anyone :/
I need time, give me some.

Don't leave me hanging.

I really dont like the feeling when you cant get to know smth that you want to know badly. But oh well, this is life. You can't get to know everything that you want to. Can't expect things to always go your way either.

I.need.to.change.

Ever?

When will be the day i rest my worries and will always be sure that i won't be alone anymore?

I don't understand you.

I know i'm not the best for you and all i wanna do is love you but im the only one to blame.
Goodbyes are meant for lonely people in the rain, and no matter where i go its always pouring all the same.
In my eyes, im screaming for a sight of you and tonight i'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through. And i can't hold on to you so i guess i'll be lonely too.
Suppose we were happy, suppose it was true and suppose there were cold nights but found out that waiting is worth.
I never wanted anything the way i want you, but my words doesnt seem to matter.
Now i sit alone, wishing all my feelings are gone. I gave my best to you.

Darlin' love.

One word to describe how i'm feeling right now: Despondent.

All i need is someone that cares for me deep down from their heart. Like how i'd care for you.

To you, love.

"Just because we don't talk doesn't mean I don't think about you. I'm just trying to distance myself because I know I can't have you."

Anywhere you go, i'll be there.

My heart needs to listen to me more :(
I've been keeping all my feelings to myself and i feel so stressed up..
Pls try not to talk to me if you dont intend to keep my heart.
I feel so horrible.. And no, sorry doesn't help.

I never thought i'd still feel this way,
I've no one to talk to.. Don't say that i can talk to you cause you might never know that you're the one that i like.

Stolen heart.

Let go of what kills you and hold on to what keeps you breathing. And i guess to me, you're both. So, what i do from now?

Past.

Lonely nights like this makes me think of the past. I know i shouldn't be looking back.. 

I know you still remember what we went through, all the hurt i've given you. 

You ain't turning back and neither do i expect you to. I hope you're happy now. 

You should know that i'm never good with words and i doubt you'll get to see this post but i do hope if you get to see this, you'll think back about those happy moments we had tgt though i know its just a really really really small part.